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4d · 35
Somebody To Love
There once was a raging inferno in my core
Over time it receded into a moderate blaze
Then a small fire
Now it's just a spark
It was hard when I had to douse my own flames
but God ensured I didn't end up a smoking ash heap

I wondered for a while
why I was unable to reignite my passion
even with gentle and gradual guidance
I had little drive or power
I've noticed how zeal can burn the people I loved
and turn their faces sour

Yet when I needed them most, they just stared
When I needed someone to stand up for me
They didn't dare -  for their minds were elsewhere
But my spark is still there
Waiting, dormant
For someone to love, for a reason to care
Mar 31 · 43
Don't Be A Bully
SleepEasy Mar 31
Bullies like to push people around
Their fantasy depends on it
And when it crumbles to the ground
they throw an awful fit
They try to mold their vision
To capture you and bind
Ignore it or show you don't care
and they appear out of nowhere to remind
They think they're kings and queens
who like to talk and scream
Intimidate and coerce the pawns
through dark, deceptive means
Yet morning always dawns
With the sun appears the rubble
I don't want to rip a fool
from their sleep or burst their bubble
Yet I refuse to let them feed on me
through my skin to my bone
So a warm corner to call my own
is really all I need
My wisdom and experience is for me
Not for someone who doesn't heed
So I will simply watch and learn
as the wicked bleed and burn
Mar 29 · 61
Practically Blind
SleepEasy Mar 29
In a world of half-truths
Where everyone likes to argue
And prove themselves right
To win every fight
Life is a game to some
But I feel too dumb
To play like the devil
I'm not on their level
I avoid the bread of evil
To feast on holy gravel
For I have rocks in my gut
Stomach pain keeps me in a rut
I recall things I said
When I'm lying in bed
They said I rock the boat
So they threw me overboard
To sever the cord
Between me and the LORD
Now I'm sinking like lead
Nearly dead
I can feel the compression
But here's my confession
Though I've been tossed out to sea
And they celebrate victory over me
I've become more intelligent
My desire for truth is pertinent
On the inside I'm full of glee
And my soul is happy
Mar 27 · 46
The Dead are There
SleepEasy Mar 27
She treats love like a carrot
As soon as you think you're within reach
She pulls away

She treats *** like a weapon
Ensures the shame will be yours
And you'll come crawling back on all fours

You are her stepping stone
You can give the world to her on a silver platter
You can give your life for hers and it won't matter

She is a spoiled daughter
A warmonger
She is the devil's laughter

If you survive her
You will learn to despise her
She is the spider and you're the fly in her web
Mar 26 · 49
For the good
SleepEasy Mar 26
I am drawn to those who suffer
I try to pull people from the fire
Often I get burned
But I learn

Why am I drawn to those who suffer?
I ponder
It's because hardship is for the good
In a world where people are often

Misunderstood
Mar 26 · 50
Addiction
SleepEasy Mar 26
It helped me get through lonely nights
and gave me courage for a bit
It wasn't until I tried to quit
That's when I learned it bites

The way it fights
Can't turn your back
Always staring
Ready to attack

It's my fault
I should have more sense
I shouldn't have done what I did
Under the influence

I wasn't myself
Now I'm facing the pain
But I will learn to live again
I quit today
Mar 23 · 53
Shining Bright
SleepEasy Mar 23
I am not afraid of my mortality
I have grown accustomed to shaming
All this dirt thrown at my face
I'm still praying for the best

My relationship with God is my greatest asset
I don't mind if you share my passion
Turn back today, obey, nobody can say
they have mapped their own future or fate

I'm afraid of the power God has given me
To have a mind that can see beyond what's in front of me
I really don't want to be seen until I'm ready
In the past I've hurt some people accidentally

My people used me as a stepping stone I confess
Yet time rolls on and things progress
I don't mind being the last to clean up the mess
I like being last, at the bottom, unnoticed
SleepEasy Mar 19
I used to carry a bundle of love in my hands
Now I have hatred seeping through my fingers
My filter is clogged and I can hardly contain
The rage within, I feel like puking it all up

But I'll get over it
When the time comes I will get back up
And prove that love is stronger than hate
Just as darkness never overcame the light

