There's a soft feeling
Inside my heart
Never knew it's beating
Or when it start'

It is Cold
I tell you Farewell
How shall I Rise
When I can’t Hold you
I need you Now
Why did you leave
How shall I Grow
I am not so Strong
I just want to Hold you
I didn’t want to Loose you
I feel Lost
No more Farewell
I can’t Remember
This is Why
I’ll be Gone
Know that you were Loved
I will Return
To where I Belong

Break it's tiny neck
Watch the body go slack
Pull out it's tattered wings
Listen to your blood it sings

Crushed by your fingers
Some fluid still lingers
You watch it go
Down the endless flow

One more crushed
Whimpers hushed
But the emptiness
Only makes you feel even less

Hands raised to the sky
Gaze followed by staring eyes
It's so hollow inside
And so dark as the night


I watch the trees melt
I see the clouds pouring blood
The rivers dead fish held
Combined to a horrendous flood

Who is the person in the mirror
Looking into her eyes makes me shiver
What kind of a world am I living in
Runs through my head when I see her grin
Is she me? Am I me? Is she she and I am I?
Do we share the same world?

Make me scream
Make me cry
Make me feel
Let me dream
Of the sky
While I kneel

Let me hurt
Let me push
Let me bite
Take my word
Tell me hush
Soothe my fright

Wrap your fingers
'Round my neck
Your touch lingers
I'm a wreck
My skin flickers
Gaining colours
Blue prints glitter
Lasting hours

The pain is gone and I feel free
No time that changes who I'll be

Sadness runs in my veins
A veil covering my body
Drowning my heart
Separating me
Burning in my lungs
Layering my eyes
Freezing my limbs
Suffocating me
From the inside out
From the outside in
The quickest way to emotional death

Sickening sweet
How you bleed
Satening my greed
The beast freed
Taking the lead
Feasting on meat
Pulsing to my heartbeat
Evaporating heat
Elation, I could weep

Is there something waiting?
Anyone? Anything?
This feeling of fainting
A black, heavy wing

Reality or an illusion?
A dream?
Some kind of a fusion?
Is it or has it been?

I am drifting
A ship on the sea
Water uplifting
Door without key

Will it end
Or do I have to spend
More time than expected
'Till I am selected?

I am not scared
I never cared
Life will leave me heartless
Finally drowning in darkness

I think
And that's what I love to do
That it is all in my head
I blink
And I have to realise
That I was once again misled

When you want to sing but the words are to heavy
When you want to speak but words get stuck in your throat
Then your world doesn't look wonderful, its shabby
When you look up into the sky watching butterflies
When you hear birds sing, thinking life must be wonderful
But you know it's not like that, it feels like something dies
All these things combined in your heart
Nothing to fear but it is way to dark
All these scars burned into your soul
Forming a single large mark

Living is not very encouraging
Time tends to fly away or crawl inch by inch
Clear moments are followed by worren thoughts
Where there is simple ness, complex situations hide from you
Only to jump in your face, when you thought everything went well
You are happy? Look back and you can see the drowning feeling on it's heels coming closer
If you close your eyes you can almost forget it even exists
U till you open then, ripped out of your thoughts because of a knife stabbed into your back poking out of your stomach
Be honest, it's not as if you didn't expect that to happen
Life truly isn't easy, well, nobody claimed it to be
You can cry and scream and hit and bite, pull, push
Staying alive is harder
To keep going on
To accept
To bear
It's like getting caught in a spider web, struggling to get free while only tangling oneself deeper into the web until there is no room for movement left
I believe I shall call it
Strangled by life

I wish I was a spider
Didn't have to be a fighter
I'd be much lighter
Giving some a frighter

I'd be quite hairy
Some might say scary
Others'd be weary
Though it's quite contrary

I'd be content
Having a friend
Who'd time to spend
And didn't pretend

I'd sit in my web
Next to the tab
Weaving my trap
Without a gap

I'd wait for prey
Bid you to stay
Each and every day
I'd pray

Wouldn't it be nice
Without the reminder
Way more kinder
If I'd only be a spider?