Sweaty
Running
Panting

Pass
Catch
Turn

Shoot
Swish
Goes in

Turn around
Looks at you
You don't care

Swish
Once again
Still no word from you

Substitute
Catch breath
And promise
To never look at you again.

Everyone says
That their childhood was the happiest
And as they got older
Things got difficult

But for me
My childhood and
Present
Are the same

I was abused
I was forced to fear
I was yelled and spat at
For things that were not my fault

I was never given the same love
Given to my brothers
I never even felt love
Like they did

I was forced to lie
So I don't get beaten
I was forced to withhold my screams
That would get me in trouble

I learnt not to share my opinion
Because I knew
That they
Would insult me on it

I was never allowed
To express myself
My feelings
My ideas

My childhood wasn't a happy one
But I've learnt to survive.

My pillow
An inanimate object
Yet

He knows more secrets than my best friend
He has seen me in states that no one else has

He holds my secrets
He is soaked with my tears
My screams are held within him

He understands me in a way no one else will
He listens to my endless cries
He never complains

He is ready to hold me
When I'm tired and ready to switch off

My pillow is one who loves me
Endlessly and without complain

You are brighter than the stars
The sun, even

And I won't let anybody take away that brightness from you
Not even him

In this battle
Against you and him,
I'm on your side

I'm rooting for you
I will always be rooting for you

I'm angry
At him

For taking you away
Away from everything

But I know now,
That in this battle
There will only be one winner
And I'm sure it will be you

Punch my fist on the wall
Hear my knuckles crack

Keep punching
Till they start bleeding

Punch again
Till I don't feel the pain anymore

Draw my hand back
And feel the sting

I punch the wall
One last time

My knuckles are broken
And can't be fixed

Just like how
I'm broken and can't be fixed

I'm sorry
I can't

I'm sorry
I won't

I'm sorry
I couldn't

I'm sorry
I should've

Sometimes I feel nothing, and other times I feel everything.
There is no in between.

1 2 3  stars
Fixed in the sky

Some twinkling
Some still

Reminds me of the time
The world was a happy place

When people,
Actually wanted to live here

When society didn't judge us
When were free to be us

When there was only
Joy and love around

But now,
All I see is

Fire, death, anger
Families torn apart

I see people
Losing their minds

People holed up in their houses
Afraid of society judging them

The world was a beautiful place
Now it just *****.

You ask me why I stopped talking to you
You ask me what's wrong

How do you not realize
I can't do this with you
You're not for me

We're so alike
And yet so different, don't you think?

You would never leave to start an adventure in a new city with just your backpack on your shoulders
But I would.

You think dancing together at a party is embarrassing
But I've been dying to do that.

You think museums are boring
But I could spend hours getting lost in it.

You don't like meeting new people
But I find it fascinating.

And I need to be with someone,
Who gets me,
Who wants to do things I love,
Who laughs at my stupidest jokes,
Who I can spend hours with and it feels like minutes.

I'm sorry but I have to let you go
It's not you
It was never you.

If I switched the letter, my name was Air.
I thought it might be a great thing to be the air.
I could be something and nothing at the same time. I could be necessary and also invisible. Everyone would need me and no one would be able to see me.

-Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the Universe.
Author: Benjamin Alire Saenz.

People,
I don't like them

They're of two kinds,
The smart ones and the stupid ones.

Smart ones know how to think
And act appropriately.

They understand you
And know better than to mock you for fun.

The stupid ones,
They don't think

Their source of joy,
Comes from mocking and harassing.

But in any case,
I would rather be alone,

Than spend time
With my own species.

Sometimes she lays there wanting to feel something. Anything
No one cares about her anymore.
Not her friends, her family.

Her life is behind a shut door.
She is surrounded by walls, plain walls.
Walls that hold secrets

Her pains, her cries, her dead memories.
She is forgotten but she doesn't forget.
She has no role in this world

Or so she thinks.
Her thoughts flow like black waters,
spreading through her body, her veins.

Her memories almost dead.
Her heart broken into a million glass pieces
that stab her with every thought of you.

Because you should have been there for her,
when she was alive, when she needed you.

