It's the pulse of life, as we know it. It can be in rhythm or without. It's the tune our heart makes as it pulses through one cavity into another traveling the universe within oneself. Sometimes I think it plays a melody to attract our mate. It's the one song I love to hear from my Special K. The tempo quickens when we are together. It's the rhythm and tune of our love.

Most will remember me by the way I talk with my southern slang, some remember me for my silly laugh. But the way I want to be remembered is by the way I loved you. How I hold you tight or how we cuddle on the couch. The way I brush your hair or how I rub your feet. How I want to take all your aches and pains away and give you a smile to see your eyes twinkling with delight. How I work hard to build our home that only love can build. How I delight in cooking for you my love. The way I support you in everything. That's what I want to be remembered for...in how I love you.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

Walk with me, hand in hand. This is just one thing I desire. Lean into me when you shoulder or you know I need a hug. I struggle to hold my unfiltered love from you. I long for the day to walk in the Divine love that we share as your companion, your help mate, your lover, your friend, your protector, your appreciator,  and hopefully one day your husband. Waiting patiently for the days that I can hold you a little longer. Kiss you a little deeper. To be intertwined when we awake in the mornings. Waking only for days of exploring our life together. Traveling seeing the sights and talking about endless adventures. I know how fortunate I am to have found such a wonderous, Special love. I can't wait to explore the vastness of our love together.


Dedicated to my love, my Special K

As you lean into me, you pull me close. It's wonderful to feel you next to me in the morning hours. My fingers running through your hair, your scent feels the air. Feeling the warmth next to me, has me waking care free. Today, I just wake up with the memories of one of those moments until the next moment we have. To wake up with one of those heavenly kisses, it's what I'm missing. To know your safe always in our place... together. Brings comfort to the waking mind, because how often can you find love of this kind? I say only once in a lifetime, so beautiful I hope this explains how precious each one of these moments are.


Dedicated to my love, my Special K

I miss the late night text about work. The daily phone calls talking about our home. The miles that kept us apart but still managed to walk enjoying the night air. The singing of the coyotes in the distance as the wind played along with the vibrating of the electric line. The comfort of knowing you were just one floor below me. I miss the nights around the bonfires as the glow danced around your cheek. The nights of giggling on the couch followed by the kiss on your lips. Breathing in your scent as I hold you tight like I long to every night. I miss you laughing at my southern slang. I miss the beauty of the sun sets as I tried to describe in just words... describing a beauty to someone who is just as breathtaking. I know the things I miss is only short lived until we become us in the distant future.


Dedicated to my only love, my Special K

My love for you right now would be notorious. I chase you like the wind grabbing a hold but not able to maintain the grip. If loving you is wrong then I'll always be an outlaw. My notoriety would be the way I hold you for the moment wanting only to take care of all your needs, to have your beautiful smile in return. If there was a story to be told of our love, it would be more than a fable or a fairytale. We have lived this way for three plus years, a taboo relationship. We both know it's more than that; it's a love that will last a lifetime. If you were Bonnie, I'd be your Clyde. If you were Belle Star, I'd be your Jessie James. If we had to live a life on the run I'd want no other to be with. For now, my love may be known as notorious but to me it's always right. I'll keep chasing you forever, my love.

Dedicated to my one and only love, my Special K

It's not because I'll forget. It's because I want others to know that love does exist. It's not a fairytale or some well written manuscript, it's living this miraculous life everyday looking forward to seeing or hearing from my love, to be included in moments of her life. It may with time be a way to reflect on how our love has blossomed over the years. If only but one thing be written about me I hope it would be how devoted and how I love her. My life would be completed with just those simple words. I love Special K.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

The way my arms ache when they are not around her. When going on adventure feels so empty because she's not there to make the trip complete. The way my heartaches just to hear her voice. How she lightens my spirit with a mere text. When you crave her kiss because she's the only one that has made your lip quiver after a kiss. How often bite my lip thinking of her. When I cook I only think of things she may want to eat. How you breath in her pillow wanting to smell her scent. When you get that smile just thinking of our crazy times. Even when there is serious talk you know there is always us and no end. When all you think of is the future that your going to have with her, the adventures, the foot rubs, the look in her eyes, the way everything brightens with her presence. The way you want to better yourself because that's the man she deserves. Being that man that appreciates her ever moment of everyday. Knowing that God has purposed you to be together. Not thinking that love like this can really be written about but knowing your living it. Though you have to love in secret in this moment until it can come out in the open. How she has become your joy, your peace, your comfort, and the most amazing love. How she shares her pictures and it brings you so much joy, knowing she is happy. Even after our covid kiss, you'd want to kiss her even more. Knowing no sickness, disease, or even death could tarnish this love.

