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86 · Jun 2020
Dirty Hands
Alphy Jun 2020
Take them of
Take them away
Take your sordid hands off me

Let me run away from your grasp
Away from your hold
Away from my haunting past

Behind those closed curtains
I saw your black wings
I saw the devil in you

I pleaded, I cried, I begged
To let go of me
But your filthy hands never left me

You made me feel unclean
And unsafe where ever I went
And finally when you took away those ***** hands off me you took away my childhood too.
For all those who had a terrible past, just know it's never ur fault.
82 · Oct 2020
Lost pieces
Alphy Oct 2020
I feel like I have lost a piece of myself
I run back the way I came to search for it
But in the end I return empty handed

I lost it

I lost the most important piece of myself
Is that why I no longer feel anything ?
Did I loose my emotions ?

I feel like I am already dead
Just waiting to be taken away
Is it because of that one piece that I lost along the way?
still searching for that one piece without knowing what it is
81 · Nov 2020
Fake it till you make it
Alphy Nov 2020
That's exactly what I did
I faked it
Faked my smile
But that's all I could ever do
I couldn't make it real
So I faked it to the point that
I no longer knew
What was real and what was fake.
this was a phase in my life . but now I have learned to differentiate what's fake and what's real.
81 · May 2020
Escaping
Alphy May 2020
Running away from you
I thought I could escape
But I was wrong
I could never make it

You pushed your way into my dreams
Turning them into nightmares
That haunt me throughout the day

Neither the light nor the darkness scared you, I wonder
Is there anything you fear
Anything that can stop you
From turning me into you?

I can't be you. Iam not you.
Iam scared
Of anything and everything
I fear their ruthless eyes
Their tounge that spits fire

Don't  force me
To be the black sheep
Who will forever be hated
Please let me live
Hidden away from you
Some days when u feel so irritated with yourself but don't know why. Today is such a day for me.
80 · Jun 2020
POETRY MY SOLACE
Alphy Jun 2020
Can i write only when my soul is hurt?
Why does words come to me only when I am tierd?
My anger, my pain, my distress,
Its easier to pen down these feelings
But my happiness never makes it out to the world
Why is it hard to find a synonym for happiness?
Someday, Please make me capable
to write down my joy
which I can look back at
years later and feel glad again.
sad poems have always been my favorite thing to write . it always came to me very easily, but happiness is always hard to capture . to all the sad poems i have ever written.....
78 · Sep 2020
CRAVING
Alphy Sep 2020
At the time when none seems to be around,
I crave for a loving hug, a soft kiss and a gentle reminder
that I am needed
that I am loved

A small pat on my head
a soothing touch on my shoulders
or an I miss you text
anything would be fine

Just keep reminding me
that I need to live
Just keep reminding me
that someone will always be there
waiting for that much needed hug
76 · Jan 2021
CANDID
Alphy Jan 2021
Never have I seen a smile as pretty as yours,
The way those eyes twinkles,
And those dimples appear,
As you pose for that not so candid but candid photo of yours.
I wrote this as a birthday gift for my cousin sister who loves posing for photos.
75 · Nov 2020
Tears
Alphy Nov 2020
I feel like crying,
but the tears no loner fall
They no longer wanna roll
down my pale chubby cheeks
Maybe they knew about the ups and downs
they need to face along the way
till they reach the end
before they fall onto the floor
I wish i could just cry it out at times . fed up of things pent up in me .
75 · Nov 2020
IMPOSSIBLE
Alphy Nov 2020
Its impossible for me to admire the sunset without having the urge to pen down its magnificence  

Its impossible for me to look at the moon without a paper and pen in hand

Its impossible for me to just stare at the nature's beauty without noting it down

Its impossible for me to calm down my anger without scribbling down words on my note

Its impossible for me to just cry out my pain without putting it into words

Its impossible for me to understand my own emotions without writing it down first

Its impossible for me to stop being a poet.
If only I could stop
but I don't think i will ever be able to
its what I like and live for
74 · Nov 2023
Untitled
Alphy Nov 2023
Running away doesn't seem like an option, I hope it was, on days that weigh me down and tear my soul apart, I hope I could run away.

Days when breathing itself is too hard, how can I even think of walking around acting as if nothing is wrong?

