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365 · Jul 2019
It took a long time
Mary Gay Kearns Jul 2019
It took a long time
Does one forget how
To put into perspective
This life of ours.

A few words locked in me
‘Grandma Mary, just want to
Say thank you for all the
Things that you gave
But no more at the weekend
Love Evelyn.


Love Grandma Mary xxxxx
359 · Apr 2018
I've always been crazy.
Mary Gay Kearns Apr 2018
And the trouble I'm in
But oh the beauty it brought me
In between
And I dance in my dresses as loud as could be
And bounce off garden walls
Happy in the breeze.
Collect pretty buttons and put them in a tin.
I've always been crazy
Did I ever win?

Swayed in the arms of another
Stamping the floor of my dreams
Carried the flowers
Picked by a stream
Pink, blue and white
From the groves of delight.
But I've always been crazy
And that's how it ends.

Love Mary x
Inspired by The Highwaymen, Jonny Cash , willie Nelson,
Weyton Jennings and Kris Kristofferson , not forgetting June Cash.
Love Mary **
356 · Jun 2019
The chatterboxes
Mary Gay Kearns Jun 2019
Why have your teeth fallen out
And your hair turned grey?,
Said the child with golden locks
And an inquisitive tongue
Which swept around words
And tasted thoughts
Like a juicy vitamin pill.

Her Grandma who was old
But had a mind which curled
Like the scraps of a ponytail
Explained that this is how age is
Changing one like a chameleon
To a different state
They smiled together.


Love Grandma Mary x
355 · Apr 2018
Acts of George Seurat
Mary Gay Kearns Apr 2018
By the river just outside Paris George Seurat
Painted his tree trunks using black conte crayon
In a cream sketchboook
The year was 1893.
Critics say of this work,
All most black,
That it is hovering between
Regularity and irregularity
Reversing the lights and shades
I think he was just trying to get it right.

Love Mary x
Hovering between Regularity and irregularity. Pointillism

Reflections in the water 1893- 1894 . Paris. Black Conte drawing
352 · Feb 2019
Matching
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2019
Falling sun’s rays
Roof tops crisp
Triangles with chimney pots
Plum cherry blossom white
To match my daughter’s rose.

Love Mummy **
352 · Mar 2018
Handfuls
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2018
Find a Daisy and pick it up
From garden fronts
The gathering begins
A few leaves on a stem, fluttering,
Snap!
And in a pocket lays
Side by side
To a thread of black eyed germanium
And thé peppery seeds of aquilegias
Falling into seam corners,
Creeping up pathways
Hollyhock rings put in
And then take a chance
With stem of pink pearly,
Ceanothus.
Collection complete for Monday
Trot home to find compost
Then *** up in the sun.
My little treasures from
The free world .

Love Mary **
349 · Jan 2019
Stain upon the silence.
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2019
‘Stain upon the silence’, Samual Beckett said.
Have we all done this?
Thomas Hardy’s  poem
‘The Darkling thrush’.

Have I left my stain
Can you hear my call
‘In my poem ‘Even the Birds’?

Did I make it through
All those words and rhymes
To find something worth the saying?

Love Mary **’
349 · Jan 2019
Dream time.
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2019
Floaty in your flowery dress
Its layered skirts spill out
And climb you do
The wooden slide
Under the ancient tree.

Your feet do add a child’s dance
Strapped sandals in the sun
And all the while your sister plays
Beating her own trunk song
A dream time for the young.

Love Grandma Mary  x
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2018
Tell me a story Daddy one about
When you were in the war.
That time your boat got bombed
And you nearly went down with it all.
Of how you lay on the ship deck
Motionless, frightened and still
Fearing your body was covered
In blood, but only a sea water spill.
Of how pleased you were to be safe
Just splashed by the salty spray
From that enemy torpedo that suddenly
came spinning your way.
And then how you were rescued
After hours floating in the sea
You all waved to a passing troopship who stopped and carried you free.

Daddy tell me about your days in the army
When you climbed the pyramids high
You mates that drowned in the water
Those for whom you had said goodbye.
The Little girl, in Egypt,
sitting on your knee,
Her clothes ragged and tatty,
Her hair a mass of black beads.
Sunshine in the tropics, a bunch of photographs,
They help me tell your story
For that I am very glad.

