To the mum that never was.
You gave birth to me.
You should have raised me like the precious gift that I was.

Instead you took that gift,
Threw it in to the darkness.
Threw me right into the lions den.

So so little. I was easy prey.
To the enemies inside our home.
You allowed them to destroy that precious gift you were given.

So to the mum that never was.
You will never  have that gift back.
That precious little called gift called me.
Has now grown.
I choose that gift.
I choose me.

I'm trying to do the right thing,
Cut the ******* out.
Invite only the most honest people,
No one in between.
No half measures,
You're loyal or your not.
I KNOW I AM

I wish I could call you,
Hear your voice,
Just one more time.
I wish I could call you,
Tell you that I care,
Tell you that I need you.
Oh god, I wish I could call you,
But i cant,
You're not there.

Sometimes there is a sadness in me,
One I cant explain,
Like a dark cloud,
On a cold stormy night,
My eyes weep tears,
And my breath becomes deep,
There is a sadness in me,
One I dont want to keep

You were the one,
The only one,
I felt safe with.
The only one,
I truly trusted.
The only one,
Who knew the real me.
I messed it up,
Broke your trust.
Know it's me,
Who think only of you.
The one true person,
The only one I miss.

I might not be a poet
And my words wont always rhyme,
But, they come from my soul,
My inner most thoughts,
My darkest dreams,
All tumbling out,
In words just as you see.

You took that from me,
You took my soul,
You took all that I was,
I have no identity now.

I dont know who I am,
I dont know what to do,
I want to find myself again,
Find the little girl I once was,
You took that from me,
Now I have to try set her free.