Today I realized
that he was a lie
I heard it all too clear today,
to him
I’m overly clingy
I ask for too much attention
I have issues,
And my favorite was that he doesn’t
miss me
why did he tell me before that he misses me if he was lying..
He crushed my heart
And made the pain go deeper and
deeper
But I need that pain, I need that pain
of realizing the truth to overshadow my love to him
Because he was a lie
Im not the love of his life
Im not a keeper to him
Im just a girl he enjoys emotionally
abusing.
Today I realized that he is just an ******* with a cold heart that will never deserve true love.

You don’t deserve me
You don’t deserve my clingy self
You don’t deserve my always worried self
You don’t deserve my annoying calls
You don’t deserve my love.

You used to make me feel too special, when we started our relationship your eyes were always sparkly when they looked at me, you were always interested in the silly me, and the silly stuff I always seem to say, I enjoyed having you. You somehow fixed something in me, but you broke it now, because now you lost your interest in me, your eyes are bored and dull from me, you don’t even bother to look in my eyes anymore, you show interest in any one around us except me, I feel so left out around you, you now hate the silly stuff I say you tell me to stop talking..
I miss you. I miss old you. You are losing me and it breaks me.

I try to hide my sadness  
I try to fix my feelings
I try to crash the pain
I try to hold my tears
I try to
but I always fail..
and I hope one day I can escape the darkness of my mind.