Daddy tell me a story one about when you were in the war.
We haven't had any wars lately
Not in this country I can recall.

Love Mary ***

In remembrance of my dear Daddy whom I loved so much.
All sitting round the red Formica kitchen table eating Sunday lunch and hearing about your army days. ***
347 · Oct 2018
Golden Flower.
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
Little crown of gold resting on green
Each floret a circular gem, a princess
A friend, healer sustainer, nature into
Flower laid in the grasses as I walk by.

Love Mary ***
345 · May 2019
Forever in blue jeans.
Mary Gay Kearns May 2019
Sailor sail on by today
And cowboy hold me
I will love all that is you
And the tree will stay in
The night sky.

Love Mary ***
344 · Jul 2018
The Children.
Mary Gay Kearns Jul 2018
The children stood the sea beside
In toes the seaweed hair
A row of beauty just begun
To float a sparkle in the air.

Love Mummy **
343 · Jan 2018
The Bay
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2018
If you were to walk,
To where the bay curves,
There is a cove with fishes,
And slippery clay,
Grey and squelched,
Between toes;
Here is where we played,
Under the seagulls call,
Between  the fishing boats;
Watching "Red Funnel"
Make straight lines
For France.

In my rocking horse sundress,
Red plastic sandals,
I collected shells and
Coloured pebbles,
Splashed in the warmed
Sea water and thought of
Robinson Crusoe.
My brother climbed
The cliff face above,
I watched him, still young,
My heart beating time.

And so we suddenly left,
Grew away from childhood,
From each other,
Drifted as the seaweed,
In and out with the tide.
Floated looking at the sky,
Calling out sometimes
To the echo of the bay,
For all those days of sunshine,
Of innocence and oneness,
Never to return as we were then,
Children on a beach at play.

Love to my brother ,Richard from Mary **
This is a copyright poem in an anthology called
the paddling  pool and other poems  by Mary Kearns
342 · Jan 2018
Sweetpea
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2018
SWEETPEA,

What are you doing my lovely ,
In your dress so full.
Unpacking the shopping,
Knocking and tapping.
Until the cupboards are full.

You've found how to point your toes,
No one taught you how I know,
For in that heart,
A mirror dance ,
Showed you where to go .

Up in the sky you like to fly,
Down on the slide you flow,
Then on the beach,
The snails you reach ,
And put them in your toes.

Sweetpea you are funny,
Your face open and sunny ,
People will laugh ,
At your cheeky glance,
And talk about it all the way home.
341 · Feb 2018
Indifference
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2018
Millions of stars
Budding into life
Filling the universe
With coloured light
From the exploding
New planets born
But nothing to guide
No morals formed,
Just indifference
Circles the globe
What is the purpose
No one knows.

Love Mary **
341 · Jun 2019
Ducks and swans.
Mary Gay Kearns Jun 2019
Brave little ducks
Swimming in the water
Brave little ducks
Doing what they oughta.

Along came a swan
A black necked swan
And the little duck
Went quack quack.

Love Grandma xxo
339 · Jun 2018
Scratch
Mary Gay Kearns Jun 2018
With bruise I uplift all my sorrow
On scratch and pain now leaching out
And hurt so long no longer feel
Where tenderness caresses bone.

Love Mary x
338 · May 2019
Cake.
Mary Gay Kearns May 2019
By the time I got to see him
He was an old man grey hair
Thinly combed across his head
Still loquacious, bending over
Stewed apples gathered from
A wind swept garden of falls.

A proud collector of knowledge
Across boundaries and wisdom
Stretching age ‘youthfully ‘at gate,
City centre and poetry recitals  
With copies of books for selling.

Love Maryxxx
Mary Gay Kearns Apr 2018
My father had a propensity for a peculiar type of sparseness.
Enhanced with items of furniture collected from many sources.
Not a mean man but coming from a very poor family off Labrook Grove in London his few possessions were meaningful.