I will let go of what's not for me
I'll control what goes inside me
Then I will like the words that exit me
And with love inside I will be free
Mar 15 · 125
Still Alive
SleepEasy Mar 15
Hatred and love are similar emotions
Especially when the one you loved
Is the one you now fear
You tried to feed me to your dogs
And feast on my tears
But I fought your dogs and won

You blotted my sun
You could have told me the truth
That we weren't meant to share fate
You left me to figure it out
and pick up the pieces of my broken heart
on my own

My heart isn't stone
But my uptick is steady
While you gradually decrease
Into a faded memory
My compassion for you will cease
And I'll do nothing as you gasp, like you did to me
Mar 12 · 222
Cosmic Justice
SleepEasy Mar 12
Morning to noon, evening to night
Each day is a new one in the concrete light
A light that notes and observes and writes down
All that we do; each smile and each frown

For each breath we exhale, each word we release
There's a legacy that follows, that will not cease
For all that we mock, and all that we preach
We will receive tenfold, from the force we beseech

Our words, when we talk,
stand on their own feet, and walk
Into the light, no matter how small
Where all are as one, or not at all.
Mar 11 · 57
Revenge
SleepEasy Mar 11
And so it begins, the waterfall of tears
It's been years and it's no longer fears
that are making me stay, I feel enraged
Today's the day I hit the toad

I want you dead and out of my head
You hear me? Get out - OUT!
You ***** rotten sewer rat
I took a ****, it's you I shat

Vengeance, whether cold or hot
I will serve, and blot you out
I used to care, while you just mocked
Trying to help, was all for naught
Mar 10 · 71
Journal Entry
SleepEasy Mar 10
The day I was born was the day of an accident
Parents never wanted me so they tried to destroy me
Yet at the same time ensured I was never free
Ganged up on me
Stood behind a wall I was too short to see
Then kicked me out at eighteen
To be torn apart by wolves
To ensure I fell, what was the point
Never had a place to call home
So full of nerves I couldn't break the ice with the girl I loved
And she loved me, what a pity
We could have had a beautiful life
All this time I lived in misery
They call me insane and make sure I'm drugged
Without the drugs I'd ******* **** all these bullies
For making this **** life even *******
How am I to live when devils surround?
Peace and love are nowhere to be found in this war
Nothing to live for, nowhere to be
No one to talk to, no one to see
Yet I tried to help others any way I could
I didn't want them to feel as low as me
So why am I targeted
Why must I fight Satan himself
And his armies of devils by the skin of my teeth?
Now comes the dark night of the soul
This is the closest to hell I've ever been
And I feel this way every day
I sigh and cry
Why do I try?
I don't want your money or fame
I don't want to play your stupid game
I'm alone and I no longer want to be
Please God put me out of my misery
SleepEasy Mar 7
They're gonna peel the truth out of you
and you cannot escape
It's not a question, you will betray
all the things your conscience wouldn't say

You will admit
All that you did
You wanted to play
While others replay

Your foul crimes in their hearts
Memories of your deeds won't depart
It's no use to pray
You did it to one you did it to God
Mar 5 · 94
American Society
SleepEasy Mar 5
For tribes and races
Borders and fences
Are wholly needed
Keep them separated
America is Babylon
***** of the ancients
Where history is erased
And truth is defaced
She places her children
On pedestals of fame
Then sends them to hell
Where they burn in flames
And she laughs
And shifts blame
America the great
To her its a game
Mar 5 · 76
Hikikomori
SleepEasy Mar 5
Frozen and lost
Trapped on this road
They all said to move
and not to be slow
Now it's time to go
but where should I go
and why would I not
want to be where I was?
But time has a cost
it proves against all
the longer one stalls
the less one grows
and before you know
you're pinned to the floor
feeble and poor
asking for more
I continue to sit
where the wind doesn't blow
stagnant and alone
utterly thrown
Into a world where the light
is the glow of a computer screen
and the only hope
is the next hit of dopamine
Now what do I have
on this earth, in this place
Nothing to show
A complete disgrace
cause I went with the flow
to a world without rest
Now I'm stuck in this space
to clean up my mess
Mar 1 · 55
Land of Filth
SleepEasy Mar 1
I used to trust people
and wear my heart on my sleeve
I still do these things
but it 's nothing more than a leap of faith

So I put on my blindfold
Stretch out my hand for peace
with a smile on my face
What do I achieve?