Dedicated to my only love, my Special K

I don't want ordinary love. I want it to be epic, forever. That's what I have with my Special K. It's the everlasting hunger, I have just to be near her to hold her the way she needs to be held. I feel this journey of love has no ending or is not defined by time. From the touch of her hand in mine knows that this kind of love comes the Divine. I can't wait for this love to be translucent.The freedom of exposure so it can truly develop into this epic love, that I want to give to devote my being to her in every way. I know this love will be more brilliant than any diamond or gem. This kind of love could never be written about or painted with words, it can only be lived with my love, my Special K. In this love there's no fears of failures, no lack of appreciation, or lack of display of affection. I long to wake up beside her to pull her close and stare into those portals of heaven and tell her how fortunate of a man I am to find this epic love. If I ever faulter let it be in words or grammar for I am no master of these but let every intention be felt as genuine as it is in my soul for she is my reason, my purpose, and my destiny. For no longer is it I but it is us.

Dedicated to us, myself and my Special K

This is not my virtue, but still I wait anticipating on meeting you...home.  It's crazy how time is drawing near but I feel so impatient, I only want to hold you for the rest of my life, to taste your kisses with every morning, to chastened away your pains, to help shoulder the yoke for your children and family. But yet I wait with prayerful heart asking my Father to strengthen me when I falter. And ask Him to place His angels around you until it's my time. I ask that He remove the aches and pains from you. I ask Him to teach me to be patient just a little more. That way when patience is done; my love will be perfected in you.

Dedicated to my love, my beautiful Special K

If I ever stumble or forget who I am, love; will you carry me through. When words fail me, love; speak for me volumes I can not utter. And when alli can see is the storm, love; show me the blue skies and let me know your peace. After the battle cry and when the battle is over, love; lead me home. Remind me, love; that I'm never alone. When I need to heal, love; treat my scars that can't be seen. I'm never running away, love; I'm just trying to find the words to say. You've brought me a long long way, love; you're everlasting. When you're tired and weary, love; I'm here for you. Praying everyday, love; it's going to be ok. For the things we can't see, love; has led us. So hold on tight, love; well take on the night and let our love shine. It's a gift from the Divine, love; it took us this long to find. Love... you and I.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K.

Everyday of our life, we have a choice multiple times in one day. Sometimes moments choose us to define our purpose. Three years ago, I chose you. I chose to love you without limits or time. I didn't choose how we met or why. I let the hug you chose to give, blossom into the most wondrous love. More than I could ever imagine. That moment chose us. The adventure of a lifetime only comes to those who choose to endure. Love chose us. I'll always choose you...for you are my beloved. I'll choose to hold you the rest of my life. I'll choose to rub away all the aches and pains. I'd choose you on your worst days only to give you my best. I'll choose to wake up with you every morning and reminding you how beautiful you are as I look into those amazing hazel eyes. I think God chose us to experience this wonderful love for one another.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

You are my sun, who warms me throughput the day. You are the moon, who watches over me by night.  You are the stars, that gaze upon in amazement and awe. You are the rainbow after the storm, that reminds me of the promise of tomorrow. You are the water, that quenches my thirst. You are the meat, that brings forth my strength. You are the air, I breath to sustain my life. You are more than the beauty of all the flowers. You bring forth peace to my mind and my soul. You are love...if I could write a thousand years I'd never to tell the wonders that you are.


Dedicates to my love, my Special K

I wanted to surprise you by finding you a dress. I never knew how complicated it is to find what I hope to be a perfect fit. The sales lady looked perplexed with my desire to find the dress. She asks what does she look like. I replied simply perfect. Then I explain the size you told me. With colors that I imagine would compliment your tan skin. I imagined the fit. To be honest, I can't wait to see you try them on. I wondered about the length, the cut, and how it would look on such a beautiful woman as you. It's my delight to do shopping for you. One day, I'm sure I'll be searching for the shoes to match your dresses.


Dedicated to my beautiful love, my Special K

As I sit around the fire tonight, I watch the flame dance around the edges of the wood until it's fully inflamed. It feels like my heart is on fire with just the thoughts of you. I wonder how the flame would look, what would the color be. Would it a bright fire filled with desire and want of you, my love? Would it be dancing as a thankful dance or appreciation for you? Would it someday consume me when we're fully together? Do you feel the warmth of my love? Does the flame draw you near? Or is it something you fear? My flame can't be extinguished, smothered, or fade away into the night.  