Escaping has always been my thing.
Feeling sick? Work
Feeling tired?  Work more
Feeling violated? Just continue working.

"Keep doing what you have always been doing or else you may break down, in a way that you won't be able to come back up" says my stupid mind and I keep believing that it's true but knowing deep within that it's not.
#Random days #random thoughts
Can't think of a title can someone suggest one please?
72 · Jul 2020
Light That Held The Key
Alphy Jul 2020
Under the lighted lamp
She sat with her little dairy
As she jotted down
All about her day
The vague and dim light
Could open the door
To her mind that even
The strong and bright light
Of her phone couldn't
sometimes its better to take a short break from the strong light and hide under the dimness
72 · Jun 2020
DARK NIGHT
Alphy Jun 2020
You are like a mistress I keep
A mistress who knows all about me
A mistress who shouldn't exsist
But why do I find it hard to keep you away?

Your darkness throws upon me
A blanket of comfort
Covering me up
From a fake world

The night where truth
Swims up to the surface
Real faces tear apart the fake masks
That covers them up

Like a drunk man
I open up my locked chamber
Of secrets and insecurities cause
With you near me I no more fear

With you iam not fake
I stop pretending to be fine
I don't stop my tears
From rolling down my cheeks

I let my pillows be soaked
With my tears
With the weight that I had to carry
Over my already slumped shoulders

Lying in your lap,  I dream
Of another world
Where the morning would be my strength
And the light would be my comfort
To everyone who seek refuge in the darkness of the night this is for you. There were days when I fell asleep crying. So this poem is a remembrance of those days.
71 · Oct 2020
DEVIKA
Alphy Oct 2020
Drowning in happiness
Enjoying each second of your company
Visualizing being together forever
I just wanna tell you
Kinda wanna hug too
Always I will be there for you
devika is my best friends name
first time trying acrostic poem
68 · Jun 2020
TOXIC LOVE
Alphy Jun 2020
Its disgusting to demand
Its toxic to command
In love I surrender
Torture being my reminder
To run down the mountain
Escaping from the fountain
Of dangerous selfless love
In which I was locked up like a dove
Anxiously waiting to fly
Not wanting to cry
No more a slave
I rise up like a wave
Into the endless sky
Of self love before I die
FROM SELFLESS LOVE TO SELF LOVE THE JOURNEY MIGHT BE HARD AND LONG BUT REMEMBER THE END WILL ALWAYS BE GOOD.
#TOXIC RELATIONS #ESCAPE
68 · Jun 2020
FINAL CRY FOR HELP
Alphy Jun 2020
I am tired, No beyond that
I am exhausted, Not a tinge
of energy left in me
Not a pinch of life left in me

I can no longer walk, Yet
I try to run the race
they all finish even before I start
I am already out, I already lost

Before I run out of breath, Pick me up
Lend me that hand of yours,
Hold onto me and pull me out
Teach me to crawl first

Hold me while I walk
And finally put me back
on that track again to start
at my own pace.
#RIP SUSHANTSINGHRAJPUT
I wish someone would have pulled you out and heard your cry before you left us .
66 · Aug 2020
For You
Alphy Aug 2020
Thank you for keeping me sane when the world around me was going insane.
#foryou
66 · Oct 2020
I am Sorry
Alphy Oct 2020
I am sorry they blame you
just cause I love you

I am sorry they criticize you
just to get a reaction from me

I am sorry they render you worthless
just to irritate me

I am sorry for not defending you
when they kept on downgrading you

I am sorry I couldn't tell them
that you are the only reason for my happiness

I am sorry I couldn't tell them
how much you mean to me

I am sorry I couldn't tell them
that you taught me to love myself

Above all I am sorry for not telling them
that you are the only reason I am alive today
I am sorry
i wish i could speak up for you
even if i did they would only blame you more and i can't bare that
66 · Jun 2020
ITS OKAY
Alphy Jun 2020
She said its okay to let go
if I couldn't hold it in
any longer,Then its okay
to let go and I trusted her

Just when I thought
I have figured out everything
things changed,
And I am back to step one

But she said its fine
to not know the next
Its okay to let go
if I couldn't bear it anymore and I trusted her

When I stressed over things
that was totally stupid
When I cried over things
that was totally unwanted