You sick ***** can't **** me
so you scheme
how can you destroy me
without sacrificing your dreams

You want to be reproached
You want me to hurt you
Teach you a lesson
So you feel something

If every one of you rats is a cockroach
holding a knife behind your back
gossiping and mocking when I'm not around
why should I open up?

You came uninvited
You made yourself at home
Made a chair of my back
and sat on your throne

And I have no defences
Except the almighty God
In whom I don't trust
It's why my anxiety is up
Feb 21 · 86
I guess
SleepEasy Feb 21
My head is a mess
My heart's in distress
I want to be motionless
To sink into the mattress
and dissolved into nothingness
I close my eyes and see blankness
Chaotic shapes and darkness
I see other people's happiness
and can't help but be thankless
for what I possess
but I'm learning to let it bother me less
Feb 18 · 63
Outlast the demon
SleepEasy Feb 18
Friends close, enemies closer;
they haunt my nights and days.
As much as I hate to admit it,
there's wisdom in this phrase.
A good person travels undetected,
they do not lie in wait.
They do not leave a mark on you
but leave you to your fate.
An evil person will try to latch onto you
like a parasite;
they bite and sting, they tear your wings
and keep you up at night.
You try to rip them out your chest,
and put the trophy on your shelf,
only to feel like you lost a better version of yourself.
A spiritual war we're in, there is no cure for it;
we're continually attacked and mocked and bit
These forces we can't outwit - only outlast.
Demonic armies with their hoards keep coming back for more
Sending people into our lives that shake us to our core.
When will it end? How will it end?
A question I often ask
What's the point of striving on
Should just wear a mask.
All the pressure on a human being
abused and crushed, to dust we return
from whence we came, crying again.
The tears burn, and yet we learn
there's nothing to do with evil but turn.
Feb 18 · 128
Innocent
SleepEasy Feb 18
Your story is interesting
Unique and brilliant
No need to omit it
Glory is imminent
The people against you
Have all been defeated

You are very much needed
Feb 16 · 64
For I am Saved
SleepEasy Feb 16
My eyes have seen evil,
But I hoped for the best;
I planted the seed
Of love where I could.
I did not see the extent
of my works manifest;
I did not play the reaper
I inclined to do good.

I did not eat or savour
The fruit of my labour
It was my job to sow
And let the seed grow.
Time is a cruel master
It continues to flow
The difference I made
My heart does not know.

I didn't want glory
nor a large sum of money
but an honourable discharge
and my sins to be waived.
Now I'm nearing the grave
and I'm beginning to see
All the love I gave,
I did it for me!
Feb 5 · 48
Heaven & hell
SleepEasy Feb 5
There’s nothing I can say
Or do to save you.
I’ve been fighting all my life
For what is true.
Now I’m beginning to feel
I’ve made a deal with the devil
Cause I think of your body
More than God.
You got me hooked
You yank the rod
I heave and resist
While you just nod.
You caught me
Release me
Like a bird
Terminate
The contract I signed
With a four letter word.
Hate.
Love.
I don’t know anymore.
Feelings unnatural
Deep in my core.
One day I’ll be free
And you’ll be in chains
I will be happy
And you’ll feel the rains
Of fire and hate
Yours to keep
Cause you celebrate
While others weep.
Dec 2024 · 213
Science
SleepEasy Dec 2024
Putting under a microscope things that are simple
Searching for answers in places unreachable
Overcomplicating things to make them exploitable
If it makes money the cup is half full
Science is like wine for which people drool
Yet it has no answers for it is merely a tool
Look at old tech that lost its spirit - it's no longer cool
The truth neither bends nor changes unlike the fool
Dec 2024 · 60
Until The End
SleepEasy Dec 2024
"When lawlessness and evil reign
Being a nice person is a rebellion"

