Your smile is so wondrously enticing,
the way your teeth shimmers like pearly diamonds,
your mustache so fresh and clean,
your magical eyes all in my mind,
dividing my existence,
my body, my heart dissolving
inside your island of dreamy rhymes.

I want to lay down in the dark and drift away
into endless dimensions, sink inside timeless
infinities, inhaling the enchanting beauty all
around me.  I want to be one with the stars
and moon and take in the night as the wind
glides in sight, like the waves that rise and
fall in the distant seas, my body soaking in the
upbeat scenery, my eyes lost in the illuminating
light, and all the tranquility surrounding me.

I want to feel my body float in the horizons
and glide on clouds, sleek crystal clears and
drumbeating melodies, every scintillating
sensation brightening inside my existence,
taking me further across the shimmering
skyline, giving me life like I have never
felt before.

They called me a punk, a ******* ******,
an inconsequential gay man drifting in the harshest
light of the night, a swirl of hard, sunbaked
asphalt on my rough, pungent skin, dark, *****
consonants crushing my heart, unforgiving
diction twirling in my sore, stinging throat.

I did not know what could possess them
to break my vessel into a million, meaningless
fragments, a thinning gray vowel spiraling
into weather-beaten trees and leaves,
leaving me out of sync with my existence,
feeling like my limbs were struck by an ax,
embracing the scarlet blood as it covered
my metal and mangled flesh.

Look at my withered, yellowish presence,
a miserable, hideous sea of sleepless depictions,
a sweltering star, a shrinking moon disappearing
too soon, an inanimate object, a directionless
derivative, an insignificant horizon unable
to shimmer, a flooded dimension transforming
into nothingness, into a black sinkhole of desolation.

I felt like I was dying, a diminishing afterthought
drifting away into hazy spaceships, all blackened
and ceasing to rise again, the silence around me
a disturbing scene stripping away my serenity
as I slipped into somberness, feeling the endless
bead of tears stream down my raw-swollen face,
such trembling emotions, such drenched moments
making me feel not so strong as everything seemed
to turn into a broken blur, an unrhythmically depth
of terrible regrets, breaking me down piece by piece.

You were a mountain blazing man, so full
of inexpressible thoughts and discoveries
careening through the seamless sweet skin,
sheer nakedness, natural beauty blending
in with the blossoming blue seas, pearly bright
clouds, the succulent sun of enormous love
radiating enticing hunger, sugar splashing
waves possessing wild urges, insatiable
sensations, flavorlicious sauce, beat dropping
hotness, shimmering too bright for the eyes,
making it lit like vivid blue lightning.  
You were a body of exploding boulevards,
a muscular man full of hip-hopping drip,
sizzling kisses, a whirling river of memories,
rock-hard consonants, blissful vowels,
lips of wanting and needing, your glistening
back so beautifully broad and bursting
with soul, exquisite fractions adding passion
to the fire, generating a soundtrack
of scenic light, a whole of life of moonlit
attraction turning up the night with your
slow jamming nation, the music igniting,
traveling in higher heights like a wildfire,
immersed in your candlelight flight,
the scene so right, longing to feel
your sexiness seep in me, taste
the honey nectar as it oozed
from your body.  I longed to submit
to your pulsating plantation, your silken skin
of vast fascinations, anxiously awaiting
to be exposed to the rotation of your physique,
oh, how it transfixes me, the way you danced
so sensually, staring at me, strip teasing,
removing your Ethika boxers as my heart
became rapt, every secret treasure unwrapped,
coming closer to me, grinding your flesh
to mine, chests to chests, breath to breath,
lips to lips, trembling hips, my hands
clung to your scrumptiously tender ***,
feeling all of you, the calming thoughts
of you, your world filling me with strong
and swelling desires.  I loved how you
touched me, satisfied me, made my body
rise in surprise to your euphonic drum,
your gleaming glances, your emotions,
my devotion, your movements so rhythmic
and riveting, simply irresistible, lost in your
destiny, your innocence, and strengthening
security, to savor your bejeweled, anaconda
**** of sparking fantasies, addictively pleasing
and refilling the open doors to my core.  
Your **** was a poem of grandeur, an entire
universe of musical loving, sculpted spice,
muscle flamed rawness, the surface so hard
and harmonious, marvelous head, a lightning
bolt of skyrocketing starships, so slippery
and relaxing, ensnared by the encounter,
by your masculine fineness encasing me,
to be gone, drifting in your splendorous Milky Way.

I’m bound to the endless planets that spin around my soul
The crying moon singing sweet sad blues
Lost in the unsynchronized rhythm drifting in swelling syllables
I can feel the swirling breeze surrounding my body
How I’m all alone in this sunken landscape
Drawn to the slow dragging sounds pounding my brain relentlessly

I was drowning
in the waves down
where the drunken
rivers screamed out
in agony, lost in darkened
dungeons, starless horizons
steady sinking inside mugshot
mountains buried beneath
rotten dirt.  I was into deep
with my feelings, drifting
between various realms,
disconnected from the
inner and outer inventions
that lingered around
my existence, trying to
break through my damaged
heart.  My chests were growing
numb.  I could feel the pain
intensifying upon me,
jagged letters slashed
across my throat,
embroidered in scarlet
depictions – strange
and cracking, flamed
and shattering, a swirling
hallway of vast illusions
suffocating my kingdom
in the dreadful night.

My heart was pounding, heavy sounding, drowning,
hung upside down from a tree, my ankles tied, my eyes
drained and dying, my lips rusted and crushed,
as a violent gang soaked my dank body in gasoline
and motor oil, setting me on fire as I screamed out in pain,
straining to breathe through the flames.  My brain was
going insane, locked away in damaged domains, trying
to hang on and stay strong, but my physique was sizzling
in high degrees, my beauty fading as they split my abdomen
open with a steel knife, my unborn child falling to the ground,
my soul feeling and unsound and shattered, crashing
into sporadic directions, not knowing if I was coming or going,
going or coming, flowing out of rhythm, my baby stomped
and sunken as bloodshot bullets punctured my flawed flesh.