Why do all colors have a description to them?

Red- For strength or anger
Yellow- For sunshine and happiness
Pink- For all girls
Blue- For the boys and for when you're sad
Black- For hate and fear
Purple- For luxury and ambition
Green- For nature and energy

We force people to be someone by giving them a label.
Should we do that to colors too?

Why should black be the evil one?
Why can't yellow be a way to express sadness?
Why is pink for girls?
Just why?

I never thought I'd matter
To anyone

Until you
Came along

And changed my perspective
Of the universe

You made me feel
Like I matter

And I'm grateful
For you.

WhOoP De DoOp

tHeRe GoEs My LaSt BraIn CeLL

They ask me how I am, so I put on a fake smile, pretend like everything's all right and say " I'm doing great, how about you?"

Silly tadpole
Swimming in his tank
Keeping races with his friends
And enjoying while he can

Silly tadpole
Suddenly with the urge to jump
Up an  out of the tank
To go discover the world outside

Silly tadpole
Bidding goodbye to his friends
And taking a breath
And finally the big leap

Silly tadpole
Lying on the floor
Suffocating and dying
Wishing he never did that

Silly tadpole
Wriggling on the floor
Taking his last breath and realizing
He wasn't ready for the world yet.

"You need help"
"I know"

"Then why don't you ask for it?"
"Because they wouldn't understand"

"How do you know that if you haven't tried?"
"Because they are society. They never understand"

They say life is good
But I don't believe it.

What is good
In millions of people dying every year

What is good
In global warming

What is good
In school shootings

What is good
In floods, earthquakes, tsunamis

What is good
In being diagnosed with a chronic illness

What is good
In divorce

What is good
In your home being destroyed by a fire

Maybe there is no good
Maybe they're just lying.

Today I smiled at stranger
And they smiled back

I felt warm inside.

I wish I were dead.
I wouldn't cause any more troubles.
I wouldn't be a burden.
I wouldn't be missed.
Please take me away.
Into the darkness.
Take my life.
I don't care anymore.
Everything would be so much easier.
It's better this way.
Oh, how I wish I were dead.

I'm sorry.
For the way I've been.
Like you said, I'm a sailboat in the middle of an ocean.
Water surrounding me on all sides.
Knowing, there is no way out.
I watch the days turn to nights, and nights to days.
The cycle goes on forever.
Sometimes the moons light gives me hope.
But the clouds cover over it,
Just as I was beginning to get hopeful.
Sometimes I like to curl up in my little boat,
and count the stars at night.
But I never make it to the end,
Just like how I won't in this world.
But I see you,
In the distance,
Coming towards me in your strong ship.
You're coming to rescue me.
But the waves are too strong,
And they take you away from me.
So I sit back down once again,
And stare at the night sky,
Waiting for the clouds to shift.

What is it like
To have a heart
With no feelings

What is it like
To have a mind
That controls you

What is it like
To have a mouth
That won't work when you need it to

What is it like
To have hands
That make you choke yourself

What is it like
To be normal?

I'm a young girl with her entire life still ahead of her
But it's my moods that are holding me back

One day I'm on top of the world and the next day I'm at the bottom of the ocean

Nobody understands this
They think I'm just another spoilt kid from the city

But I'm not and I just want to make them understand
Just for once in my while entire life,
I just want someone to understand me

Just for once

People
Are like
Teacups

Some are pretty
Some are plain

Some have a saucer
Some don't

Some carry warmth within them
Some turn cold in a blink

Some are the favorites
That we see everyday

But some are lost in the dark
Without their existence being known


But in the end,
They're just teacups

They tell me I'm pretty
That my smile is the best-
They've ever seen

They tell me I've got lovely hair
They say they're jealous
And ask me the secret to such beauty

But they wouldn't be jealous
If they saw,
What was inside this pretty girl.

They wouldn't be jealous
If they saw she was losing her mind
And her smile disappeared when left alone

They wouldn't be jealous
If they knew she pulled her pretty hair
From anger and frustration

They wouldn't be jealous
If they looked more closely.

The demons in my head
They're mine
Mine to fight

I don't need your help
You don't understand
You never will

The demons
They're multiplying day by day
And growing stronger

They're slowly eating my soul
Until I have none left
They're destroying my feelings

They're going to take over me one day
But until then,
I'm going to keep fighting

Fighting until they're out of my head
And somewhere else instead

I stare at the stars at night
And I think about you
About your smile
And how you played with me

You were a lovely person
You made me happy
You helped me hide while playing
A game of hide and seek

But you were sick
You had breathing troubles they said
They kept you in a room
Connected to machines and tubes

I visited you once
You didn't recognize me
You couldn't speak
You just stared

And then one day
You left us
And joined the stars
But I still love you

And I know
You're watching over me
And I'm sorry
If I've ever disappointed you

But I know you love me
And I love you too grandpa
I love you so much
You have no idea

Isn't it ironic,
That people who hang themselves
Struggle to breathe
When their feet no longer touches the ground
They're struggling to breathe,
To live,
When their intention,
Is just the opposite.