I don't believe in disposing people
Even if I don't believe they'll change
I choose to love everyone
Open love goes in all directions
I don't pick and choose who I'm kind to
If I did, that would make me a hypocrite
If they don't reciprocate my kindness
I turn my head elsewhere
The end doesn't justify the means
I don't hurt people to achieve a goal
Mean and rude people are very weak
It's so hard to understand that
I don't love the way money works
It's not an exchange
I expect nothing in return
I love because I am blessed
The day I stop being kind
That's the day my luck runs out
I may appear alone
But I am never lonely
Because He is with me
To keep me company
And though I feel backed in a corner
I have the LORD behind me
To help see me through
God put me here for a reason
Moulding me into a unique being
He takes care of my soul
I trust Him with the future
Dec 2024 · 61
Conundrum
SleepEasy Dec 2024
Hobbies become routine before long you're addicted
Entertainment requires more input you're distracted
The rich fear the poor so they feed the masses
Until they're too docile to get off their *****
The poor are so many to single one out why bother
The rich are so few they all know each other
They lie to you using words like climate change
While polluting the rivers and pointing a missile within your range
Dec 2024 · 59
Waiting for Closure
SleepEasy Dec 2024
The opposite of love, though equally strong
An emotion that kills, yet can still pass as song
You want your enemies to suffer for
how they hurt you to the core

Like the narcissist blessed with confidence
who abused your trust and manipulated you
By the time you wise up to their lies
they're too far gone to say a goodbye

Why must it be like this?
Why am I concerned when someone dies
yet want others to die so badly?
It's how I feel sadly

For I am jealous of their confidence
Though I know deep down it's just pride
They killed Jesus out of jealousy
for they couldn't stand before envy

And you shine like an angel of light
I want my revenge for you abusing my trust
But I won't act on my lust for revenge
I must put out the fire of hatred before it consumes me
Dec 2024 · 63
Dead
SleepEasy Dec 2024
Get up, show them what you're made of
...but my knees are jelly
and my head is full of marbles
Get up, dust yourself off
...but I want the dust to settle
The more I move the more it floats
Get up, move on
...but each step is a climb up stairs
and I feel unstable
Get up, show you care
...but my friends have not been kind to me
They just laugh or stare
Get up, don't be so soft
...but I feel powerless
and my expectations are aloft
Get up, swim for your life
...but I forgot how to swim
and each breath feels like my last
So what are you going to do?
...get up, smoke, lie down
Get up, smoke, lie down
Get up, smoke, lie down
Dec 2024 · 57
Idolizing human beings
SleepEasy Dec 2024
Some people have been placed
in positions of authority
Looked up to by everyone
Treated like royalty
They're the it thing for a time
By general society
Then they get tiring
to look at or see
Then people get out their lighters
And spark the wick
For they sit on a powder keg
that they didn't choose
Didn't read the fine print
Didn't know fame is a ruse
One little spark
and all hell breaks loose
Trained from youth
To lead not to follow
But they have no real answers
Their words are hollow
Yet reflect what we're all thinking
However shallow
They are beacons of adversity
Lightning rods of controversy
The spirit of the times
Show love to your celebrity
but don't let them lead
They are just human beings
Don't bow at their feet
Dec 2024 · 73
Enslaved Forever
SleepEasy Dec 2024
May the morning sun and evening moon
be enough to keep you company
Don't be easily controlled
Guided by truth I think you can make it

...is what I wish I was taught
I always wanted to carve my own path
But they wouldn't leave me alone
Eventually I stopped fighting and bowed

I was put under their whim
Whatever they wanted I did
Mow the lawn, take out trash
Help me with my work

A house run like a prison
Under distress I was at a breaking point
So I ran away from them and from school
Cops were called, and then the mental institution

Then they pulled a quick one and did a 180
They really did leave me alone
I was driven out and told to fend on my own
Where wind and cold chill to the bone

Why do such things happen?
You used me for your own pleasure
and as soon as I stopped being cute
you discarded me

So now I'm alone fighting the elements
In my head are all sorts of thoughts I can't say
Hatred and disappointment in myself and others
I numb the pain away

I can't move
My thoughts are destructive
In fetters of fear
I'm dreading things to come