Dedicated to my eternal love, my Special K

I once was a traveler searching for home. The moment I met you, I knew I wanted to stay longer. Because something about you fulfills the hunger. Because of you I have grown stronger, happier, and healthier. I no longer want to be a loner. I want to be more than a lover. I want to be your forever...

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

The only thing I want is simply to be there. In the times, you need a simple hug, I want to be there. When you need a laugh after a crazy day at work, I want to be there. When your up late at night worrying about your children, I want to be there. When you've had that rough night and just need an ear, I want to be there. When you need your back rubbed or pain rubbed away, I want to be there. When you've achieved everything and get rewarded, I want to be there. The nights it's dark and lonely, I want to be there. The days you want to journey to pick berries, I want to be there. When you need help gardening, I want to be there. When in your car, when the music overwhelms you and you begin to sing, I want to be there. When you want to take a walk, I want to be there. Everyday and every moment, I want simply just to be there. That's the kind of love I have to give...to be there when you need me and when you don't. I want to be there to grow old with you, when we are fibble and when we don't remember so well...I want to be there. I want to be there to encourage you, support you, love you. I will always be there....


Dedicated to my love, my Special K

I could speak of length of your marvelousness. How your belief in me saved me, help me believe I can be more than I see, how I could could overcome sickness and disease. You taught me what love is and how it feels. You have guided me with bright smile and joyous laughter. You leave this smile on my face that is truly bliss. You've given me direction and hope. You've brought me home... You've restored the brokenness inside. One word from you enlightens me. It rejuvenates my strength, my hope, my peace...everything that home provides. I've never desired, wanted, or appreciated as much as I do you. I'm forever thankful for you. The moments I have staring into those beautiful hazel eyes, seeing our future.

Dedicated to my amazing love, my Special K

All my life, I've been searching for this joy, this peace, this confidence, this wholeness...your love. I found it in your arms, your smile, your kindness, your laughter...our home. As days pass and another year comes, my love for you has never faded but it's grown deeper into the realization that you're the best part of me. I simply need your wisdom, your eyes that show me I'm more than what my past has defined me, your laughter that causes my heart to race and causes this crazy smile on my stone face, I need your ears to always hear me because it's all I wanted my whole life, I need your hand in mine to calm all fears, I need your kiss to erupt this passion, I need your presence that brings so much hope for tomorrow, but most of all is simply I need you...my love. My hope is that I fill all your needs, wants, and desires for the rest of my life.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

Flaws or imperfections, I'm riddled with them. From my body all the scars from wounds and surgeries. My impatience is yet another flaw, only wanting what I know one day I will have. A dreamer one simply hoping for the delight one can only imagine. The emotional scars of the mind, remnants of a battlefield that lay wasted. Obsession, probably my biggest flaw. It's because of who you are and how you helped me change. Seeing the vibrant colors instead of the gray in which my past caused. All these flaws or imperfections have made me wholly perfected. It's perfected the way I love you. If it weren't for the scars and brokenness I'd never be the man who could love you the way you need to be loved. Everyday my flaws is what I see when I look at the reflection in the mirror. But when I look in the depths of your hazel eyes, I see what love has perfected.

Dedicated to my Special K, the perfector of my flaws

Legacy, Footprint, Fingerprint

When I think of passing I often wonder what my legacy would've been if I had a child. Would I have passed on the words of wisdom that was handed down to me. Would I have breathed in the enjoyment of riches just spending time, ensuring they would have known that I loved them. I wonder if I would of been one of those tight nit families always breaking bread together and enjoying the laughter around the table. Would have I passed on my desire for adventure, to learn what it truly means to live.

I wonder if I left a footprint in some lives. Not just journeying through foreign lands. I pray I never trespassed or caused any harm. My hope the only footprint I ever left was going to help or to bring some joys to some lives. If somehow I left a footprint in the wrong, I hope that whoever I disturbed could forgive me.

I hope when my time has come that I left fingerprints. Where I touched a life and brought an encouraging word. I pray that my fingerprints would be left in every hand of the one's I love. I wonder if my fingerprints would remain in the things I built for others, not in the structures but in their lives. A fingerprint left on building up rather than tearing down. I'd rather live this world knowing that I made it better than the way I found it.

I'm not saying it is my time. It's just the things I ponder as I grow older.

Laying cuddled on the couch watching a movie, stroking your back, taking in the fragrance of your raven lochs, surveying my mind thinking this will be a lifetime.

Firey kisses at the door, as I great you for making this house a home. Sharing a bite from your sandwich. Knowing moments like this is what I've always been waiting for.