I talk to myself
A lot

Maybe It's because I know,
That I'm the only one
Who will talk to me

Only I understand what I'm saying

I'm sorry
I've done it again.

They forced me to,
The voices in my head

Telling me I'm not enough
Worthless and a burden

No one's going to love me
And there isn't any point in trying.

They told me to
Go back to my blade

And seek comfort in the pain.
And that's what I did.

As I held my blade in my hand,
I felt the beautiful feeling of home.

Old memories fogged my mind,
The beauty of carving my skin and the pain that followed

It's an addiction
And also a hard one to get over.

It was a day full of rain
A gloomy one
A depressing day

But once the rain went away,
I saw it
The most beautiful rainbow ever

All seven colors
Shining brightly
My eyes were pleased

I wondered,
What it would be like,
To bite into that rainbow

What would the colors taste like
Exploding in my mouth
And leaving my tongue colored

Ah, but I can only imagine

Whispers
Noises
Sirens
Gunshots
Cries
Shouts
Laughter
I hear all of this
In my head

Am I going insane?

We are made up of stardust
Or so they say

I look down at my hands
And see they are glittering

Is it glitter?
But no, It' not coming off

Shining radiantly
Almost as if It's a dream

But It's not possible
My mind says so

But the voice in my head
Tells me

To stop for a while
And let my imagination run wild.

Some say that
People who read books
Live in a fantasy
And know nothing of the real world

But books have taught me
More than anyone ever could
They've taught me
The difference between good and evil

They've taught me
What is real and what is fake
They taught me
How to escape this world

They've taught me
That all humans aren't alike
And everybody is beautiful
In their own way.

Books have taught me
More than anyone ever could.

A normal day
Walking through the park
When suddenly grabbed by the waist

You throw me over your shoulder
And run
To your van

You throw me in the backseat
And tape my hands and mouth
And start driving

I'm mesmerized
By everything
That just happened

You drive fast,
And reckless,
A really long distance

When we finally arrive
At your house
You push me into a room

You look at me now,
And laugh,
Menacingly

You punch my face
And kick me hard
You spit on me

I don't even scream
Or cry
But just stare at you

Every time you touch me
And hit me
I start liking you even more

Somehow, the way your touch
Makes me feel,
Is a feeling of home

As each day passes
Your hits grow worse
My body is bruised and broken

But my love for you isn't.
I long for your hand ******* my face
And your spit on my body

I'm not a victim of kidnap and abuse,
But rather, one of Stockholm Syndrome.

It's late at night
I'm in bed

I hear sounds that aren't there
I see shadows shifting around

Then there they are
The demons in my head

They force me to get up
And make my way to my desk

They tell me to grab my blade
And bring it my wrist

'One cut' they say
'And the pain will be gone'

And I give in
As I bring the blade to my wrist

And I  realise they were right
One cut and no more pain.

When I tell people that I used to self harm,
They ask to look at my scars.

They examine my arm,
Like I'm an artifact at a museum

They pretend to understand
But they never will

They will never know,
The true history behind this artifact.

They will never understand It's worth,
Until one day,

It's stolen.
Snatched away from this world forever.

I wish I had the courage to say goodbye.
But I don't.
So I'm still here.
Eating away the days.
And never asking for a second helping
At night,
I celebrate my victory
For having survived yet another day,
In this stupid world, with stupid people.

Voices in my head
Shadows everywhere

I'm curled up all alone
In the darkness of my room

I can feel the demons next to me.
They keep chanting

The same words until I give in
"Die" "Die" "DIE" "DIE"

"Okay"
I finally whisper.

I've given up.
They've won.

The tallest of them stands up
And comes near me

He smiles all creepy and whispers,
"Ready?"

I nod
While tears run down my face uncontrollably

He lifts his hand up
The one holding the knife

And brings it down
And stabs me in the heart.

I whisper
"Thank you"

Before falling over
And my heart stops beating.

