You made no sound
When I crossed the line
When I put you down
You payed me no mind
When I gave you the frown
You didn't notice the sign
You gave me your time
I ******* around
I was doing my grind
You were drunk on wine
Now we are bound
You are mine
Now be a good boy and kiss the ground!

Slowed to a halt
The cringe is a knot
I try to untangle
the intrusive thought

My mind doesn't match
what I do with my hand
I'm due to snap
Like a tight rubber band

There are two sides to me
Many things come in twos
I am so stuck
I simply cannot choose

It's the war
that I wage within
It keeps me poor
And beggin'

Eternal fight
Always the same
Yet there's the door
New memories are calling my name

I don't believe in coincidence
but luck and chance
Random encounters
where no pre-thought exists

You can try to foresee things
or play out your fantasy
Yet the best things in life
will come unexpectedly

In a world of points and lines
it's hard to believe
in unexpected joys
and what one can achieve

At first glance a dove
Though not love from the start
It took some time
to get the key to my heart

I heard her voice
whispering in my ear today
I turned to the noise
The fly on my shoulder flew away

I can feel her
But we're torn at the seams
I no longer love her
Or see her in my dreams

I put up a wall of darkness
Though every now and again
Light comes through
With anguish and pain

I recall when the demon laughed
And played music only I could hear
I knew it was the forces of hell
Drawing near

I saw an angel
Being treaded under feet
The feet of his own comrades
And the same fate befalls me

My love was too strong
I deserve no applause
I don't expect love
I chose love over God

There's a time to beg and a time to lend
A season for peace and a season for war
No choice but to endure to the end
Who knows what else is in store?

I'm scared of love
In fact, I don't believe in it, nope,
love is a thought
If someone loves me, I ask, what?!
And then I say no, you love me NOT!

Any day the sky may fall
with stars descending to the earth
The sun may lose its light
The moon may fly away
There's a knife hanging over my head
Any day the earth may swallow me
Death lurks in every corner
Anyone may **** me now
For I have lost my soul
The fight in me is gone
To get it all back
Will take a great deal of sacrifice

Good thoughts are hard to find
My thoughts are dark by design
Virtue is so bright a thing
I just want to end my suffering

I unwillingly take part in the fight
That has no end in sight
I need relief from the constant pain
That showers my heart with so much rain

I want to know something with my heart
I wish I could tell apart
The difference between good and bad
Discernment I wish I had

But most things are a shade of grey
And what hurt me last year still hurts today
I try to forget with all my might
At once suffocating my inner light

What's that I see, around the bend
Justice and love in the end
A reward that's true and personalized
Endure suffering to achieve the prize