She calmed me down
And told me its okay
to let go if I couldn't do it anymore
and I trusted her
to my best friend who has stood by me through thick and thin this is for you.
66 · Jul 2020
Mine And Mine Only
Alphy Jul 2020
He carried away her body,
Knowing that she isn't going to return
I wonder where he took her to

Those red eyes of his looked tired
Alone he carried her in his arms
like he always did but this time
she was no longer smiling at him

Her pale face refused to display
emotions and her big deary eyes
looked helplessly lifeless

All that was left was the memories
that they once shared and
her lifeless body that he carried

But he never regretted taking her life
She no longer wanted him
but he couldn't let her go

If not his then she shouldn't be anyone's
Hugging her dead body close to his chest
he repeated, mine and mine only
But as time passed all that he could recall
About them were her screams and tears
Begging him to let her go
He heard her plead in his dreams
All through the night she kept him awake
She was once his most beautiful dream
But now she was his nightmare
64 · Aug 2020
Road to Death
Alphy Aug 2020
Road to death was dark
The road starved for light
No stars ever shined upon it
Moon hid behind the clouds
I waited for years
For a sign of life on this road
And finally I heard
Light footsteps along the path
That none dared to cross
i don't know why but i could never complete this poem . if anyone can find a better ending or a good continuation then please go ahead and complete it.
62 · Aug 2020
HELPLESSNESS
Alphy Aug 2020
Lost in my dreams
I walked the path
of thorns, bleeding
But my blood wasn't red
Each step I took,
I flinched in pain
Shoulders slumped,
I still walked
To reach the dead end
Where I saw myself
Lying on the thorns
lifeless and motionless
waiting to be discovered  
Oh yes, I did look pathetic
But more than that
I looked helpless
i think its me who felt helpless
that lead to me writing this
62 · Dec 2020
A single tear drop
Alphy Dec 2020
Did you know,
when a single drop of tear flows down
through your right eye
down on to your cheeks
its said to be the most painful cry for help

I just hope its not true
I don't want my precious tears
to get wasted for him
he isn't worth it
no one is
I am not sure if its true i read this somewhere online
62 · Jun 2020
Thankyou
Alphy Jun 2020
Thank you my pain
Thank you my agony
Thank you my sufferings
For giving birth
To the poet in me
#short poem
#random thoughts
61 · Aug 2020
Desire to be taken away
Alphy Aug 2020
I saw things
no on else could see,
I heard sounds
no one else could hear.

Looking into that mirror
I asked "who are you?"
She smiled back at me
and replied,

"I am who you wish to be
I am who you dream to be
Wanna cross over this bridge
and see what's hidden behind?"

"You desired to be taken away
You wished to be pulled into
a world far away from your realities
and now I am here to take you away"

She held her hand out for me
But I dare not touch
Cause I knew behind that smile
hid an endless river of tears.
desire
destiny
unseenworld
61 · Nov 2020
Charcoal green
Alphy Nov 2020
I never knew charcoal green existed
Until my eyes met yours
Maybe I will complete this later
60 · Oct 2020
Untitled
Alphy Oct 2020
Its too loud outside
yet why do I still hear the ticking of a clock?
Why are the sounds in my head so loud?
Even though i can hear them clear,
I still don't understand anything they say
incomplete . i have no idea how to finish this up
60 · Oct 2020
Betrayal (1)
Alphy Oct 2020
Everyone gets to see a different version of me
I can be silent, shy, soft and sweet
I can be angry, mad, crazy and stupid
I can be talkative, loud, funny and smart

But you were the only one who was allowed to see
the raw me, the vulnerable me, the actual me, the ****** up me
But in the end you were the only one
who betrayed me .
planning to do second part for this . sorry for the curse word used.
60 · Sep 2020
PRAYER
Alphy Sep 2020
I wish I could be more grateful,
than complain, for all the times
those prayers of mine
found itself to the right ears
I wonder who heard my prayers
I regret saying
my prayers fall on deaf ears
but every single time
when i dont get what i want
i still complain like i always do.
60 · Jul 2020
I believed I moved on
Alphy Jul 2020
Forgotten memories resurfaced
But I had already moved on
Why would you come back now?
When all the fire has died down
And all the heat has evaporated
Why now?
Your face taunts me in my dreams
Why come back now
When I finally stopped grieving for you
I was trying to stand up on my own
But you have pushed me down
Back on my knees
Why come back now
When everything is over
i don't really know what made me write this but I am not searching for answers just want to vent down all that had accumulated in me
59 · Aug 2020
US
Alphy Aug 2020
US
I was collapsing,
The wall I build around me
started to break down