Im stuck
Inside my head

There doesn't seem to be a way
For me to get out

I'm scared
And lonely

Stuck with my demons
It's my nightmare come to life

I can't see
Or think

My words are stuck
I can't make a sound

My cries
They're held within me

I'm stuck and afraid
For ever and always.

I am afraid
Very afraid

There is something inside me
That is controlling me

The people around me,
They are conspiring against me

They whisper behind my back
And watch me from all sides

They are planning traps for me
To change me into one of them.

All I do is watch.
I feel helpless.

And afraid,
Very afraid.

I'm still breathing
For what reason,
I do not know.

Why do I cut?
To remind myself that I'm still alive and breathing.

I can end it all
Right here
Right now.

The demons
They're chanting
For me to swallow the bottle of pills

Looking out through the window
I see the moon
And the night sky

I could be with them
A star in the sky
More than a star I'll ever be here

The voices in my head
They're telling me I don't have a purpose
That I'm a waste of space

But maybe
They're right
They know the truth.

And maybe
I should just end it
Right now
While I can.

Sleep.
A word I dislike.
Something I don't do.
A word for cowards.

For the people,
That are afraid
Of the dark
And dislike the truth.

They sleep,
When others,
Others who I like to call
Warriors

These warriors
They wait for nightfall
To chase their dreams
And to be who they want to be

And cowards sleep
While the warriors scream
And cry in desperate
Struggling to win their war.

And when dawn arrives,
And shines light on the world,
The cowards wake
While the warriors hide

I'm screaming
Out loud
In my head

But I look around and smile
I don't want people
To think I've lost my mind.

I'm not me anymore
Something else is controlling me
It's not me anymore.

Everything is a joke to me
Nothing makes sense
Like me.

I hate this
And at the same time
I love it.

Quick question:
Do the demons ever leave you alone?

The world is falling apart
In front of our eyes
We are watching
We see It all

Yet we don't mind
We give more importance
To finding life on other planets
When the life here is about to end.

Hey boy
Remember me?

We were great friends
And talked everyday.

I thought we would grow closer
Like two clouds in the sky.

You made me laugh,
And made me feel like someone cared

But then I told you something
It changed your mind.

Summer passed
And you still have't texted me

Maybe I was wrong,
Maybe we were not meant to be.

I just miss you making me laugh
And talk about myself

But It''s not like I
Liked you anyways.

Life is temporary

So do whatever the **** you want

Ever losing sanity
Mind crumbling to pieces
Heart pumping for the last time

This is how it ends
There will be no sequel
This is it

Mind filled with noises
It's never quiet
Can't wait for this to end

Bruises on my body
Pain spreading everywhere
All of it

Will end
Tonight
Can't wait.

The moon shines radiantly
On the ocean,
As she takes her step towards it
And lets the waves
Carry her home.

Stuck in a void,
I accept the fact,
That I won't be coming back.

Stuck forever,
Lost forever,
Till the judgment day

But I like it,
Being stuck
And surrounded by emptiness

It feels like
The home
I wish I had

Stuck and lost in a void,
May feel frightening to some
But it feels like a bliss to me

Too much like a bliss
That it makes me
Want to never come back

I keep writing
But I can't find the right words
To get out this feeling in my chest
I feel sick
And I cannot think straight
Oh, how I wish everything would go
Back to the way it was.
I wish I was happy
I wish I could at least fix it.
But I'm broken now
Like you, and everybody else
And we can't be fixed anymore.

The sun shines bright
And so does the moon.

But the sun hides behind the moon,
And helps in shining light on the dark

They work together,
To keep us in light

To never let us experience darkness.
Because they know,

They've seen things,
Felt things.

But whatever it is that they saw,
They do not wish for us to experience it.

Because they think we deserve light,
And not the dead dark.

Life isn't always
What they say it is.

Childhoods aren't always the best
Adulthood isn't always so hard

Depression isn't always just a phase
Happiness doesn't last forever

Heartbreak isn't always something you can get over
Love isn't everlasting.


Life isn't always good
Not for everyone.

I'm losing my mind
Slowly,
I don't know what's real anymore

Who are you?
Who am I?
Where am I?

Will I ever be back to normal again?
I don't understand myself
So I don't expect you to either

I wish I could find my senses
And be normal again
So I don't hurt myself
Because I want to feel something

I've lost everything
I don't know what to live for anymore
I'm done. So goodbye.

Everytime I look at my own picture
It feel like I'm looking at a stranger

It takes me a moment
To realise that's me

I've changed
In ways I don't know

I'm not my old self
I'm a stranger to myself

I'm a stranger
Who I'll never get used to

"Everything happens for a reason" they say.
But that's only what they want to believe.