In the 1970s my parents moved to Totland to take up residence in a new bungalow on The Isle Of Wight, situated overlooking rambling countryside and narrow, windy lanes.
There was a wide but shortish back garden needing to be established. The front garden a sloped bank to meet the pavement.
Mother brought with her, from Streatham her London home, favourite hardy shrubs easily transplanted.

My father retired early finding the strain of being a hospital administrator at St Georges Hospital, Hyde Park Corner, too taxing.
Recruitment was problematic and mainly filled with applicants from overseas.(Not much has changed in fifty years.)My mother wanted to spend time with Frank, her father, sharing his latter years at Totland where he and his wife, Gwen, lived overlooking the Solent on a considerable plot of land.
This included the new bungalow built about 1952-3 and designed by John Westbrook, Frank's son, and acres of beautifully planned flower gardens, a vegetable patch and large wooded area where the trees held tiny toys, to the magic of Tolkein. As children this place was as close as one could get to paradise.

Usually we entered by the back lane entrance rather than from The Alum Bay Road. The plot stretching between the two.
The rows of backgarden fences looked much the same
Crumbling and split wooden planks, large tree roots
Dividing up the length and making mysterious openings
Where rather dilapidated gates, latched firmly
So animals could not stray,
Allowed for the start of magic.
Out of all these fences one belonged to my grandparents and
Through which our travels to Narnia began.

So over twenty, mainly, glorious years on The Island, enjoying its many beautiful walks, the beaches and a few precious friends and neighbours. It had been my mother's dream to inherit her father's bungalow and spend her final years watching the boats float on the Solent and breathe sea air sitting on a swinging seat surrounded by primroses. Unfortunately this dream did not materialise due to my mother's poor health. But she was grateful for the years Bill and herself  had together on that green and pleasant land.

My maternal grandparents were, quietly distinguished, letter writers
Who embroidered their days with poetic licence. They had few visitors, apart from the local vicar, the vet and gardener. Gwen being a rather possessive and eccentric lady and having no children of her own, treated the dog as one would a child and life centred around dog walks, feeding and playtime. Frank was also frail and being older than Gwen needed much care and attention.They both liked to read and write letters which they did after lunch with an added snooze. Every day flowed with regularity and neat routines interspersed with many hours tending the garden, picking raspberries from heavily laden canes and gathering long, plump runner beans.
Throughout the Summer months high tea was set in the garden on a rickety table, and consisting of thick slices of current bread coated in salt free butter, a variety of homemade cakes, sandwiches, and ice cream and jelly with a *** of tea or lemonade.
I am reminded of 'The Bloomsbury Set' and Vita Sackville -West, a tranquil but harassed life with too much need for perfection.


Geographically some distance from our London home visits, both ways, were infrequent and by the time I was about nine Frank was too old to travel to Streatham. However their presence formed a significant part of our lives and is still with me today.
Unfortunately letter writing was for my brother and I a chore not undertaken with glee,
Especially as the gift was often a box of embroidered hankies sat in someone's drawer for an age.

The family structure, having married in their fifties, consisted of Frank and Gwen, Mother and always a wire haired terrier, often renewed as age took this species young. Mother was in her nineties and having brought up Gwen and Kath singularly now lived with her daughter in the bungalow at Totland on the Alum Bay Road.

Frank had been part of the Boy's Brigade movement from his teens, taking his love of camping into his marriage to Alexandra Emily Giles, the mother of his two daughters, Grace Emily and Betty Rose. His wife sadly died in childboth leaving the girls orphaned at five and seven.
Frank then moved from Reading to Tooting in south London and married Vera, a girl of twenty one, to whom he had a son, John.
Vera was flirtatious with the boys in the brigade and left Frank and her son, John, at the age of nine, to the care and protection of my mother Grace who was then eighteen. Grace loved them both but it restricted her life and she feared she would never marry. However she found my father, a wonderfully loving and wholesome person who made her very happy in most ways.

Throughout my mother's and John's childhood time was spent camping on the Isle of Wight and so strong associations were made with Totland where the brigade camped in a field in Court Road.

The two bungalows were approximately two to three miles apart.
My mother visited Gwen and her father twice a week spending
A couple of hours sitting in the open planned hallway, glass doored, which faced onto the Alan Bay Road. If warm it would be brunch in the garden at the back. These visits were my mother's anchorage with her life as she missed me very much and her grandchildren in Watford.

