The windows shatter

shards of glass falling down
like a sprinkle of snow

digging into my skin, into my veins

and the room is painted in shades of red
crimson, scarlet, rose and blood

and we're breathing in smoke

my fingers threaded into your hair,
your kisses are like sweets
sugar melting in my tongue

intoxicated with your eyes

your bones shivering under my sharp nails

baby, my lungs are turning charcoal black

.
the breeze kisses my petals
f l u t t e r
    they fall like soft rain
and
soak the earth with light blue
. dye

it’s there

look closer

look deeper

dig dig

burrow

come on

again

again

crimson-ash-stained-hands

oh, so did you find it yet? ;)

your hope.

(no..)

you did.

the moment you asked the question. you did.

the moment you asked and wanted to find it. you already did.

come on.

dig deeper.

is that really ashes and blood on your hands?

or stardust?

look closer.

again. again.

now, what do you really see?

(you.)

There's a beat in my nerves
dragon’s breath, kisses of fire
blazing in my heart. I’m made of steel.
Sharp against the edges. Heavy.

  can you hold the weight?
(on your knees, crawling through burning flowers.. your shoulders are dropping down)
  can you feel the cut edge?
(prickle of blood, pain. let me see beneath the layer of your skin)

There’s a beat in my nerves
dragon’s blood running through my veins. Fire away at my skin, golden scales &
your words
                break
   apart.

can you break through?
(pierce through my armour & touch my bare skin and— shatter this steel heart)

darkness–
moonlight breathes down like ashes

the silence was
heavy,
devoid of
everything,
empty.
i  could  hear  
nothing,
  yet the room
was

echoing loud.

the bark is thin and wearing,
old with thin scrawny web-like branches.

and beneath the old soil
is buried memories of

me & you

sprinkle. light steps. up. higher. fly.

breathes full of shards. crimson lungs. smiles full of blood. come on. spit it out.

now, how do you feel darling? better?

ash stained hands. burrow. deeper. —
     stain.

Breathing a past of you. foward.

darkness/dim eyes/creeping hollowness/bitter taste/the echoing loud sound of blood in your ears/ the echoing loud beat of your heart/ harsh drums against your ribs/ shatter/ fall / stomach in knots / twisting / darkness / dim eyes / yet—

sunlight blankets you in honey

Baby, I am dancing in your mind
to your heartbeat
that drums out of beat
and my limbs are tangled up

I heard an ancient song,
once a upon time
singing in your bones but now—

now, I can only hear
silence

Baby, I am dancing in the dark
(when did the lights turn of?)
and my limbs are tangled up

I heard an ancient song,
once a upon time
singing in your bones but now—

now, I can only hear
silence

i once heard,
love

now, I can only hear—
death

// i want to die //

i want crumble under your soft petals of blue rose / as you kiss my pale sick skin with your ice-cold fingers / but as i reach to touch the blue moon with my bare hearts / as i set my teeth on the dark between the stars / and peer into night / your blue flowers have already withered away / you left your garden  / and i’m left to fall into the darkness of the sky again / between the stars / and to be swept by the rich colours of coming dawn

i want to die and yet...

crashing waves. the ocean hides silence love in the folds of its wild waves.

i drown.

each part me of electrifying as i fall. And it’s pain/pain/pain

and it’s falling deeper, deeper deeper— in to depths of the sea.

the dark moonlight breathes like ash at bottoms of the sea like a reminder. spills like sunlight, caught in the depths of the sea—

like it’s silent love hidden in the folds of crashing waves.

you are—

dead.

And me: alive.

And,
I drown

deeper deeper darker darker

you are—

dead.

And me: alive.

and the sea water tastes sour sour.

yet. i can’t have enough.

i trace the crumble lines that running marks of you / your white words on the blank paper / i want them tattooed on my skin  black / your words etched on my skin / bleeding ink poison into my veins / i want to die by your silent worlds.

closed eyes.

silent _ lost _

drown _

fade away. _

closed eyes.

i can’t sleep the sun is going down, down a black void filling the sky and the nightmares are here