Diana

Diana Nov 2020

Sometimes I laugh under my breath
When I am around those
That think they know me
If only they read some of my poems
Would they be shocked
By how much they actually don’t know

I love poetry and a site like this where essentially I can write whatever I want and people are so open to receiving my message whether that be one of sinful lust, morbid curiosity, or deep sorrow that comes in the symbolic form. So, thank you Hello Poetry community for your openness and ability to see a less filtered version of me.

Diana Nov 2020

it’s okay to cry

Would you tell a child
That is crying
To **** it up
Or to stop crying
No?
Then when your inner child
Comes out from its shadows within you
And starts crying
Allow them to
Don’t stop the process
Allow the inner child
To heal
To tend the wound that wasn’t drained
Of suppressed emotions
When you were younger
And didn’t have the knowledge
That you have today

Diana Nov 2020

everyone is an addict

I believe all of us are addicts
to dopamine
our brain is wired that way
but when we think of “addicts”
it is almost as if we have separated ourselves from “them”
when we truly aren't that far away from one another
we forget to ask the question of why
why are they addicts
It’s possible that
life became too difficult to manage
the body found a way to stimulate the mind in such a manner
that it either numbed the constant pain
they experience when sober
or provided euphoric bliss
to a chronic state of numbness

Diana Nov 2020

to find your voice in this foolish world

i have realized
that it is in silence
where my voice thrives
it is where i truly found my voice
and welcomed her with open arms

this world does not want us to find our voices
no matter how much it advertises for it
because once we do
we begin to realize the power behind it
and the lies that were found in the noise
of the world

find your voice
strip your mind of all other narratives
and listen to the one that has been buried down
beneath all the trash
there lies your most authentic self
the one that has been there
all along

once you find your inner voice
hold space for its abandoned
emotions
trauma
boundaries
desires
needs
tend to the voice
that will lead you to joy

Diana Nov 2020

my breath will always be

eyes closed
palms gently resting against my thighs
deep inhale
slow exhale
repeat
this is all i know
that will be with me in the future
as i close my eyes
and feel my chest expand and retract
as i become aware of the places on my body
that connect and ground me with the earth
i find peace
in knowing that this will be the same
decades down the road
i'll always have my constant breathing to come back to
the stimulus
darkness
and the sensations
will be the same ones that i will experience
once i graduate
once i get my first job
once i kiss the love of my life
once i give birth and hold my child
once i experience the grief and loss of my parents
i will have my breathing to come back to
i will have the soothing movement
of my chest
to remind me of my constants in life

Diana Nov 2020

come back home to yourself

our most unfiltered essence
can be found in our early years
but then we are challenged
to conform to societal expectations
so that we may be socially desirable
at the cost of abandoning aspects of ourselves
for survival
this train of thought emerged when
my psychology professor told me
during a mindfulness exercise
to come back home to myself
to the aspects of myself that I foreclosed
for the sake of survival
so
I encourage all of you reading this
to take the courage
and come back home to the parts of yourself
that you abandoned
all those years ago