Innisfail (meaning- The Ireland of Belonging) was the name of my grandparents' bungalow. ( please see below for more lengthy meaning and interpretation, kindly, written  by John Garbutt).

My parents' bungalow was named  'Crowhurst'  and carved on a wooden plaque as a present by John Garbutt my auntie Betty's partner. The origin of the name came from a retreat that my father, Bill, attended and connected to a church in Streatham where I lived as a child.

Almost all my childhood annual holidays were taken on the Island so we could visit our grandparents and my mother spend time with her father. After my parents moved and I married and had children the pattern was repeated. And till this day it is a favourite with all my children and grandchildren. A special place fixed in time and beauty.

The bungalows are both sold now as their residents have all died.
Clearing out the garage of my parents' bungalow my brother found many of my father's precious possessions although the house was quite sparse still having the wooden floorboards laid when first built twenty years before.

May they all rest in peace .Love Mary ***

My Family and our long and happy connections with The Isle Of Wight. By Mary Kearns April 2018.
John Garbutt wrote the following piece on the meaning of the name 'Innisfail'.

My belief that the place-name came from Scotland was abandoned
on finding the gaelic origins of the name.
‘Inis’ or ‘Innis' mean ‘island’, while ‘fail’ is the word for
Ireland itself. ‘Innisfail’ means Ireland. But not just
geographically: the Ireland of tradition, customs, legends
and folk music, the Ireland of belonging.
So the explanation why the Irish ‘Innisfail’ was adopted as the name
of a town in Alberta, Canada, and a town in Australia,
can only be that migrants took the name, well  over a century ago
to their new homelands, though present-day Canadians
and Australians won’t have that same feeling about it.

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The bungalow was designed by John Westbrook, who was an architect, as a wedding present for his father and Gwen Westbrook.
I do believe he also designed the very large and beautiful gardens.
I no longer know whether the bungalow is still standing or what it may be called .Mary x
335 · Jan 2019
Kingly.
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2019
A cheeky robin sat upon brambles
Its red breast puffed and bright
Had fed on scraps from birdtables
A little king at rest.

Love Mary ***
332 · Sep 2020
Sometimes
Mary Gay Kearns Sep 2020
Sometimes the day begins at the end
Where discoveries, surprises open in
Imagination has spent the hours grip
The way things were slipped silently.


Love Mary **
330 · Dec 2019
Sweetly.
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2019
I have listened to all the sad poems
Played the list of songs that weep
In reflection my heart regrets
All the things that went wrong.

Take me from the howling wind
Release the archer’s bow
Let me float to the heavens
And sing me a lullaby song.

Love Mary **
329 · Mar 2019
Peeping.
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2019
The grass yellow topped wet Winter
Separates forming trodden pathway
Between overhanging bare branches
A child might squeeze cautious now
The damp hangs like crystal pearls
Through we peep.

Love Mary ***
329 · Jan 2018
Scraping before the rain
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2018
Scraping before the rain.

Arriving on time ,
Before the rain had begun to fall,
Took the wire brush from his bag,
One to replace his father's,
Which now remained a garage relic
It's few bristles showing years of use.
Brought back memories,
That sound of scraping,
As he cleared the years debris.
So much learnt from that man,
Respected and loved by a son.
Now doing the same for others,
Scraping before the rain.

By Mary

Xxxx
Inspiration ,Ian My Gardener and fellow artist .Mary
328 · Feb 2018
The Crossroads
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2018
We live near the corner
Where two roads cross
Trees to the right
Give beauty and light
Ever changing colour
The Sycamore and the Pine
A Hawthorn  blossom, cerise
In Spring time;
Today this place
Is spread with snow
Patterned tracks
Where the cars go
Over garden walls
Ice drips stripes
Of frozen crystals
In the grey light;
This corner where we live
Is always a delight
A very spectacular sight.


Love Mary
328 · Feb 2018
The tip- toeing
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2018
Whenever my mother went out
There was a place I knew about
Not far away up the stairs
Behind white painted bars
Along a dark and narrow hall
Came to a locked bedroom door.
Took the silver chiselled key
Turned it gently as could be
Lest I be heard
Intrepid invader of secret world’s.



