At first glance a dove
Though not love from the start
It took some time
to get the key to my heart

I heard her voice
whispering in my ear today
I turned to the noise
The fly on my shoulder flew away

I can feel her
But we're torn at the seams
I no longer love her
Or see her in my dreams

I put up a wall of darkness
Though every now and again
Light comes through
With anguish and pain

I recall when the demon laughed
And played music only I could hear
I knew it was the forces of hell
Drawing near

I saw an angel
Being treaded under feet
The feet of his own comrades
And the same fate befalls me

My love was too strong
I deserve no applause
I don't expect love
I chose love over God

There's a time to beg and a time to lend
A season for peace and a season for war
No choice but to endure to the end
Who knows what else is in store?

I'm scared of love
In fact, I don't believe in it, nope,
love is a thought
If someone loves me, I ask, what?!
And then I say no, you love me NOT!

Any day the sky may fall
with stars descending to the earth
The sun may lose its light
The moon may fly away
There's a knife hanging over my head
Any day the earth may swallow me
Death lurks in every corner
Anyone may **** me now
For I have lost my soul
The fight in me is gone
To get it all back
Will take a great deal of sacrifice

Good thoughts are hard to find
My thoughts are dark by design
Virtue is so bright a thing
I just want to end my suffering

I unwillingly take part in the fight
That has no end in sight
I need relief from the constant pain
That showers my heart with so much rain

I want to know something with my heart
I wish I could tell apart
The difference between good and bad
Discernment I wish I had

But most things are a shade of grey
And what hurt me last year still hurts today
I try to forget with all my might
At once suffocating my inner light

What's that I see, around the bend
Justice and love in the end
A reward that's true and personalized
Endure suffering to achieve the prize

Think of all the souls
You light up like coals
With your harsh growling vocals
And the melodic instrumentals

Like a dragon you yell
Crying like you're in hell
The stories you tell
Not purely to sell

And I lament with you
And your words are true
With the people I'm through
Nobody understands me like you do

Peace? There is no peace! To those who know no disgrace, you have no trace of praise. I have chosen my side, I don't step out of line and I will hide and bide my time until my moment to shine. I used to think speaking truth is something to be braved, to open the eyes of the unsaved. Now I'll leave arguments about truth to the youth. Through disgrace is my salvation, for it I will receive praise. For I stood for good when others would not. I lay my life down each day, and I carefully watch what I say in case it might turn my allies away. As for my enemies, I wish I could pray for them and we could learn from each other but they hide from me so let them burn in hell.