I look for another resolution
For a permanent conclusion
But no matter what I try
I will have to say goodbye and die
I've been asking the same question
Why?
But it's always the same
The angels look down and start to cry
I don't want to say goodbye
I don't want to make them cry
But with the human label die
I will have to return to the sky

So I try to life each day like it is my last
and I try to forget about the past
Because life goes very fast.

Some things I have to do
and some things I don't
Things I should
And things I won't

I don't like change
but it's in range
it seems strange
because it only leaves disarrange
So I try to morph through the change

It's a good thing we're mutable
And we don't cling to the suitable
Even though I lack beautiful
I change as usual

So don't get used to it
get down and sit
and try to admit
that it feels like you're losing it
Here comes change
Split submit.

As I look across my lifeline
And find that it's all but fine
I wonder what my mind enclined
When I was at that point in time

Things that seemed sense
Now left no evidence
Things I could then explain
Now left in flame
Time has passed
What is now will past
Nothing lasts

Everything has changed
And it requires a new me
I am left deranged
By the thought of who I try to be
The attempts often futile
While,
I be the best me I can currently be
Keep it all inside like it isn't destroying me
Endure the ride wait and see
Find what they call free

I'm honestly sometimes clueless
the pieces of my mind glueless
But I have the endurance to do this.

As I sit here in the rain
And think of the things I can't explain
Of the things to come
Of the pain undone

I think of way more than one
But also will it come
When I am done
Will I only feel some
And leave the rest at the end of my run
The pain spared as I drift toward the sun

Will I lose them
Or will they lose me
I thought it to the stem
But still I have to wait and see

I don't know when my time is
Or when when theirs is
But deep down I'm hoping
That them both I'll miss
It will be sarrows innocence kiss
Hearts will be broken
And I fear to feel that open
The only reminder left
Memories token.

Piece by piece
I pick up the pieces
What is left
and what is lost to theft
I gather it all and build a new heart
Even though everything is not there
It doesn't fall apart

I guess it's because I'm used to it
I don't see the use in proving I'm fit
I know what I can handle
And I know when to light my candle
If I should burn or simply shine
The choice is mine

I write this with a heavy heart
Because it feels like I'm falling apart

They keep fighting
and I don't know with who I should be deciding
I want to go in hiding
But running from it is as good as lying

I love them both
and I am woven from their clothe
But they keep hurting each other
and I am froched to look at another
I love you father and mother
So please don't hurt each other

They had the perfect love
but even that didn't seem enough
I guess I'm still lucky to have you
to know the love between me and you remain true
Even if you leave me blue
I'll always think of you