My heart shiver,
It shatters pieces of glasses that I cannot glue together. The petals on the red rose falls one by one for every battle I fight
Puddle of blood splashed as the petals fall
Sergeant said “ battle field is not always on a battle field but also within yourself”
So I shed another tear
Will I win this battle?
Will my tears be wasted
My heart beats for you
I fight the battle
My heart tells me they are wrong so I’d say something I know I shouldn’t
So I fight my battle will this battle ever end?
Can I save the last petal from falling off?
My heart shatters to stop time
To catch the last petal
The last feeling
The last emotion
To save the sacrifice I have to make
Do I have to fight every battle? Will I win?
As every sunset and every sunrise I fight a battle I wish to the moon that I don’t have to
I fight a battle to keep myself from slipping through my fingers
I fight to keep myself from being complacent
I fight on a battle field that I hope to win
So my last pedal won’t fall
So I bleed to save others blood from shedding
So I am disciplined
So I am a soldier on a battle field without a tear wasted
So I am iron soldier that walks across the field to win this battle against myself
Against the world and for my country to fight a battle that never ends.

I’d hold my breath, I bit my lips, I stayed strong, I didn’t shed a tear, I didn’t break,
You beat me with the power you stood in
The words you said kills my kindness
The lies you told made my hatred
The love one you took from me killed my blooming buds
Though I stayed strong and I wiped my sadness like an umbrella protecting rain from my shoulders
I stayed strong, how long I hold until you broke me,
My tears flooded the city of my kindness
My hatred killed my love
My sadness shattered me into pieces that I can’t count
I picked myself up but my finger tips bleeded
The lies you told to take my love
To take my life
To break me in pieces
To **** my dreams
To take what I worked for in life
You took without a thought
Without a care
Without a blink
The lie you told that made me break
That made me a monster
The monster that started the games you played
The game you thought you won
A game you should have never started
But you didn’t care of what you’ve done. You didn’t care

What am I doing? Why do I feel this way? Bolts of 24 runs in my vain, though bolts of emotions rush 100 bolts.
Where my heart burns in black coal, the volt of feelings rush in my vains
Strength of electrical emotions that I cannot control
Flashes of lightening bolts that run beneath my feat to catch his eyes, to catch those puddles of honey eyes that I lust for.
My heart rushes in a measure of electrical energy that I cannot measure.
Though 2kw generator generates 60 hertz, the blood that pumps in my heart generates 200 hertz
What is this feeling? What can be done to stop my heart from generating for you?
How do I stop my lips wanting to stick to yours like a magnet? Why do I lust for you?

What can I say? What can I do ? Am I ignorant? Or am I confident? Am i a snitch or am I doing the right thing ? Am I telling the truth or am I being rude? I stand by and watch them do things they know that’s wrong.
My count abilities are more than the stars I can count. Thought I wish they were as pretty as the night stars though my wishful thinking’s are like dust in the wind.
Master say perception is reality. Though how can you assume And not ask? How is his heart so selfish to judge not knowing? How is his heart so selfish to disappoint and not make them proud.
I look up to those who lead for guidance though how can I when master can’t separate from right to wrong?
It was said “ to be a leader you must be to follow” how am I to follow thee when thee can’t follow? How is the sea an ocean without water? How is the beach there without the shore and sands?
What can I do?  Will you judge me? Hate me? And criticize me for questioning those who disappoint? Am i ignorant? Or is their work a waste?

A shade of blue sky
Golden sun rained and beamed the palms of his hand
Rockfall in thunder rumbling sweet sound
Water sea part and bow though he passed
Sea creature swam in joy
nature bend and bow
mammals cry in joy
Raindrop fall flow stopped in air
Whistling wind stopped though it never blew
Raindrop froze into hale
cold breeze passed by though the golden sun
has never beemed
Shade of blue faded in gray