The color of my skin doesn't defy me
Neither does my sexuality
I do not lack morality
While some still seek for their sanity
In a world that knows no bounds for insanity

It's terrible to think of how many died
Just because they lied
They didn't know right from wrong
And thought they were being strong
I hope it haunts them life-long
And when they wake
they hear this terrible song

In these Godless times
In a world filled with  countless crimes
All we can do is face these climbs
and hope for the end result
to be beautiful rhymes

I was alone and a lost boy
wondering alone in the trees
then came the quite explosion
and wrapped it's arms around me
I felt save in the moment
with only me
I knew this was the moment
I started to be

Honest with my self
I won't lie like every body else
Thinking for myself
God knows I need that better mental health

I don't want to play your stupid game
so please do me a favor and go away
leave today
hear me say
Goodbye baby
I end the stay
so get away  

It was nice while it lasted
but this too I have blasted
It was a bittersweet melody
But I am the composer
and this is my new symphony

Staying when I shouldn't
Going when I should
My armour is cracked
But fight I know I would

Wouldn't it be easier If we just could
leave it all behind and go live in the wood
If I could I would
Standing where no one stood
alone in the wood

They can't reach me here
and I am lifted of fear
I've held them far to near
and I am ready for the cure

So I do my gypsy dance
and take my final stance
In lamination of the moon
my power will be here soon

I remember feeling saved
When He walked in
smiled and waved

He said we're all sinners
we just sin differently
So drop the negativity
and sit with me

I sat there and He smiled
He tried to put it gently  
so I listened intently
He told me I was beautiful

When I mirror and reflect
When I show the error in their way
with respect

When I refuse to stoop to their level
and simply deny the devil
When it falls apart and starts to tremble
I remain peaceful within my temple  

This world will turn you into a slave
so be careful what you crave
Engrave behave
He stood up
smiled and waved
I knew I was saved

I never want to get my heart broken again
So I restrain from love
I can't lie it's been tough
But I've been broken enough
Love again or tough love

Self love is now taught like a habit
but something inside me still craves the rabid
To be wanted
to be touched
To feel like enough
to be in love

To wake up next to someone each day
knowing they'll  stay
I'll take it today
knowing it can change again some day
I'll play this game everyday

Love is my drug
and I'm hopelessly addicted
but not at all conflicted
Because as I predicted
I wouldn't want to be anywhere else
Than in it
bring it
love every minute

I hear the voice of depression
Maybe you should **** yourself
I know it's not one of my confessions
Don't listen I advise myself

I know what I've done wrong
It plays continuous in a song
I am a prisoner inside my head
I believe the lies I've fed
Every terrible thing said
I've made my bed
Now it's time to lie in it

I am played by my mind
All the bad memories rewind
The thoughts I tried not to find
Are now in my bind
I am left behind
In my own cyclical hell
I've tried so hard but I fell
This is the story I'm to tell

Imagine being a little boy
Still obsessed with his toy
But then discovering a blade
And the feelings that doesn't fade
Singing a song that's been made
He finds delight in the cuts of his razor blade

Before he knows it he's addicted
And suddenly conflicted
This isn't what he predicted
The pain self-inflicted
The cuts are getting deep
And the climb is getting steep

Emotion is taking over
And I am barely sober
I remember October
When I thought it was over

I was bleeding and internally crying
Probably half way from dying
All I remember was the lying
Saying I wasn't dying
But then I really started trying
And I thought peace I was finally finding
Only to be left here reminding
Depression is still in my sighting

The illness never left
I can charge it with life theft
But my battle still goes on
While I try to sing my song
Stand tall be strong
They don't need to hear the wrong
The fight has been long
But I am strong.

I look for another resolution
For a permanent conclusion
But no matter what I try
I will have to say goodbye and die
I've been asking the same question
Why?
But it's always the same
The angels look down and start to cry
I don't want to say goodbye
I don't want to make them cry
But with the human label die
I will have to return to the sky

So I try to life each day like it is my last
and I try to forget about the past
Because life goes very fast.