Love Mary x
328 · Mar 2018
Shingled things
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2018
Then she realised, as we all do,
That to be free she had to give it up
Give away the beauty that clung to her
The perfumed roses filled with bees
From the splashing pools of water lilies
And move to somewhere more hidden
Where what mattered was not life itself
But giving it away
Slowly and gently
Letting the seabirds
Carry her clothes far out
Over the gold
Where all that playing had gone on
And shells gathered
Open oneself and throw
These shingled things to the sky
And not worry anymore
Just let it go.


Love Mary **
328 · Jan 2019
Patterns
Mary Gay Kearns Jan 2019
We are but patterns
Made at a certain point
Our love and desires
Are patterns too
No different than
The leaves on a rose stem
Or spirals on a shell
When a pattern is disrupted
The organism dies.
But what is created by love
And empathy remains
Like poetry, music, painting
And literature to be experienced
As patterns
Love remains in the memory
Of those we loved
It is simple really.

Love Mary xxxx
Mary Gay Kearns Jun 2018
integrity
ɪnˈtɛɡrɪti/Submit
noun
1.
the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles.
"a gentleman of complete integrity"
synonyms: honesty, uprightness, probity, rectitude, honour, honourableness, upstandingness, good character, principle(s), ethics, morals, righteousness, morality, nobility, high-mindedness, right-mindedness, noble-mindedness, virtue, decency, fairness, scrupulousness, sincerity, truthfulness, trustworthiness
"I never doubted his integrity"
2.
the state of being whole and undivided.
"upholding territorial integrity and national sovereignty"
synonyms: unity, unification, wholeness, coherence, cohesion, undividedness, togetherness, solidarity, coalition
"internal racial unrest threatened the integrity of the federation"


honesty
ˈɒnɪsti/Submit
noun
1.
the quality of being honest.
"they spoke with convincing honesty about their fears"
synonyms: moral correctness, uprightness, honourableness, honour, integrity, morals, morality, ethics, principle, (high) principles, nobility, righteousness, rectitude, right-mindedness, upstandingness; More
2.
a European plant with purple or white flowers and round, flat, translucent seed pods which are used for indoor flower arrangements.


Thank you English Dictionary
Love Mary
322 · Jul 2018
Icicles
Mary Gay Kearns Jul 2018
Picking icicles from window
Sharp and cold under cut nail
And wetness into cuff of dress
With water in stains on wall.

Each breath a melt and flow
Drips as metamorphosis go
The sky a heavenly promise
Of snowflight by nightfall.

Love Mary x
322 · Oct 2018
Mother’s Kiss.
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
Hands, rough, gather up two handfuls
Tugging the brown-gold silk into piles
Feeling the chafing on back of my neck
Its tender movement is loved as comb.

A sharp scratch from crown to the nape
Tortoiseshell plastic slightly dusty grey
Divided, plaited, and tied with bands to
Black nylon ribbons, you kiss forehead.

Love Mary ***
My mother’s poor hands got so sore from the new biological washing powder in the sixties.They were all cracked and bleeding .Love you Mum , Mary ***
321 · Nov 2018
Silverdale.
Mary Gay Kearns Nov 2018
A silver dale stagelit on silhouetted horizon
Treasured musing in grassy hedgerows at dask
A walk under spells of secret cat calls
And hark the birds take night in flight.

You pretty of shade and hour have hope
Thank goodness you now fair long to become
The flower of days when Summer you danced
And woods rang gaily to the tuneful hum.

Love Mary ***
320 · Nov 2019
Dark materials.
Mary Gay Kearns Nov 2019
It hadn’t been good that year
With emptying drawers
And foraging around the Azer
Finding seed pods fallen in the
Yellow grief stricken grass lawn.


People visited in their silks
Stretching hands to comfort
What could not be tolerated
Infiltrating the harsh reality
Suffering with bespoke smiles.

Love Mary
Mary Gay Kearns Dec 2018
Oh I love your dancing
Tapping out the beats
Joe Sugg with Dianne
Red hair to the roots.