The laughter and sparkle in your eyes as I speak my southern slang. In your mind, they are but foreign words but you laugh all the same. It's moments like this I live for.

The warmth of your hand bringing this magical electricity. It's what I want to do the rest of my life. Walk hand and hand feeling the essence of love. It makes every hardship, war, and sickness...nothing because it was a faded moment in the presence of this momentous moment that is us.

Passion never existed till I met you. From the blazing love we share from embrace to ecstacy, moments like this...last a lifetime. It's a wonder if we don't catch a blaze with every touch.

Our travels are always joyful. I love the touch of your hand in mine. When you scold me when I look over at you...moments like this is what I desire everyday.

Looking for that particular space, deep in the woods to make our humble but elegant home. I can't wait to help tend our gardens and greenhouse together. This is our planning but it's still moments like this..

One day it won't be the moments I write about it will be our forever just like our love.

Dedicated to my Special K from moments like this to eternity

If you were a book, you'd be my favorite read.
If you were a painting, you'd be my favorite view.
If you were a season, you'd be my favorite time of year.
If you were a bottle of wine, I'd savor every drop.
If you were a flower, you'd be the center of garden.
If you were a vacation spot, you'd be the place I'd live.
If you were a rhythm, you'd be the only  one I'd dance to.
If you were a song, you'd  be the only one I'd ever sing.
If you were but a moment in time, I'd live for that moment.
You are my favorite of all things, everything I adore.  The reason and purpose, all I live for.


Dedicated to my love, my Special K.

I want to love you like there's no tomorrow. No second guessing about what today is all about. It's standing here before you, God as my witness. Holding your hand forever in this moment. Gazing into your eyes, loosing my breath, as I want to say I'm here with you forever. That'll never change because you are my one and only,. So I'm bringing you near to feel your chest against mine. The rhythm of our hearts are in time. As I close my eyes, to feel your lips against mine. I'm loving you like there's no more tomorrow's. There's only the moment we have. So let's spend the moment doing what we do best. Loving one another and tangled all together in one big mess. I confess before the Lord you're the best part of me. It's taken me along time to find you. So let me love you like there's no tomorrow's. So everyone can see what love is all about.  Appreciating one another, discovering how to encourage one another, to find the newness and freedom that love brings. So in this waking moment, let's love like there's no tomorrows.  

Dedicated to my beautiful love, my Special K

I often wonder what causes the pains of the heart from love. Is that I am so close to bliss but not have it everyday? Is the longing of the heart just to be near the one you love? Maybe it's the resistance when being pulled in many directions. Or us that I'm so emerged in the depths of love, I can't see anything else. Is it that I just need to hear those three simple words, I love you? Is it that I miss the touch of her hand on my cheek as we kiss? Or the embrace that I miss? I often pounder statements I've spoken. Like I wish I could breath her in and never exhale. Is the fact I need her more than she needs me? It's been just a few hours since I spoke last but I desperately need to hear her voice. Is that I fail to love myself as much as I love her? Is it wondering what our future holds? Is it that I'm afraid and fail to be brave? I know I love, I just wonder why there's pain.
Dedicated to my love, Special K

It was a warm summer night, when I felt Heaven, your arms around me. It was a long journey until I found Heaven. The tolls of war had overtaken me in my mind. I was lost in reality, knowing no way turn. I found Heaven, when I met you, or at least a messenger from there. You brought peace where torment once lurked. The vision of you was delight to my eyes. I found comfort in the depths of your hazel eyes. I asked you then to have me to stay but it wasn't the appointed time. I left my world crashing, my health fading. I was unsure of what was ahold of me. Two months passed, every moment agony. I thought why would God bring me to a place of peace only to lead me away. Cancer, the scariest word this warrior has heard. I stumbled to call you. Fear crept in. I only thought I would see the promise, but not able to partake. I would surely die before I could return. But you heard my every words though drowned in tears. You gave me hope to fight, to overcome, and to prevail. I told my friends I was returning to the joy of my life. Where the red wing black beards flew freely from field to field, reminding me of the joyful youth. The path to Heaven were I walk everyday since my return. Knowing your near, all fears erased and failures paved the way to love. You've been beside in secret the whole way. Even now, no one knows of us and our love. Day by day, I feel Heaven coming even near when I'm beside my love forever.  They say that before death comes your life flashes before your eyes. I say I only hope I see all my days with flash before me. I've lived hell to many years without you. But it's what it took, to show me how to love and appreciate you. I know there are many journeys ahead of us even now. There's our home, the cabin, to build. The trails to walk hand in hand in our forest, on our land. Until the ground is beat down for your ancestors to see, the amazing gardens we've built. Oh the memories, we will make. Until one day, my body fades away and I sit and wait at the gate until you my love make your grand entrance to be by my side on the other side. Heaven always be with you, my Special K.

