Hail to the fire
May the light never wane
For fire I am yearning
I am enlightened by pain
My stomach keeps turning
I am covered by shame
My eyes reflect the burning
I am drawn to the light like a moth to the flame

Fire like water
Cleanses in its own way
Just like my father
Who would work me all day
Just like the visions
Of mockery all night
Constant divisions
Had to learn how to fight

Fire like water
Makes my nightmares float away
They turn into dreams, I can think on all day
Where the morning-bird sings
Where I grow wings
And fly to heaven
I remember the King
Walking upon the water
Commanding fire from above
Ohhh
The pain
The pain
I need fatherly love
In this place
In your heart
I need help from above
How I long for peace
And for fatherly love
For a bit of release
When my task here is done

The pain
The pain
All I wanted was love
In your heart
In your heart
Stop tearing me out
The fear
The fear
Of what you have become
Memories
Coming back
Oh what have we done
Save me
Save me
You don't have to run
Hear me
Hear me
Though I know
You are not
The one

In the gap between sorrow and joy
Where the cowardly rest eternal
Where the mood is continually dull
And the cup is always half full
There the colour is only grey
And the lines are always straight
There the clock has stopped to fate
And there is no love and hate
There a dog barks but cannot bite
There a man drinks but cannot sate
And though he begs and talks all day
No one listens anyway
That is where I find myself
When I just do as I please
Though I'm content and at ease
Even God cannot help such as these
For this is the result of one-way prayer
This is lukewarmness that can never cease
This is worse than a disease
This is the end result of a desire to be free

I have no future
Never had one
I just obeyed others' voices
And did what I was told

My acts of rebellion
Self-harm and drugs
Act according to flesh
Satisfy my appetite

I stay away from women
Because that is what I desire
And I learned early on
That I cannot have what I want

Too much time alone
No one to trust
But I'd stick my hand out
Into fire to pull you out

My life is a sacrifice
I am a target
For people to point at and cast into the dirt
To inflate their ego

I see evil people
They're the ones that abused me in school
And set themselves above me
By twisted right and authority

I pray for vengeance
I want revenge against the wicked
Yet deep down I hope my curses fail
I try to forgive

How much longer must I endure
The pleasures of this world don't entice me
The riches and glamour are not for me
The pain in my soul has infected my body

I can see my enemies
are closer than my friends indeed
Always on my mind, I can never be freed
Like birds they soar, they peck at me like seeds
So I clipped their feathers and broke their beaks...

Blood-******* freaks...

Who sets up snares before your eyes?
Who stomps on you and ignores your cries?
Who seeks mommy before he dies?
Adorn yourself with blood and gore
And they will learn the meaning of hell and war

Blood-******* freaks... forevermore...

You're not dumb or dense
I won't leave you in suspense
Your blood is precious upon the throne
Offer your lifeblood and eternal life you will earn
Repent of cowardice and turn, while these

Blood-******* freaks... forevermore... BURN!!!

I dwell in cold places
Devoid of human warmth
Wherein are many faces
Of the human will they're born
Rich in human traces
Though lost to humankind
When I feel I'm about to fall
When I'm about to go blind
My paintings on the wall
Keep me alive
To dream of a different time

I walk through frozen landscapes
Where ice and snow take form
Can't drink the blood of grapes
To bring my temperature to norm
To my face the task,
To my back a stick
On my face a mask
I build things brick by brick
Though my feet are blistered and torn
And my shoes are withered and worn
Still the rhythm of music
Is keeping me warm

What benefits are there for knowing God?
You get no applaud
Maybe a cross on the wall and a bible on the shelf
It will be something you keep to yourself
No one will share in your belief
Unbelief will come like a thief
Wicked thoughts will spring up like weeds
On the ground where you've planted good seeds
More than the sand on the shore of the seas
Forcing you to fight an endless battle
You will be a shepherd in a field of grass and cattle
Trying to keep your mind pure where snakes rattle
Normal people will no longer be on your level
You will no longer be indifferent to evil
Suffering greatly fighting the devil
You will notice those who distort truth
You will know them by their fruit
The devil will send demons both spiritual
And in human form to mislead you
You will belong to a whole different kind of family
Once they knew you, now they don't see
For you are no longer the person you used to be
You will be called crazy
The world will make you an outsider
Though you open your arms wider
The world will reject you for sure
For you are no longer the world's, or worldly in nature