I am a stone, I will make my own ripples.
My tears turn to crystals & glisten pain!
Can you see me darkness?
I can see you!
I dream & dream of reality in its quickness,
This quandary I do not have to ask.
Freedom to have some sense,
To understand these simple beings.
For they do not have these feelings,
Of utter depthness and sanctimony.
They who act as living puppets,
Have no heart and no loving.
To seek that inner peace,
They live in a box, a closed world.
Nothing to feel free about,
No definition to this defined structure.
To create and then to destroy,
Look into these eyes, eyes of mourning.
They can’t forgive their own actions,
Not force each other to love in their own sympathy.
Wherever we are we are always on the same path _ _ _ _ _
When you return to a love once lost
And you wonder how it ended
All the feelings return to cloud your mind
But now your hands are tied
You want them they want you
Make it easy but only time can heal
I only long for their touch and sweet smile
Living silently to see you next week
Dream a dream of funbeing,
Live a life so happy,
With the one that makes you laugh and smile,
To see them dreamy and content.
To run in the paths of fantasy and joy.
To feel the water between your feet,
Holding hands in beamy sunshine.
They come, they go.
A misunderstanding too far,
A reckoning so tired and unfaithful.
Do they not know, do they not care.
For this heart so tender and kind.
This heart always outreaching,
For a love so lost and temptuous.
- I -
To you I fear not,
This tinkling feeling I endure,
To seem so unwilling to care.
Desiring that creative side,
Are you that person living in this sphere of uncertainty.
Deeper in your thoughts mixed emotions.
Dancing on your feeling of insecurity
Craving to be everyones friend.
King of nothingness only selfpity.
Dreaming but it can’t happen no more.
You sit in this room of pure emptiness,
Casing my stepping stones,
To you I am not that little frail rose,
I am more, more than you could ever think.
My crown of thorns reflects in the mirror of life!
The pain the sorrow of these inflictions
The dreams that keep me awake at night
I gather my deep thoughts into this exasperating energy
Caught in this neverending tunnel
I reach out but no one is there
To catch my grasp and offer some light
I am trapped in my own prison,
No reason to escape like a glass wall
I peer out and see my reflection
Just wanting and wanting to be loved
We all come into this world alone
To fight and never give up
On all those fantasies and realisations
I will make it the best
I will not cower and back down in this pit
Who dare troddens on my very existence
Savour my inner peace as this madness continues outside
Stop and let me be.
Sitting in her throne so high
Wandering around looking for a fight
Her controlling actions so devious
Wanting just more and more
Hating me forever
Hurting my every emotion
Seeking more distraction
Devising another episode
These testing times are troublesome
Dwelling in this pitiful situation
Stuck with this person I so hate
Growing like a tumor in my body
Eating away my mind and flesh
I long to discard this loss of control
Sitting quietly in my own space
Unable to follow in my own steps
Watching my back wondering if it will hurt
So demeaning and horrid
For these are the last remaining years
Will they hurry so fast
Wanting to be in my own skin
Not this **** that floats on high
Dwelling in her forever worthiness
Controlling each episode of our meeting
For one day she will leave
Leave forever and will find this peace
Of mind and everything beautiful
I too will see the light and escape this prison
For you the person that gave me life
I trust in you to keep me safe by your side
Did I truly know you
I was a simple child with fears
You dreamt of more than I realised
You pushed me away into others arms
You never truly believed in me
I tried I really tried
Combatted my insecurities making it to the top
Leaving those friends so important to me
I clutched to everything meaning worthwhile
But now the news is bad
And I don’t have any feelings
No pity or words of worth can be said
The pain that has swirled for many years
Bad words of anger and disgust
All to them this common distract
Cold feelings of inadequacies this pain no more
Trailing in my minds force
Tumbling around leaving me suffer
For how long will it last
You become frail and aged
You hang onto every word wondering what could be
But now your hate can disappear for you to keep going
You travel this tunnel of exploration
Starting to live a life more worthy
Looking into this crystal glass I see your eyes
Casting this spell on your loved ones
The ones that long for your love and support
This battle has been won time to give up.
In this lost world of silhouettes,
Into the opening realms of my visions
Coping with this complex life
I fall further into the dimensions of my past
To see what is real and figment of the imagination
Dwelling on my inner hopes
Holding onto something that has already departed
It slipped right past without me knowing
Too late to get it back
It was all too simple and now its gone.
You look so wanting
Is it a friend you want
Clinging onto my every move
Peering out the window as I leave
Keeping me company as I write
Your love has no boundaries
You sit on my lap taking my carasses
Reciprocating this undying love
You miss me I miss you
To see your face as I walk in that door
This faithful companion always by my side
This love shows no boundaries
You look at me while Im sad
You show me your feelings
Why will they take you too early
My faithful friend
Forever in my memories
Your brown human eyes
I will always see you
Locked in my dreams forever
Take a picture of my world
Nothing seems the same
It is all but a messed up dream
Something that cannot be explained
Looking through this neverending tunnel
All I see is this faint light
From east to west, I'm coming home.
I'm not exactly sure what this means but it seems to be on repeat in my mind.
Forgotten, left by the side,
Saddened by these coarse actions,
A heart so full of fear and disgust,
Broken down by those who should love her,
Alone in this world she walks her own path,
Love lost forever.
Forever is this stream of hatred
This disgust as it flow through my veins
This pulse for forceful and beating
Through my mind it saddens
Difficult to understand how to act and think
I’m a prisoner in my own space
With no else to tell my foes
To be kept in my own bubble cant anyone understand
Can anyone see the pain and fear
Disillusioned with my support
As he looks at me in disgust
I look for help and control
But no one listens and continue on the path
I dream of freedom
For one day it will come
For now I keep hating
Who are they to think this way
To treat another human like dirt
Yes I will not forget and it will be ever true
I am the one with the last laugh
Those gullible stupid beings
They will get treated in different offerings
And I won’t be there to save them
To hear their screams
As they fall further and further
Escaping I do each day
To follow my own path
To feel the freedom and peace
I look to the trees and wonder
There they offer me wellbeing
They stand tall and hold my power
Yes maybe they understand
For those souls are lost too
Trying to tell me it will get better.
— The End —