Forever loving you, My Beautiful Special K.

I never thought of myself as much of a writer like Shakespeare, but I do understand the feelings expressed by Romeo. When he speaks of Juliet as the Sun and the moon being jealous of her beauty. I see the same thing in my love, Special K. I see her eyes as heavenly stars that keep me captive in her gaze. And I wander in the beauty thereof. Sometimes when Special K puts on her mits and touches her cheek I so envy the touch of her cheek. I never would compare a name or what to show that we belong to such a last name only to know we belong together. And when my Special K speaks, it's as a heralding angel. Knowing she is far above this mortal man but somehow has chosen me. There is nothing that holds me from my love except my promise to wait upon the time when we shall depart as willing traveler's to build our cabin which will become our home. Where love reins and the wholeness will be filled with blessed laughter. Forever merry with no strife, no envyness of one another but the ability to share in each other's glory. Not boasting but loving always prevailing. Our love will be gateway for all to see how God's harmony should be. My life only complete in watching, helping, loving my Special K for an eternity.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K.

Today, Valentine's Day, marked by all the world to show love for one another. I don't need a day like today, since I met you. You've become my extraordinary love, that will never know an end even when tomorrow comes. My love for you is eternal. It doesn't need a special day to be celebrated. It's every moment we share. "I love you!" comes with every breath. My soul purpose is to anticipate your needs, wants, and desires, to elevate you in fulfilling your call, to share you with everyone that you love, to bring a smile on your beautiful face. In doing this, I've learnt love; not to boast, but to humbly know that you love me. So no holiday or event, will never out weigh another day, as long as I have time with you. Everyday is a celebration of our love.

Dedicated to my daily love, my Special K

I find it easy to love you because you've shown me what love is. You've given me a smile because of your kindness. You given me a purpose, a reason because I want to be the man who gives you a smile everyday for others to enjoy. To be honest I'd be lost without you because you've provide light in my darkness. Everyday gets easier because one day I'll open the door and you'll be here for the rest of my life. Your warmth of touch consumes me because it's genuine. I've always been a survivor, a loaner because that's my nature. But I no longer label myself that because of your hug, love; I just want to be home... it's not the house but it's any place with you, my love. Because four walls and a roof may be a shelter but you are my sanctuary, all that I adore. Because you bring peace in this war ravaged mind, beauty to the eyes where all I've known is death, comfort from one touch, a word from you brings forth a fountain of hope, you've given me laughter instead of sadness. Because of you...I'm loved.


Dedicated to my love, Special K, my forever

It's what I've given you from that hug until eternity.  It's the strongest part of me but also the frailist.  It gives me the energy to go on day after day because of love. It's never failed me but it's been injured a few times in the past. I trust you with it because you cause it to heal and gets it pumping stronger with everyday. You will always have it...it'll never fail us.  It sustains me during the times apart because it holds you in the very center with every moment we've had and will continue to have.

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Being away causes a stirring in my soul for you are my soul mate. The one I long for with all my being. From the taste of your lips, I starve because once you've tasted the best nothing else can compare. The softness of your touch, your hand in mine, electricity flowing with no lack of energy. The blissfulness stays from that moment to the next. Your beauty captivates my being, I long to be next to you always. Your voice is what I love to hear. I crave every part of you and ask you to consume me, so that I can be always a part of you. You are all I desire, hope for, and dream of...you are my future in which I crave.

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Everything exciting comes from you to me. I feel like it's impossible to love you more than I do now. But I know, my love for you grows fiercer by the day. The intensity of wanting you, desiring you grows every moment we are away from one another. But when we are together, the feelings never change even after climatic adventures. There's still more I want...to hold you longer, to kiss you with more passion, to caress your body constantly, to hear your voice in my ear, to stare into your eyes and become lost in you. More moments with you is all I could ask for in this life because you are all that is good in this life. I no longer want me or I, I just want to be us. You are so easy to love. My heart continues to beat in some crazed rhythm wanting to be synchronized with yours. Each day I know that I want us more than the day before. Anticipation of the tomorrow's keeps me going. My love never waivers, it seeks more ways to expand daily. A little more, holding hands, listening, conversating, hugging, chill axing, anything you.

