When you come at your lowest
And have nowhere left to go
When life's at it's slowest
And you simply can't say no

You take the razor
And make the first one deep
Your body feels the tazor
You fall down and weep

One cut is not enough
So you make some more
I don't want to see their face
When they walk through the door

How do I explain that I want to die
How do I tell them that my happiness was a lie
They'll get teary-eyed and ask why
Forching me to stop and simply cry

The blood makes a mess
And you're still here
You take the poison and shallow
And say bye to what you held dear

With the feelings that I used to hide
I prepare my suicide

It's hard to remember what you've learned
When all the tables have turned
Leaving you burnt

But within those flames you found power
Like a phoenix from the ashes we rise
Flying high, at the highest tower
Watching the morning sunrise

But you never stay the same
Every now and then you change a lane
In a constant becoming
Always drumming and humming
To something

I'm not sure
That there's a cure
If I'm broken and alive
If a piece of me survived

I seem to be breathing
But am I truly okay
Am I still feeling
Or did that too fade away

You can do it
but you remain afraid
You're thoughts and demons
leave you insane

Social media introduces you to the language of profane
leaving no one but themselves to blame
unfiltered humor drains the brain
brain drain let's drown in champaign
life is but a campaign
of what you can attain and maintain
all whilst maintaining humane

Forgetting all about religion
you made your decision
blinded by your television
you need supervision and revision

a retake on what's right and wrong
and a reminder that your actions are strong
you might not know where you belong
but you must continue in your swan song
now run along
and be uncommonly strong

Don't leave potential unexplored
take your sword and drift toward
the history board

I write my pretty poetry
and I beg to know of thee
what you see
and what you want to be
what makes you flee
and what makes you free
how often do you plea
do you like a bee
or am I irritating thee
with my random personality

I'm sorry but that's my gravity
I don't need you I have my sanity
I call it sanity and you call it insanity
like I asked you who to be
I'd rather follow my fae

It seems to me
you lack the imaginary
and that I cling to the extraordinary
I mean who likes ordinary
I pick extraordinary  
One more time
Extraordinary

My mind is endless
I act kind of senseless
Oh I see breakfast
here comes my fist
if you insist
I can't resist
Am I dismissed
I know there is something I've missed
the crazy insists
I can't resist
The malevolence
in your intelligence
I don't know where I thence
hence
I make no sense

This baby is crazy
But the God our lord made me
To be whoever I want to be
if you dream it you can achieve it
Believe it and you will see

Close your eyes and you will see
All is not what it seems to be
There is a story unspoken
That left my mind a woken
a Stolen token
My wound reopen

My reign of fire
My hearts desire
You are a liar
So burn in fire

I crossed the line
Had it not been define
a Wrap in time
a Story of mine

They call me the worst witch
Because I tend to switch
I make them glitch
Because I'm the witch

I enchant your mind
Forcing you to find
The power that hides
Inside

My power is running out
And I am left in doubt
This is my final spell
The last to tell
I wish you well

I was alone and a lost boy
wondering alone in the trees
then came the quite explosion
and wrapped it's arms around me
I felt save in the moment
with only me
I knew this was the moment
I started to be

Honest with my self
I won't lie like every body else
Thinking for myself
God knows I need that better mental health

I don't want to play your stupid game
so please do me a favor and go away
leave today
hear me say
Goodbye baby
I end the stay
so get away  

It was nice while it lasted
but this too I have blasted
It was a bittersweet melody
But I am the composer
and this is my new symphony

Don't be scared to show your scars
You don't have to keep it all to yourself
They may see a weak moment of you
But they will see you rise again

It's okay not to be okay
It's okay if you're feeling tired
But darling, diamonds were once just pieces of charcoal
and the most exquisite poetry were written with broken hearts
Even the beautiful moon has a shadow

Every ying has it's yang
Embrace your darkness
So you may shine again

When you love someone
Your heart opens up
And there's room for everything
Your charcoal's dark
and your diamonds shine

Quod superius sicut inferius
As above so below
As within so without
On earth as it is in heaven
As the universe So the soul

All things are interconnected
The sky and the hell
The land and the sky
What is first shall be last

To accomplish the miracles of the one thing
We are the gods of the atoms that makes up ourselves
But we are also the atoms of the gods that makes up the universe
Man's spirit comes from the stars
His soul from the planets
His body from the elements
We're made of star stuff

All is mind
Everything flows out and in
The pendelum-swing manifests in everything
The measure of the swing to the right
Is the measure of the swing to the left
Everything is dual
Everything has a opposite
And opposites are identical in nature
But different in degree

Nothing rests everything moves
Everything vibrates
Every cause has it's effect
And every effect has it's cause

Infinitely,
The Cosmos

In everyone there is light and a bit of dark
an uncontrollable wildfire and a simple spark
a bright kind being and a demon soul
one that will give you love and shallow you whole

the measure of these can be defined as choices
you have to listen to your soul's silence voices

The demons inside me kept me up all night
But the angels inside me put on a hefty fight
For the moment at last I am asleep

They say soul is within us
like a silent bang
but I fear the colors that my voices sang
With head and heart I travel through
the human ying yang

As I sit here in the rain
And think of the things I can't explain
Of the things to come
Of the pain undone

I think of way more than one
But also will it come
When I am done
Will I only feel some
And leave the rest at the end of my run
The pain spared as I drift toward the sun

Will I lose them
Or will they lose me
I thought it to the stem
But still I have to wait and see

I don't know when my time is
Or when when theirs is
But deep down I'm hoping
That them both I'll miss
It will be sarrows innocence kiss
Hearts will be broken
And I fear to feel that open
The only reminder left
Memories token.

How do you unthink something
How do you take back what hasn't been said
I can't unplant the seed once it's been planted
I cannot deny what I never wanted
So now I overthink
and I'm left haunted

They say there's a hidden enemy within you
One that will be your worst
It matured before I knew
While I was still in thirst

What if it doesn't what to be found
How do I come around
What if he's stronger and crowned
I hear a sound and hit the ground
It's to late to turn around

For a moment I'm pinned down
But by who? I am in a ghost town
I forgot to write down
And that makes a touchdown
By a inside clown
I lost my crown and I'm down

I had no clue
But I will come through
I will find what they call you
and try to renew

Piece by piece
I pick up the pieces
What is left
and what is lost to theft
I gather it all and build a new heart
Even though everything is not there
It doesn't fall apart

I guess it's because I'm used to it
I don't see the use in proving I'm fit
I know what I can handle
And I know when to light my candle
If I should burn or simply shine
The choice is mine

You think I'm dumb
But I think your brain is numb
I see more than I say
I always find a way
I close my eyes to see
Silent you have to be
Let your mind run free