Sitting in her throne so high
Wandering around looking for a fight
Her controlling actions so devious
Wanting just more and more
Hating me forever
Hurting my every emotion
Seeking more distraction
Devising another episode
These testing times are troublesome
Dwelling in this pitiful situation
Stuck with this person I so hate
Growing like a tumor in my body
Eating away my mind and flesh
I long to discard this loss of control
Sitting quietly in my own space
Unable to follow in my own steps
Watching my back wondering if it will hurt
So demeaning and horrid
For these are the last remaining years
Will they hurry so fast
Wanting to be in my own skin
Not this **** that floats on high
Dwelling in her forever worthiness
Controlling each episode of our meeting
For one day she will leave
Leave forever and will find this peace
Of mind and everything beautiful
I too will see the light and escape this prison

I dream & dream of reality in its quickness,
This quandary I do not have to ask.
Freedom to have some sense,
To understand these simple beings.
For they do not have these feelings,
Of utter depthness and sanctimony.
They who act as living puppets,
Have no heart and no loving.
To seek that inner peace,
They live in a box, a closed world.
Nothing to feel free about,
No definition to this defined structure.
To create and then to destroy,
Look into these eyes, eyes of mourning.
They can’t forgive their own actions,
Not force each other to love in their own sympathy.

Dream a dream of funbeing,
Live a life so happy,
With the one that makes you laugh and smile,
To see them dreamy and content.
To run in the paths of fantasy and joy.
To feel the water between your feet,
Holding hands in beamy sunshine.
They come, they go.
A misunderstanding too far,
A reckoning so tired and unfaithful.
Do they not know, do they not care.
For this heart so tender and kind.
This heart always outreaching,
For a love so lost and temptuous.

You look so wanting
Is it a friend you want
Clinging onto my every move
Peering out the window as I leave
Keeping me company as I write
Your love has no boundaries
You sit on my lap taking my carasses
Reciprocating this undying love
You miss me I miss you
To see your face as I walk in that door
This faithful companion always by my side
This love shows no boundaries
You look at me while Im sad
You show me your feelings
Why will they take you too early
My faithful friend
Forever in my memories
Your brown human eyes
I will always see you
Locked in my dreams forever

For you the person that gave me life
I trust in you to keep me safe by your side
Did I truly know you
I was a simple child with fears
You dreamt of more than I realised
You pushed me away into others arms
You never truly believed in me
I tried I really tried
Combatted my insecurities making it to the top
Leaving those friends so important to me
I clutched to everything meaning worthwhile
But now the news is bad
And I don’t have any feelings
No pity or words of worth can be said
The pain that has swirled for many years
Bad words of anger and disgust
All to them this common distract
Cold feelings of inadequacies this pain no more
Trailing in my minds force
Tumbling around leaving me suffer
For how long will it last
You become frail and aged
You hang onto every word wondering what could be
But now your hate can disappear for you to keep going
You travel this tunnel of exploration
Starting to live a life more worthy
Looking into this crystal glass I see your eyes
Casting this spell on your loved ones
The ones that long for your love and support
This battle has been won time to give up.