On the outside is where all the lies are gathered together,that smile on my face..its all a lie..I only want to make people happy.I don't like making myself happy.
Then the surface of the lie goes down deeper..even though it seems like I am okay,or I tell you i'm okay,i'm not.It's another lie,it's another secret I will never tell anyone.
My anxieties and my depression is taking over me shutting myself out from everyone in this world.I want to ask for help but I can't because nobody will understand what I am going through.It is to hard to live in this world...This society...just...I wanna shut people out but some keep trying to reach out to me..
My depression kicks in..everyone stops worrying,but I don't care.They were probably acting nice,because they wanted to be seen as a nice person.Then,when I finally accepted them,they pushed themselves away from me.They threw me out..like a piece of trash that they didn't need anymore.This drove me to not trust anyone..Not even myself.I started to have more thoughts,less feelings..I started to look..dead..
I didn't want to be in this world anymore.But I knew I had to,even though no one would miss me.So I started to hurt myself..I got caught..I was put into therapy..but it didn't help..soon..when I was alone...I wrote a note only saying..."Goodbye..". That's the only thing I said."Goodbye"That is all that Needed to be said.So I left that world,and went to the after life.I felt ,happy again,a weight that has been lifted off of my shoulders.But that is all I will say for now..Good bye
Sincerely,
Anonymous