The way I feel
Doesn't seem real
My heart pounds
Its says look what you found

A rare jewel in you
Makes me believe in the true
But your beauty belongs to another
Still I polished it made brilliance go further

Captured my eye and my heart
And I tore your world apart
Thoughts and dreams I showed you
What could've or should've been us two

And when you said the confusion made you cry
Well part of my heart just really died
I love your light and hate to see it dim
Especially when they are my sins

My eyes cant seem to look the other way
My heart and soul doesn't want to walk away
But what does love or admiration mean
If you take away from the sheen

If I am not fully a reason to shine
And in him you still are looking to find
And its me that cause your diamond to dull
Then I'll show you true love and go

To hold back doesn't feel smart
There so much in my heart
But to say it would rip us apart

Or am i just scared
Of your words
What's said cant be unheard

My gut tells me the truth
But it said aloud wont sooth
And probably wont change things but confuse

I want to charge into the sun
To make memories and have fun
Your cookie dough still not done

And I dont have the right to take
what's not mine, or cause it to break
I don't want to be a mistake

So I swallow it down,
I dont want you to frown.

They weigh me down
I've never shown it all
Let their words leave me bound
Took in the pain and built a wall

Your a man, dont show tears
Your a Marine, show no fear
Your a father, not allowed to fail
Your a worker, dont matter if it's hell

I listened to every word ,
though I was never heard
Stone by pain I picked them up
Every day I load them and began my ****

Till I couldn't walk or take anymore
Thought I would just crumble
Myself I had to restore
All of my soul and heart was a jumble

I saved them all, except myself
All it cost was my mental health
But I am letting this load go
A new path, that I chose

Some days I feel the wind
The cold from all my sins
Days I feel all alone
My heart hardens to stone
I once had days full of sun
When I felt your love I'd won
But it's gone away
So in the bleak I stay
Poets love too deep
The more we give, the more we seek
You knew how to use this
How to get the most and make me useless
Still now the cold breeze reminds me
Frozen heart my heart at least its free

My heart aches
soul is split
days of sun are done
I tried to love
Took the plunge
Felt the highs and
what lows have done
But to blame cupid isnt right
I put her in his arrows sight
She said it was done, Chose to stay,
even when everything said run
They'll say you made me this way
Truth is I kept the pain on rerun
As if anything I changed
Would bring a different outcome
I knew you were deranged
Recieved pleasure from my pain
This my heartache
The one thing i wont let you take

Wanted to stay
But I walked away
Not because I didn't care
Nor that I didn't want to share
I gave all I could
Probably more than I should
Open myself and held nothing back
Raised you up, confidence you wouldn't lack
Still it wasn't mine to shine
Said it was sweeter than wine
But for every smile, there was also pain
Confusion and what you felt was sin
So though it broke my heart
and you warn me from the start
I left to save your light
But you'll never leave me, try what I might
Cause your love left a mark
And walking away is hard