You give me the brightest of smiles.
Fit for a princess.
But I am not like that.
Cause I give the coldest of stares.
Like a soldier.

Can you see why? I don’t smile anymore.
The drama I have faced is just.
Too Much.
For me.

My heart is screaming.
Silently.
But you can try.
To make me smile.

I talk with one.
I feel so blunt.
My mood changing.
I am shaking.
My time is over.
I start again
But this time
I don’t talk back.
Cause I am the reason.
I am the one.
They are,
Twisting my words.
To mean something else.
They say it is safety,
But I say torture.
Cause my life was supposed to be led.
By me.
But instead
I keep a smile
In front of the crowd.
Hoping nobody sees
The tears beyond my mask.

She works day and night.
Regardless of the
Opposite gender.
Which is who,
She rejects.
Countless number
Of boys
Line up at her door.
But she rejects them all.
Leaving them in remorse.
But when a guy comes
To her home one day.
Helpless. Fooled by a housing scam.
She has nothing to lose.
Because he says he is,
Gay.
So she doesn’t give a ****.
Because...
What harm could be done?
But little did she know,
That her butler,
Would become her
Knight in shining armor.

You can call me a *****.
It’s not like I care,
You were the one who couldn’t
Let me go.
Cause I have dignity.
And apparently
YOU don’t

Here’s the thing,
I got no heart.
I will not give you
Dedication.
Cause I am Indian.
And you now the deal.
I have my own rules.
But the problem is,
YOU don’t listen.

You can be a
Try Hard.
But I will be a
Know It All
Cause see,
My problem is. You.
And soon yours will be.
Me.

I don’t want
To Care.
I don’t want
to be hurt. Once again.
I am just simply telling you.
Stay Away from Me.

I look at him,
He looks at me back,
I turn away. Thinking,
What made me love you.

We sit next to each other.
I look to my side and smile.
While he smiles. Back.
Pathetic.

It’s 12:56 A.M.
He comes up to me.
I stay calm.
He asks me something.
Leaving me in tears.
I give him an answer.
My heart feeling crushed.
All my emotions. Hidden.
Beyond a simple, strong smile.


I laugh at myself. Of how
Foolish
I was.
And
Why I am like this
Today.

Of course, walking down a road is troublesome
But making out in front of another is irritating.
When you think about it, I keep my distance.
Yet THEY don’t.
It’s like watching an R-rated movie.
But in Walmart,
Which is where I buy my cherries
But, they ain't looking for anything.
I am with my friends, at school.
In the cafeteria, were we EAT.
Yet the people in the corner, ain’t in order.
They think no-one sees them.
But we do, and we are Indians.
So we disapprove.
But that’s not my problem.
Cause I am being followed around,
By a guy, with a flock of girls around him.
He might look ‘cute’.
But his heart is discrete.
And mine is not.
I might be troublesome, but here's the thing.
Stay 7 countries away from me,
Cause I am no booth.
Like those guys who think they are so serene.
But think again,
My heart ain't for no one.
Cause I already lost that.
9 years ago.

I stand around a corner.
Feeling like a loser.
Listening in to the one I call ‘friend’.
The next day
I talk to them.
They say they are mad.
I ask why.
They say I should own my mistakes.
When the only mistake that I made,
Was befriending them.