I trust no one
Everyone is suspicious
They can read me like a book
Like my parents, with one look
Dec 2024 · 88
Parental Dilemma
SleepEasy Dec 2024
I wake up and eat
Take the morning commute
Stop and go
News radio
I get in the mind frame
The dusty factory mood
Cleaning and sweeping
Working the machine
On the outside I'm in keeping
with the routine
But Inside I'm weeping
Wanting to go to sleep
What goes on in my mind
I cannot say
Nobody ever stopped
to listen anyway
Just cleaning and sweeping
Washing the grime
I wish I talked to you more
But I never had time
Now I feel cheap
I can buy you bread
But I could never help with
what goes on in your head
Nov 2024 · 98
An ode to the Most High
SleepEasy Nov 2024
The life I have
is what I was given
by the almighty God
No choice but to live it
I feel honoured and privileged
to take abuse from the livid
who fight against God
and Christ who is risen
With this I am busy
The LORD guides my feet
I try not to judge
but my judgement is concrete
For the work I conceive
Life I receive
It's a joy to believe
You cannot deceive
I tell real from fake
I know lamb from snake
For the most high talks to me
and protects me for his sake
Through the valley of poison
My heart remains open
The fact I'm still standing
I owe it to him
Nov 2024 · 246
It's a mystery to me
SleepEasy Nov 2024
Loving too much and too often
Yields unexpected results
I tried to love everyone
Ended up falling apart
For they knew I was open
24/7
To tickle their eardrums
And flatter their hearts
I always gave love
Yet didn't received it
They took it for granted
Or didn't believe it
I took what was golden
And made it so common
From platinum to copper
Stretching it thin
When I ran out
The sorrow began
Now I live with the shame
That I don't understand
Nov 2024 · 57
The Visions
SleepEasy Nov 2024
...and it hits me like a ton of bricks
uncovered stones that long lay still
which never needed to be unturned
only insects dwell in this unseen
darkness that i bring to light
i want to bury it back to where it belongs
i'm trapped in emotion that comes in a bag
air tight and ready to be opened again
by a clumsy mind that knows no barriers
take a whiff and instantly remember
all the things that i have seen
all the places i have been
all the faces that i've known
and the town where i have grown
from a point of view that might not be true
or tainted by the passage of time
better to forget and live anew
each day is a chance to make it right
and i cannot give up the fight
Nov 2024 · 219
But for a moment
SleepEasy Nov 2024
He killed all his rivals
Stood on their corpses
Looked down on his kingdom
Confessed he felt nothing
He looked at the sky
The stars gave their light
The moon grinned right back
All through the night
He stood immortalized
The world was his prize
The girls sang their song
Professing him wise
The jesters danced before him
The servants saw no wrong
He put them to the test
Made them kneel at his behest
Drank wine from the best
The priests gave their blessing
Thus he was blessed
One day his spirit fell into a deep rest
And as he woke up
Felt the knife through his chest
Nov 2024 · 89
Robots
SleepEasy Nov 2024
You're unstable
And it shows
Curb the highs
Raise the lows
Keep it steady
As she goes

Don't veer left
Nor go right
Do not flee
Don't try to fight
Dark at noon
Bright midnight

Do not weep
Do not rile
Walk to hell
Single file
Line goes on
For a mile

One in front
One behind
Oiled machines
Gears don't grind
Spirit's gone
Flatlined
Nov 2024 · 156
Liberalism
SleepEasy Nov 2024
I don't really know
But I know someone who does
Therefore I know too
Nov 2024 · 49
Never A Given
SleepEasy Nov 2024
The ground was never solid
No shoulder to lean on or hand
to guide or help us understand
Just run to escape the quick sand
Such is the life of man
I'm tired of running
Through no man's land
Wading through a pile of mud
Dodging mosquitos and poison ivy
The rashes and bites make me bleed
Yet I believe someday that flowers will bud
By our blood
Then out of the crud the earth will be blessed
By the remnant seed all who confessed
That our sacrifice was not in vain
And those who heard them took heed
And forsook their lust and violence and greed
Then every man will live by the fruit of his deeds
Nov 2024 · 71
Three Questions
SleepEasy Nov 2024
No one can see
the intentions of the heart
except God
If this is the case
then  how does the Lord
not take action against evil
before it strikes?

Evil and heartache
What was the point
Why was I stricken
Why do I feel grief
for the death of another
when I don't even know them
and hate my own brother?

