Living is not very encouraging
Time tends to fly away or crawl inch by inch
Clear moments are followed by worren thoughts
Where there is simple ness, complex situations hide from you
Only to jump in your face, when you thought everything went well
You are happy? Look back and you can see the drowning feeling on it's heels coming closer
If you close your eyes you can almost forget it even exists
U till you open then, ripped out of your thoughts because of a knife stabbed into your back poking out of your stomach
Be honest, it's not as if you didn't expect that to happen
Life truly isn't easy, well, nobody claimed it to be
You can cry and scream and hit and bite, pull, push
Staying alive is harder
To keep going on
To accept
To bear
It's like getting caught in a spider web, struggling to get free while only tangling oneself deeper into the web until there is no room for movement left
I believe I shall call it
Strangled by life

Sadness runs in my veins
A veil covering my body
Drowning my heart
Separating me
Burning in my lungs
Layering my eyes
Freezing my limbs
Suffocating me
From the inside out
From the outside in
The quickest way to emotional death

It smells so sweet
Just like a treat
Of cinnamon and vanilla
Gingerbread and camilla
Oranges and pine
Walnuts and lime
And don't forget the thyme
There's a bit of mint
Inside a pint
Rosemary, sage and lavender
Combined in a suspender
And just a breeze
Of anise
Some cloves and nutmeg
And last but not least
Of course, chocolate!

I guess I could say merry Christmas
It's this time of the year again
Where we wish each other some happiness
And hope there'll be snow instead of rain

Our homes will be decorated in light
With candles and greens making us smile
There will be a Christmas tree shining skin bright
So you want to sit down and gaze for a while

It smells of cinnamon, oranges and pinecone
Of baked treats, vanilla and punch
A time when nobody wants to be alone
And a shared smile can do so much

When everything is warm and comfortable
Soft music starts 5o play in the background
You know this moment is incomparable
Everyone joined together from all around

I wish I was a spider
Didn't have to be a fighter
I'd be much lighter
Giving some a frighter

I'd be quite hairy
Some might say scary
Others'd be weary
Though it's quite contrary

I'd be content
Having a friend
Who'd time to spend
And didn't pretend

I'd sit in my web
Next to the tab
Weaving my trap
Without a gap

I'd wait for prey
Bid you to stay
Each and every day
I'd pray

Wouldn't it be nice
Without the reminder
Way more kinder
If I'd only be a spider?