Stop smiling at me
Stop sitting next to me
Stop winking at me
Stop flirting with me
I can’t focus
My head is spinning with thoughts of you
School is hell
My work is piling up, your voice on repeat in my ears
Why can’t I ignore you?
Why can’t I **** the butterflies that flit in my stomach when you glance in my direction?
No matter how desperately I swat at them
They only grow larger
Choking out my voice
Strangling any breath I have left when I see you
I ****** my butterfly net to destroy these feelings
But theres a hole in it
And the abominable creatures just fly right through
Spreading emotion through my being
The world seems almost… brighter?
How can some dumb guy bring me so much joy?
I look like a fool
Giggling
Playing with my hair?!
that never used to happen before…
If this if what they call a “crush” I want no part of it
But I guess I don’t really have a choice, do I?

gray

shape shifting
blending in
conforming to hide with my surroundings
standing right in front of you
and yet completely out of sight
walking down the street
100% invisible
just how i like it

yellow

running
jumping
dancing to my own heart song
meeting new friends
going on adventures
skipping down the sidewalk
greeting flora and fauna
singing with the whistling wind
not noticing, not caring
wether people stare
i know no shame

play me like a fool
try not to catch feelings
charm me with the flash of a smile
the subtleness of a wink
and tell me not to fall
because you sure won't
say you can't commit
and treat me like i'm needed
like you aren't talking to other girls
when we both know its a lie
making me want to die
i can't stand you
so all i do is fall
but apparently my body is just a mall
you peruse and look around
admiring things you'll never own
playing with my heart like it's just a toy
walking up and down the aisles of my being
stealing me without sacrificing yourself
for a temporary pleasure
until you get bored and throw my heart away
onto a dusty broken shelf where trash goes
i reach out for help but
you're already gone
but you never intended on staying for long
just wanted something to mess with when you became bored
and you decided that my heart was the perfect toy

leave
i don't want you anymore
actually, thats a lie
i need you more than anything
you are constantly in my head
but you're screaming
why?
why are you yelling at me?
what did i do?
all i've done is be there for you
let you use me at your disposal
maybe thats why you're pounding on my brain
because i'm beginning to realize that
you're toxic
like ******
so addicting
its always "just one more hit"
but i'm quitting you
and the withdrawals are slowly killing me
i keep wanting to wander back to you
but i can't
i won't let myself
because you're only using me for your own pleasure
you **** me dry
take all i have to offer and leave me empty
cold and depressed on the hard floor
convincing myself that i've done something wrong
but you're the villain in this story, not me
so i'm pulling the **** needle out of my arm
cleansing you from my veins
laughing through the pain
feeling every drop of you leave me in a slow drain
because i'm done with you
so go away

get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.  get out of my head.
GET
OUT
OF
MY
HEAD.