For now I am resting
The seed has been sowed
Who knows what will be sprung
I may have no leaves now
But someday I might bear fruit
If I shoot up to heaven
Will I remember my roots?
Nov 2024 · 55
Ghost
SleepEasy Nov 2024
It never ends
When will it end?
What kind of life
What am I doing?
Admiring beauty?
I'm smothered by fools
I don't have a voice
And even if I had one
I'd still have no choice
Predestination rules
No one can change it
No one can take the script
And tear it to pieces
I am a pawn
I don't know what the king does
Blindly I serve
But I will be faithful
For I have seen good
From his hands I have tasted
The fruit of life
And so I am thankful
Nov 2024 · 49
Mistrust
SleepEasy Nov 2024
Hello's and goodbyes
Are what I'm good at
The stuff in the middle
I'm trying to work on

I don't want to judge
And I can't always tell
What's passive aggression
Or what's about me

Fighting over the truth
Or your point of view
Is paradoxal
Cause truth is love

But people are fire
And ice and bipolar
They want to make war
And feel like the victor

So I disengage
And say goodbye
Though there are times
I can't even do that
Nov 2024 · 45
Slave Children
SleepEasy Nov 2024
I don't need a sign
The good Lord foretold
Enemies of mine
Will be in my own household

I'm not on your level
Like a flower I wilt
Slave to the devil
Crippled by guilt

With fear they controlled
I was inclined to do good
I did what I was told
But they misunderstood

My mom was a breadwinner
So was my dad
Each evening at dinner
They spoke of the bad

Above they would lurk
And tasks they would hand
To force me to work
And against me to band

I was forced to rebel
Which may be a sin
Now I'm a slave to the devil
Without solid foundation
Nov 2024 · 67
They're after me
SleepEasy Nov 2024
Silence and I still can't rest so I'll post this here and hope for the best.

I wanted to keep this to myself but I have no one to talk to and I need to get it off my chest.

After I burned my letter I prayed for an hour and though I felt better I saw no hope for a coward in fetters.

When I was little I learned that I can't have what I want and all I ever wanted was love in my heart.

I was denied and like stale bread I eat hatred for dinner in bed.

I despise my enemies they are free I want them to burn out of jealousy.

They have nothing to worry about while I'm scared to talk I can't leave my house and go for a walk.

You reap what you sow people know all my sins for I tell them so.

I need solutions fast or my dwindling life won't last.

I try to be a nice guy and people hate me for this I don't know why.

Before I knew God I was carefree once I found God the devil frightened me.

I trusted in God and still got burned I suppose it's just another lesson learned.

I wish I could live I try to forgive but I wanna die and I don't know why.

Sigh or cry no one cares people give off nasty stares.

Pride and malice rules the streets I hide in my room under the sheets.

And I dream more pleasant things I hope to some day have some friends.
Oct 2024 · 55
Tired
SleepEasy Oct 2024
For bread and wine I toil about
I put in work and gather dust
My face is drenched from harvest time
Winter comes and I don't rest
The workload's constant for fallen man
Who groans about in fallen world
The burden I carry is on my shoulders
Where sins of past have made their home
Love is scarce but calls me back
To happier simpler prosperous times
Before my work was done for others
Before I had to repay my debts
Now I'm living for myself
The walls and ceiling are my friends
A prison without locks is where I am
Looking for peaceful rest upon my bed
Tormented by coldness I stutter and turn
Into the void I direct my heart
Far from toil and labour and travail
I take what's mine and give it away
The world receives from my cold hands
My soul departs for resting place
Now I'm dead I can rest in peace
Oct 2024 · 105
It'll be ok
SleepEasy Oct 2024
It's getting old
The same story told
Same heart every day
Fighting the void
I tried to be perfect
To have a clean soul
But then I got cold
And lit it like coal

The fire burns bright
And lights up my eyes
I cannot tell
Am I in hell?

I'm fighting back urges
And mental diseases
I have very few things
that survived the purges
My bible has creases
I smacked my head with it
I wanted a new lease
So I burned all my bridges

The fire keeps burning
Devouring and spreading
I cannot tell
Is this hell?

The days are now shorter
I'm waking up later
The sun races off
But I am moving forward
No longer picking up pieces
Of missed opportunities
Tomorrow will be different
Life will get better
Sep 2024 · 76
On Judgement
SleepEasy Sep 2024
The tongue is a rudder
Its words are like fire
Sparking imagination, spreading

Rumours cut
deeper than knives
Ruining lives

Label attached
Like a parasite
Staining the white

No one will touch
A leprous man
What hope for such?

