i thought
I won’t feel it
but i did
getting dumped
hurts
was it worth it
letting you in
loving you
is it true
what they say
it is better to have loved and lost
than never to have loved at all
and
time heals all wounds

run
fast
and far away
hide
and hope
the demons
don’t find
and crucify your ***

i need
a safe space
a sanctuary
to shelter
stay in place
watch the madness
from afar
exploding
outside
my window
retreat
to the bedroom
when life
is cruel

feel it
deep in your bones
don’t turn
or run away
accept
surrender
savor it
the pain
despair
of melancholy

above the din
of a yuletide storm

listen carefully
you can hear
a woman
sobbing

she’s
trapped
in an ice cave
a prison
of her own making

in agonizing
isolation
unloved
unknown
wishing
for the warmth
the touch
of another

afraid to love
of being hurt
closing off
her heart
to others

pristine and lovely
is the snowfall
from the queen’s
weeping

who is she
whispering in my ear
reciting tales
and stories  

seducing
then ****** me
with reality
and fantasies

live it
feel it
put it on paper
edit it later