Quirk of the Charleston
Bad boy of the Street
Thatcher of countryside
Took Strickly by sweep.


Love Mary 2018
318 · Mar 2019
Finding
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2019
Finding you ‘Tumbleweed’ was such a gift
A heart exposed, a gentle kiss
Laughter and smiles in the morn
The fun of joy each day reborn.

Build me your world in a picture
Of animals with big soft eyes
Remember how I loved you
Talking as you ate your breakfast.

Love Grandma xxxx
316 · Jun 2018
Cherry blossom in the rain.
Mary Gay Kearns Jun 2018
See branch oh cherry blossom ripe
Below Payne’s haunted sky of grey
In mornings rain dripped clouds on high
The pink now wetted held to bough.

Love Mary x
315 · Feb 2019
Loves Flame
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2019
The lank winter stretched for days
Along the lanes and on hedge tops
Yet buds appear on new rose stems
Promising leaves for this year now.

If I had a kindling of the loves flame
It would for the ‘Bill Viola’ exhibition,
The mother holding her dead child
Crucified through misunderstanding.

Never let lack of empathy guide you
Or fill a heart weighed down, hurting
For the huntsman finds that cruelty
And wraps it in words of forgiveness.

Love Mary ***
310 · Aug 2019
Cocktail Sticks.
Mary Gay Kearns Aug 2019
Summer has arrived I see you dancing
Outside a soho bar, gorgeous woman
Humour sharp as ice, heels longer than
Cocktail sticks.

It is five is in the morning and you
Are shopping, food to start the day
The train rattles, jangling the wrist bands.
You uncross your legs, unlatch the door.

The children are dressing, bags scatter the
Work tops. You grab two hands
To walk the two miles to school.

Love Mum
310 · Oct 2018
A favourite poem of mine .
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
Autumn by John Keats

Season of mists and mellow fruitfulness,
   Close *****-friend of the maturing sun;
Conspiring with him how to load and bless
   With fruit the vines that round the thatch-eves run;
To bend with apples the moss'd cottage-trees,
   And fill all fruit with ripeness to the core;
      To swell the gourd, and plump the hazel shells
   With a sweet kernel; to set budding more,
And still more, later flowers for the bees,
Until they think warm days will never cease,
      For summer has o'er-brimm'd their clammy cells.

Who hath not seen thee oft amid thy store?
   Sometimes whoever seeks abroad may find
Thee sitting careless on a granary floor,
   Thy hair soft-lifted by the winnowing wind;
Or on a half-reap'd furrow sound asleep,
   Drows'd with the fume of poppies, while thy hook
      Spares the next swath and all its twined flowers:
And sometimes like a gleaner thou dost keep
   Steady thy laden head across a brook;
   Or by a cyder-press, with patient look,
      Thou watchest the last oozings hours by hours.

Where are the songs of spring? Ay, Where are they?
   Think not of them, thou hast thy music too,—
While barred clouds bloom the soft-dying day,
   And touch the stubble-plains with rosy hue;
Then in a wailful choir the small gnats mourn
   Among the river sallows, borne aloft
      Or sinking as the light wind lives or dies;
And full-grown lambs loud bleat from hilly bourn;
   Hedge-crickets sing; and now with treble soft
   The red-breast whistles from a garden-croft;
      And gathering swallows twitter in the skies.
309 · Mar 2018
It could have been.
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2018
Behind almost all things
Where the trees meet the edge of the frame
It could have been not this but that
In the distance is a darker shape
Its  position decided on a collection.


Falling like snow without regularity
The canvas surface is patches of colour
Horizontals and verticals intersect
The park with its green avenues
Glides in and out of a century of stories.


Its conclusion resting
On a final brush stroke.

Love Mary xxxxx
Love to you all Mary ***
A painting of trees in Cassiobury park
307 · Oct 2018
Millions of light years
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
Citrus green of early morning sun
Interrupted by a woman’s shadow
As she looks where land meets sky
In the freshness of another Autumn.

Over the fields, past the evergreens
A silhouette of stillness newly open
Surprised in the glancing light here
A stopping place to hold ones breath.