The fool walks about
Pointing the finger
Exposing another

What will he do
when he is stripped from power
and stands fore his maker?
Sep 2024 · 86
Shut-in
SleepEasy Sep 2024
I looked into your eyes and smiled
You weren't very welcoming
So I shut myself in
And left

I wonder about fate
Not just mine but of yours
It's easy to tell you to go to hell
Harder to assume you're going to heaven

I want to know about fate
Even if it's none of my business
Will you be there in the afterlife?
Will I have to put up with you there?

Others might call me lazy
But I'm working on not looking back so much
There is no guarantee of a future
Each day is like the last

And the past is still in me
It jolts and shocks me
I don't want to dwell anymore
I want to talk to you without being afraid
Sep 2024 · 95
Poetry and Faith
SleepEasy Sep 2024
Achieve the impossible
Retrieve what you lost
Let trust take the reigns
Behold and believe
Cherish the signs
They will lead you to truth
Leave doubt behind
Surrender to light
Take hold of our words
They are yours to behold
For better or worse
They need to be told
Clutch them in your hands
You can understand
And be freed like a bird
You can learn from our past
Delight in your senses
Savour each sentence
Seize what you like
Trust what you see
For wisdom and love
Are reflected in poetry
And being a poet
To me is a dream
Aug 2024 · 108
Love's Desire
SleepEasy Aug 2024
Enamoured and stricken
by love out of nowhere
It started with a dare
Now I'm writing letters of care
I playfully write them
for we are an item
Thus I'm yearning for nothing
and have no need of wings

As the world turns around us
we satisfy our lust
Blind to the mess
of others' distress
This house is so nice
yet I'm starting to think
we live like mice
in hidden vice

My friend,
I must be honest and lend
you the truth in my hand
The letters I send
are not entirely honest
for you are my end
I hope you understand
You're all that matters

Your eyes are deep waters
Without you I'm burning
The way I bend for you
is stomach-turning
The day we fell in love
was the day I stopped learning
Thus I am cursed
by longing and yearning
Aug 2024 · 110
So you think you are better
SleepEasy Aug 2024
My patience has grown thin
With those who don't listen
They're beyond reproach
Like cockroaches in human skin
They eat so much fat
Yet remain thin
They exercise sin
And squirm out of any situation
They see but don't perceive
They laugh when others grieve
They're too busy with their employment
They've ****** all enjoyment
Out of my life so I'm stagnant
To the point it's poignant
It concerns me
How I'm up against an army of worms
It burns
Being alone cause everyone is like stone
A job is to earn money
But they sell their souls
For money they burn
Till they're in the hole or the urn
And then there's me
Who was never free
Poor as can be
But I know it's all vanity
Aug 2024 · 74
Living With Pain
SleepEasy Aug 2024
For a while they stood from afar
observing from distance your rising star
It was only a matter of time before you fell
Got shot out the sky and straight into hell
They tell stories about you, about that sin
Though you merely dipped your feet,
when others were diving in
The fly ruined the ointment, and blotted the sun
A pitiful end to a story that's barely begun

So now you are cold, afraid and alone
But a heart is of flesh, and not of stone!
Life is so fragile, so easily lost
We tire so easily, at an unfortunate cost
Some things stick in the mind, but really are gone
You recite it over and over again like a song
It lives in the heart, and causes you pain
It tore down your home, and drove you insane
Like a perpetual rain, it falls and falls
and will till the end, when the trumpet sound calls
Jul 2024 · 76
Am I missing out
SleepEasy Jul 2024
The parties, the soirees
Moving the body
Socializing and mingling
Music and singing
I always wondered
What are they celebrating,
what am I missing,
why am I not relating?

Too high to be bothered
High on each other
Finding new lovers
Having *** with each other
To get over on one another
Ditching the former
Remembering never
that love lasts forever

My life was never easy
I'm a mess
I don't want to be seen
A life of sadness
Adversity at every turn
Weight of the world and stress
Yet I look at the foolish
How short-lived their happiness

There is nothing to say
to people such as these
No conversation to be had
They know nothing of worth
**** of the earth
Who don't think of tomorrow
When the party is over
their joy will be sorrow
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