People say that they hate saying goodbye. So isn't the better way to never say hello?

i don’t understand
where all of this pain is coming from

pain i can’t contain
flowing through me

pure hurt
i feel inside me

my heart is heavy
and i feel weighed down

having never cried over someone,
why now?
why you?

you, who has left me with nothing but pain
you, who has me feeling like refuse
you, who has shattered my worth

why are you so different?
moreover, why have i changed?

me, who knew my self worth
me, who knew the right thing to do
me, who was playing it safe

yet this happens
shattering every part of my being

i’ve left me feeling empty,
i’ve left me judging myself,
i’ve left me feeling hatred for myself,

you made me hate myself
you made me hurt myself

you make me wish i never met you.

The forgotten child
Never asked how they are
Never asked for an opinion

Forgets them in the zoo
Doesn't have time to listen to them
Never asked if they want a second helping.

Loses them in the mall
But doesn't care

They come home with a purple eye one day
But nobody aks
Because they are the forgotten child

And it's always going to stay that way

Those words you say
Gives temporary happiness

But your actions
Make me hate love

Running out of time
I think we’re running out of time
You’re not real
I’m not real
You’re a fool
If you think this is real
I despise you
If you’re taking this seriously
We’re not real
Get it in your head
It doesn’t matter
Nothing does
So I’m telling you
You’re free now
Go.

Smile at a stranger
Make them think why

Make their day
Stop them from doing something terrible

One smile
It's all it takes
To change a life.

"There is a reason behind everything"
Maybe there is, maybe there isn't
Or maybe it's just what you want to believe...

I hate the feeling of missing someone
It shows how weak you are

I hate the pain in my chest
when I think of the times I'm not going to be there with you.

I hate this feeling
The feeling of missing someone.

Nights are special to me
Because they understand me

We relate,
The night and I

We are both dark
We are both loved by some and hated by some

We come and go everyday
And some miss us
But others don't

Some wait for us
But some wish we were never created

Some are afraid of us
While others seem to never stop loving us

It's these traits that keep the bond of the night and myself strong

And tonight I'm going towards him
Towards the night.
To be surrounded by his darkness forever.
To be alone with him, is all I want.

We're still living in
The prelude of our lives

Darling isn't it time,
We start our story

So one day
Even the stars

Will be telling the story of tonight

We're fragile
Just like glass

Every time we break
I'm left to pick up the pieces

Every time I share my joy
You say I'm acting like a child

When I share my troubles
You say I'm being ungrateful

I do something wrong
And you raise your voice

I do something nice
And it goes by ignored

Now I lie here
In a pool of my own blood

Will this go unnoticed too?
Will you finally see my pain?

But don't you worry amor

A place far from you
Is a place where I can finally be at peace

I want to get lost in this universe
Ride by the stars
And spread rays of light

Help in creating flowers
To braid my hair
And for him to give her

To love all creatures
And watch the waters flow
Silent and calm

I just want to get lost in this ******* beautiful universe.
That's all I want.

"Leave me alone" she said, but she didn't mean it, and he didn't know.

Flowing through every little space,
creating ripples from ones touch,
consisting of many compounds,
but all of the same type,
is water

Water above me, as I lie under,
Wanting to escape from here,
wanting to get away from all responsibilities

When water surrounds me,
I'm in a different world.
A world where days turn to nights, and nights to days.
A world where freedom runs through your blood.
A world where someone cares.

But once I reach surface,
It's all gone
And I'm back again.

I can't remember anything, my memories don’t make sense.
My mind is crowded with no space for another tenant.
Unarranged thoughts take most of the space
Random sounds, noises, images, and videos keep playing
And I have no control over them
My dreams are trying to speak to me
But I hate them
Waking up feeling anxious
While the sun shines too bright in my room
The late summer heat starting to fill the space
Everything seems too bright
Like I'm not meant to be here right now
Maybe it's not my life, this one
But death doesn’t seem like a peaceful place either
It seems cold and dark and monstrous
But is anything more monstrous than the life we’re living in?
I can't remember

Pillows that hold tears
walls that hold memories
Books that hold death

Tickets that take you places
Water that gives life
Money that gives happiness

The truth is forgotten
Lies are aprreciated
Chivalry is dead

Our world is changing
We are changing
It is slipping out of our hands

But are we doing anything to stop it?

Love is a bunch of *******
I don't want to feel
Yet I feel
And I block it
It's not true, I tell myself.
Don't trust your feelings.
They'll ******* up.
Yet I care
And I can't stop caring.
I'll always care
But I don't want to
Everything can't be fixed by me
Yet I try
To fix it all.