Love Mary ***
306 · Mar 2018
Fairy highlights
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2018
A girl went to a party dressed as a fairy.
At sixteen what was she thinking?
Her wings made from nylon stockings
With cut off bottoms and sequin pins
Sewn on in a succession of rings.

All glittery bold in green tights
And hair curled with peroxide highlights,
She really must have looked a treat;
As the powder pink began to sink
And black mascara dribbled ink.

The fairy dissolved in tears and ice,
Ran screaming from the party house
Down the street in a tatty torn gown,
Until she was found and brought around.
This fairy needed to learn to fly.

Love Mary x
303 · May 2018
Dreamed.
Mary Gay Kearns May 2018
Mum dreamed she was an intellectual
Well read and well versed
Mum dreamed she was a lady
Her behaviour never adversed
Mum dreamed she was beautiful
The prettier of the two.

She dreamed she married her sweet heart
But that could never come true
She dreamed things always got better
But they did not as the years passed
She dreamed there was an afterlife
But at the end that did not last.

Mum wanted children to be by her side
Those she did get, Richard and I
Mum wanted to be loved
More than anything
She found it in a gentle man
That he did bring.

Mum thought of her rose - garden
The one up the hill
The one she built from optimism
I know she sits there still.

Love Mary. **
299 · Apr 2018
The Apple and the Pear
Mary Gay Kearns Apr 2018
I will speak with you dear friend
Though my heart aches
And all our beauty offends
This state of disintegration.

For my love carries to the end
Its bruised fruit
Resting down upon a table
Where we shared.

And every brush stroke
Stole my eye a surprise
And I never cried for sorrow
On that wooden chair.

I will speak with you dear friend
For if this be our last time
Let the apple and the pear
Bear the departing hour.

Love Mary
Painting pictures for Ian , love Mary x
299 · Feb 2019
Spring.
Mary Gay Kearns Feb 2019
When the water melted on the pond
The ducks slept in the green reeds
The moorhens, fluffy black, red beak
Kept close to their mother for warmth.

We hope for the bulbs to shoot bright
Knocking the world with lightening
The colour of sunshine in a paintbox
And all will be well for another year.

Love Mary xxxx
298 · Oct 2018
A game of cricket.
Mary Gay Kearns Oct 2018
I asked a cricket if he please
Could come and play a game
With me
The wind was soft, the sky fair
He loved to touch my golden hair.

We jumped the pond in half a bounce
Travelled the bridge in delight
Then underneath the chestnut tree
He came, we both lay down to read
And I had made a friend that day
Please don’t ever go away.

Love Mary ***
295 · Aug 2018
Not here or there.
Mary Gay Kearns Aug 2018
The candelabras light up
Down avenues of parks
Palest of yellow and pink
Against Summer’s green.

I see the old climbing logs
But which place declining
The dead wood of childhood
Or today’s magic shining

And skipping along the path
I know not here or there
Only that lighted candelabras
Were fleshy in the air.

Love Mary **
294 · May 2018
Travelling
Mary Gay Kearns May 2018
I slipped from all formal means
And cast my heart to sea
In a little sailing ship
Just the size for me

Decorated in tiny stars
And bluebells on the bow
I travelled all the merchant seas
And came back in an hour.

Love Mary ***
292 · Mar 2018
Love Mary ,Mum, Grandma xxx
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2018
I simply can't, though,
Through all the words
In this world
Convey what it is to die
To say goodbye.


Love Mary **
290 · Mar 2018
The Chair
Mary Gay Kearns Mar 2018
In the middle of nowhere Evelyn thought,
Starting somewhere where time had stopped
And yet still it did not end like the Zoo train
With its certain length and specific destinations;
She clambered over memories, digging deep
Then it came that feeling where joy inhabited
And a warmth glowed up to join together
The parts that she had missed and not known;
The chair had been vacant, but for a few toys,
Scatterings of pleasures taken when not vacant,
She loved this turning over of her small hands,
It had been grandma's chair bequeathed to
A little girl loved so much the wind ached
And the clouds sobbed at their separation.
But the chair with its shifting images
Was where love resided, safely,
And Evelyn found what she needed
Cherishing that which remained.


Love Mary x
To Evelyn love Grandma Mary xxxx
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