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While I'm usually the fiery one, it couldn't be so without you fueling my flame. You bring more adventures everytime, we get together. You bring me peace of mind and love that I have never felt in my life. You are my closest friend, I exposed all my badness and you just seen the goodness. You have more compassion than anyone I know. I want to be more like you everyday. Your gifts of insight and redirection are always welcomed because I trust you. Your smiles always brighten my day. Your voice I long to hear it more and more. You have encouraged me to do things when I was just comfortable being complacent.  You may not want to admit it but you saved me more than once. You've chased all the fears of darkness away and brought the most beautiful light into my life. Beautiful, you've brought more to the table than you could ever imagine. You've ignited this fiery love for you that's unquenchable. I pray that I can only match what you do and have done. I'll never tire chasing you or giving you the love and appreciation that you deserve. If my days on this earth were done, you'd be the best part of my life. You've completed me and made me whole. You've brought the table full and I'm the most blessed man alive because of you.

Dedicated to my beautiful Special K, whom I love wholeheartedly

I know this love we have found feels foreign to both of us. I know I never felt this way. My heart aches when we are apart. My hands long to be around your waist pulling us close together till we are completely are one. Like a the lost single puzzle piece that makes the picture complete. My eyes always gazing into yours seeing the bright future. When we kiss, it feels like some magical thing that I never want it to end. I've never felt a love like this, not from a parent, a friend, a fallen brother, what I thought was a lover, or from a spouse. Nothing compares to the love you have opened up to my being. For it is more than just a feeling, it's finding security, trust, hope, a future, my one and only, the thing movies and books written about that we've only heard about. It's not a fairy tale, it's real, raw, and what we have. Its appreciating ever moment as if it was the first or the last. I think that's why tears come so easy for me. It's the grandest of things in the simplest acts. I'm never pushing or forcing it, only holding it close like a treasure you find that's so rare. I know maybe for you, it feels like an appreciation. You've been recognized in your simplest ways. It may feel odd because you've never been held like a treasure that you are. The things I do to nurture you, is the way love is teaching me to care for you. Like I said, I'm only falling my heart, not trying to force or cook something from my mind thinking this is what you want. It's what flows out of the abundance of my heart. It's why I say I love you a million times while we're talking. I know no other things to say. I know you're so independent and I don't want you to be in a way. Let me be what love calls me to be. A cook, a poet that doesn't rhyme much, a hand that just wants to hold and caress you, that long departing kiss, a shoulder for you to lay your head on, a jester in your court to see that beautiful smile an occasionally hear your laugh, your lover when you need it, your ear to hear everything you need to say, your companion, your friend, your soulmate and help mate, your cheer leader; I simply what to be what your love needs, wants, desires for the rest of your and my life and then some. That way one day it won't be foreign to either one of us. It'll be home.

Dedicated to my only love, Special K

When we met, God knew what I needed. The day my eyes gazed upon your beauty, my heart leaped. Our friendship blossomed day by day, me finding out you're just what I needed. The way you calm my fears and storms from this crazy life. Every moment from the day of that hug, I knew I never wanted to leave. I asked you a few days later to just say stay, but you couldn't at that time. It was still new to us the love we found in each other. Before I left I promised I'd come back. My journey took me away, my body began to fail me. Questions in mind overwhelmed me. Sickness came and almost took me. But I remembered my promise, I fought to come back. Just part of the man who left, that took those walks with you thousands of miles away. Who heard your voice every night and I knew I'd return. Our love grew even apart for months. Upon my return, my heart melted when we met once again. I knew I'd love you for the rest of life. You became my purpose, my hope, my love, my strength, my companion, and most of all my miracle.

Dedicated to my beloved, my Special K

When I found you, I wasn't looking for anything but I found everything. I found a reason to wake each day, with a hope for the future. I found love that showed me I was loved. I found the woman I want to wake next to everyday of this life. The woman that gave me a purpose, a drive to be the best man I can be, not to glory in it, but to live each day with anticipation of holding her and loving her the way she loves me. When I found you, I found my soulmate, my best friend, my sassy love, My Special K. When I found you, I knew I discovered the most precious of things to live for. I found a reason to fight and win over cancer. I found beauty in the simplest of things. I found wakefulness from the mundain things of this life. I found a wonderous joy, that wakes me up with a smile. I found my universe, my HOME, my helpmate, my travel partner, my hope, my wife one day, my REASON, my PURPOSE. I found you when you hugged me and I'm never letting go.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

It's the time I have with you, I want and need it to linger. Not in my mind or heart, but the tangible presence. The essence of staring into your soul through those hazel eyes. To embracing your hand, the energy I feel, the longing for to last. The hug and kiss of your lips, I want it to last till the next.
Your beautiful words through those luscious lips, I hear echoing in my soul. The aroma of you mixed with the fragrance you wear is intoxicating, I want to be drunk on you without end. Your kindheartedness and love amazes me, there is no end. After yet our moment for now, yet you linger here with me at home.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

