My eyes have seen evil,
But I hoped for the best;
I planted the seed
Of love where I could.
I did not see the extent
of my works manifest;
I did not play the reaper
I inclined to do good.

I did not eat or savour
The fruit of my labour
It was my job to sow
And let the seed grow.
Time is a cruel master
It continues to flow
The difference I made
My heart does not know.

I didn't want glory
nor a large sum of money
but an honourable discharge
and my sins to be waived.
Now I'm nearing the grave
and I'm beginning to see
All the love I gave,
I did it for me!

There’s nothing I can say
Or do to save you.
I’ve been fighting all my life
For what is true.
Now I’m beginning to feel
I’ve made a deal with the devil
Cause I think of your body
More than God.
You got me hooked
You yank the rod
I heave and resist
While you just nod.
You caught me
Release me
Like a bird
Terminate
The contract I signed
With a four letter word.
Hate.
Love.
I don’t know anymore.
Feelings unnatural
Deep in my core.
One day I’ll be free
And you’ll be in chains
I will be happy
And you’ll feel the rains
Of fire and hate
Yours to keep
Cause you celebrate
While others weep.

Putting under a microscope things that are simple
Searching for answers in places unreachable
Overcomplicating things to make them exploitable
If it makes money the cup is half full
Science is like wine for which people drool
Yet it has no answers for it is merely a tool
Look at old tech that lost its spirit - it's no longer cool
The truth neither bends nor changes unlike the fool

"When lawlessness and evil reign
Being a nice person is a rebellion"

I don't believe in disposing people
Even if I don't believe they'll change
I choose to love everyone
Open love goes in all directions
I don't pick and choose who I'm kind to
If I did, that would make me a hypocrite
If they don't reciprocate my kindness
I turn my head elsewhere
The end doesn't justify the means
I don't hurt people to achieve a goal
Mean and rude people are very weak
It's so hard to understand that
I don't love the way money works
It's not an exchange
I expect nothing in return
I love because I am blessed
The day I stop being kind
That's the day my luck runs out
I may appear alone
But I am never lonely
Because He is with me
To keep me company
And though I feel backed in a corner
I have the LORD behind me
To help see me through
God put me here for a reason
Moulding me into a unique being
He takes care of my soul
I trust Him with the future

Hobbies become routine before long you're addicted
Entertainment requires more input you're distracted
The rich fear the poor so they feed the masses
Until they're too docile to get off their *****
The poor are so many to single one out why bother
The rich are so few they all know each other
They lie to you using words like climate change
While polluting the rivers and pointing a missile within your range

The opposite of love, though equally strong
An emotion that kills, yet can still pass as song
You want your enemies to suffer for
how they hurt you to the core

Like the narcissist blessed with confidence
who abused your trust and manipulated you
By the time you wise up to their lies
they're too far gone to say a goodbye

Why must it be like this?
Why am I concerned when someone dies
yet want others to die so badly?
It's how I feel sadly

For I am jealous of their confidence
Though I know deep down it's just pride
They killed Jesus out of jealousy
for they couldn't stand before envy

And you shine like an angel of light
I want my revenge for you abusing my trust
But I won't act on my lust for revenge
I must put out the fire of hatred before it consumes me

Get up, show them what you're made of
...but my knees are jelly
and my head is full of marbles
Get up, dust yourself off
...but I want the dust to settle
The more I move the more it floats
Get up, move on
...but each step is a climb up stairs
and I feel unstable
Get up, show you care
...but my friends have not been kind to me
They just laugh or stare
Get up, don't be so soft
...but I feel powerless
and my expectations are aloft
Get up, swim for your life
...but I forgot how to swim
and each breath feels like my last
So what are you going to do?
...get up, smoke, lie down
Get up, smoke, lie down
Get up, smoke, lie down