Some think that being naked is perverse. For me, it's being accepted in my rarest form. It's where all the wounds, scars, stretch marks, flaws are exposed. I've found the one who doesn't mind my nakedness. She except me for me. She sees the tangles of thebrain from past hurts and failures. She allows and helps my wounds heal. She don't mind the softness and the furrieness of me. She delights when my southern ways. She laughs and is amused in my nervous tones of voice. But she allows me to be me. She sees past all the scars and still calls me handsome. She's the woman I love and enjoy her nakedness too. I don't see flaws I see beauty. I see triumphs and victories no scars no flaws,. I stare at her and am amazed, captured by her presence. She often wonders why I stare so much. Its because I'm looking at my future, my home, my partner, my lover, my friend and most of all the woman who accepts me.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

I feel the need and want to go home. To hear your familiar voice everyday. Awakening every morning with you by my side. Listening for the clues that you are awake to greet you with a kiss. I want to awaken to see those amazing hazel eyes staring back at me. My hands and arms long to pull you in close. As I inhale, I long to breath in your essence. To be home, to know we are safe and sound, enjoying each other. My ears intently listening for your laughter as I talk in my most southern voice. I long for the familiarity of home, your warmth, your love, your wit, your presence. I know its just days away. But I'm saying I'm missing you, my home.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

From Here to There, Our Story

If I could have written the perfect love story, it would have been this life we are living. Loving one another, encouraging each other through every trial and issue. Waking up every morning with you by my side. Planning our future home and travels. In my mind, I would've wanted this journey to start much earlier than it did; but I know I wouldn't have been ready to love you like you needed to be loved any sooner. I know our future is brighter than it has ever been. Some chapters are finally closing in my life, to make availability my whole being to you. A year ago, you were pondering my exit and my return. I wanted so much to hear the word "stay", but we both know it was better the way our God saw fit. Another year down, that makes two. Two years discovering what love was and what it means. I never knew that hardships, cancer, failure would've played such an important role in finding the simple beauty of you. I no longer look at things being negative, all I see is wonder of love in you. You've seen me in my frailest of moments, wallering in pity and shame of things that have loomed over me. And you loved me just the same. You've caught many of my tears over the last two years and walked miles by my side thousands of miles apart. The roots of this journey of love are founded and settled. The shaft of the puny flower is just about to bud. Waiting for the glorious moment of full bloom. I cant wait till the day all will see what our most wonderous love looks like at "home". The day our journey takes us from "here" to "there".

Dedicated to my beautiful angel, my Special K

Some say that sunrises and sunsets are beautiful, full of color and wonder what the day will bring. Others say the beautiful music, the melodies are harmonies. Another would say beautiful is the kissing of the sun on one skin. Then others would describe the fragrance as something beautiful.

For me beautiful, is the term I call you. Your beauty is very pleasing to my eyes and the sound of your voice telling me good morning or kisses as we end each call, or the aroma of your hair is so intoxicating, the holding of your hand and the warmest of all touches. But your beauty is more than just senses. Its the love we share. Its the simplest of all things yet worth more than one could ever pay.  It's the pulling of the heart strings when we are apart, the rhythm of the pulse in a beautiful timpani. It's the beautiful flower in full bloom.  It's our relationship that displays its simple beauty in an everyday life. Beautiful is the day, we are home, together.

Dedicated to my beautiful, my Special K

The moment you leave, the final text Goodnight, the closing of our phone call with kisses starts me simply missing you.
All my life, I've wanted this simple want, need, desire and it simply came with you. It's the meandering walks where I see beauty in the things over looked by passers by, it's simply sharing the details with you. Our lives intertwined nearly two years ago, when we first met I knew there was more to you, simply overseen. You've taught me beauty in the simple rawness of everyday things. The day you simply hugged me and returned it with simple tears streaming down my face. It was in the simplest of gestures that simply sparked this extraordinary love for you. We've shared stories from uos and downs and plans of the simplest of our futures. The sound of your voice whether in person or on the phone causes my heart to simply pause for just a moment, it's as if the choirs of heaven sang out but in a simple hello; you have my fullness attention. The simple glance into your hazel eyes leaves me mesmerized. I find myself wanting time to simply stay still and let me enjoy this moment. Being apart simply makes the heart grow fonder, I've never understood that till I met you. It's simply knowing I am love, not in, therefore there will never be an out. I'm simply saying marry me. Where we can simply be us.

Thankful for the simplness of you, my love, my Special K

What a wonderful day, you sitting in the seat next to me, holding your hand, an occassional glance at your beautiful hazel eyes. And we have just begun, this Sunday drive. Headed along the straight country roads, sometimes meeting the occassional horse and buggy. I wave a nice howdy do as we head on through the country side. The journey to our church where we can worship together our God, who brought us together to enjoy a life together. With every offering of praise, I thank God for every day, I have with you. After we leave the sanctuary and head on our journey, stopping at the Cafe to enjoy a meal together, admiring the quaint atmosphere. I enjoy my view forever looking at you. After our lunch, we drive further more to see what else our God has in store. The small trip with gorgeous views of sunrises and sunsets, from farms to forest, to lakes and streams, the whole time enjoying being together, the best part of our Sunday drive.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

There are many times in our lives the word important comes to thought. It may be the important date you need to remember, such as an anniversary or birthday. Or an important thing to remember for a test or a class. But what's important to me is you. You're always my first thought when I awake, when I have a bad day, when I'm having a good day, and before I close my eyes I thank God for you. Its also important  that I know when and how to respond to your needs. Its important because it's how I show my love for you. To be what you need when you need it. Important is how you make me feel with the phone calls, texts, visits, and your love you show me daily.  When love is the priority, it shows the value of importance. 

Dedicated to my important love, my Special K

We often go by what we see or how we feel.  Today, the sky appears so gray with the snow lying on the sides of the road. But somewhere above those clouds the sun shines the sky is that beautiful blue we miss in the winter times. Often we feel inadequate taking care of others forsaken ourselves to the point of exhaustion. We often feel alone and want the misery to end. The truth is we are never alone, we are loved. The feel of inadequacy will leave us soon enough. The feeling of being near the end, its a lie we tell ourselves. Reach out take the love by the hand. We are needed. We will prevail. The tears we shed everyday in that fleeting moment are what we water our hopes with. Believe me I've hit the end a few times. My beautiful angel is always there. Love does win out in the end. For it was the tears, the heart ache, the point of giving up, that watered our hopes and caused our love to grow stronger. Faith, now that's the part I'm talking about today. It's not what we see or feel that matters. It's applying that knowledge and trusting it. It will come to pass. Faith, hope, love, it's the reason I'm here.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

From the red clay roads to the white covered fields, I've traveled a long long way.
From the battlefield to the hospital rooms, I've came a really long long way.
From the orange stained sheets from the Georgia clay to the frozen icy grounds of my new home, I've come a long long way.
From a broken marriage without love to a forbidden love, I've come a long long way.
From a sadden heart to heart filled with joy, I've come a long long way.
From a grandeur picture to a picture of just you and I, I've come a long long way.
From mind that was so very troubled to a mind fixed on our plans, ive come a long long way.
From the days filled with our walks and talks to the moment im before you, I've come a long long way.
From every morning sun rises to the sunsets, I've come a long long way.
From the second I met you to the day we walk to our forever home, I've come a long long way.
From the long long way to now here I stay, I've found a love each and everyday in you.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

As I look out the window of the door my breath fogs up the window, as you drive away. I draw a heart on the fogged up window because there goes my heart again. Its a reminder of the moments we share its a vapor on the cool glass. Its my heart going with you when you leave till you come back again. Its never a fleeting moment but its an everlasting love. It's the place where our secret is in the fogged up glass where I write i love you! It's what I say a million times a day when we talk or text. It's written in my heart always and on this fogged up window. Till the day I can scream it to the heavens and all will know this love I want to show, you.

To my beloved, my Special K, always and foreverly

It's the most wonderful time of year. For me the most wonderful time is every moment I have with you. Each and everyone I cherish above every moment in my life. It's because I have so much love for you and feel so much love from you. God wrapped the most amazing gift with locks of raven hair and tan skin and eyes of hazel because He knew I always needed you. Your simple ways, your laughter, your smile, the peace you give me always.

To my beloved, Special K

Our place is in each others arms, where we feel most at home. Where we feel comfort from all life's storms. Where we share this radiant electricity. Where we see our cabin in the woods. Where it's full of love and cheer. Its what draws us near. Where we feel appreciated and chosen. Our place is where we both long for and our dreams fulfilled. Where our everlasting love will be shared. Where we longe upon the couch and kiss the day through. Where we hold each other all night long. Our place where we both fit in. Where we work as a team. Where we hold hands and hug each and every day. Our place together....

Dedicated to my love, Special K