But before I fell,
your hands always held me up,
your smile kept me safe

Your words made me calm
In you I found strength
to live my hardest days

When stress ate me up,
you covered me
with a blanket of warmth

Distance can never keep us apart
Even if I could change the past,
I would still choose to be with you

Trust me, I wouldn't want to change a thing
Lets just stay this way,
even when our hairs start to grey
#foryou
57 · Oct 2020
Betrayal (2)
Alphy Oct 2020
You pushed open the doors  
that I had closed a long time ago
Why did you do that?

You said you would never
let my eyes fill up with tears,
But every single day I cried
and you were the reason for those tears

What explanation have you got?
What excuses have you prepared?
In front of you I was a thin sheet of glass
fully transparent, fully open

You broke that glass,
shattered it into pieces,
with a ****** **** stone
You cut my edges sharp,

Then dared to complain
that I hurt you
As I picked up those broken pieces,
I knew I would never be the same,
we would never be the same
It was all over, once and for all.
That's the second part . hope it makes sense . again sorry for the curse word used.
57 · Dec 2020
Lost Smiles
Alphy Dec 2020
Looking at those old pictures today,
I realized I grew up way too fast
My smile no longer looks that genuine
My eyes no longer twinkles
My face no longer glitters
Its all dull and dry now
like a desert waiting for a rain
looking at old pic made me nostalgic i guess
56 · Dec 2020
Its Sad
Alphy Dec 2020
Its sad to know
I am the biggest reason
for my downfall

I should have tried,
I should have worked,
I should have known,

that magic won't happen
That in the end its all on me
Everyone did well

But that shouldn't matter to me
All that I should care about is
my loss which was caused by me

But the ultimate question being
what's next ,will I try harder ?
will I improve?

Honestly I don't know
but I hope I do
I just hope
Exam result came
I just hope
I do better next time
55 · Jun 2020
The puzzle that I am
Alphy Jun 2020
Lost and broken I am
Shattered like a glass
into a huge mass
Alone i gather
without others rather
the little pieces
of the tricky puzzle
that I am
wrote this long back probably 3 to 4 years back when i was trying to collect  myself together which then seemed impossible .
55 · Sep 2020
Untitled
Alphy Sep 2020
i miss you my poetic soul
Alphy Oct 2020
What does it feel like to be in love?

Is it like the water that cools your head
or is it like the water that drowns you in it?

Is it like the fire that keeps you warm
or is it like the fire that burns you down?

Is it like the joy that can make you smile
or is it like the joy that brings tears to your eyes?

What does it feel like to be in love?

Should it be the feeling of freedom
or should it be the feeling of suffocation ?

Should I feel scared and paranoid
or should I feel safe and secure ?

And what if I am feeling all this together,
Is it still okay?
Is it still considered love ?
for a person who has never been in love its like an imaginary concept that I have read about in books and seen endless times in movies and dramas and every single time the love they talked about looked like it had two faces the beautiful one that we all see and the ugly side that's hidden behind that beauty.
53 · Jul 2020
Red Rose With Thorns
Alphy Jul 2020
Those thorns
They poke right into my bleeding heart
The red rose that once showed our love
Now shows our pain
Again and again they pierce my heart
Shattering it into a mess
But it was already a mess
Since the time you left me
My brain no longer functions as it should
It told me not to depend on that heart
It told me heart can get hurt easily
But I didn't listen and now I know
i have no clue what my mood is today just trying to write away all my sadness.
52 · Aug 2020
Undeserved Break
Alphy Aug 2020
I badly need a break
but I feel I don't deserve it
I haven't done anything
to feel this tired
physically and mentally
Maybe its all in my head
May be I am over reacting
But i crave for a break
which I think I don't deserve.
i wonder is it okay to stop even though you haven't started ?
45 · Jun 2020
THOSE EYES
Alphy Jun 2020
In those sparkly eyes
I saw glittery stars rise

Those eyes that held wonder
Smiled louder than thunder

It caught my eye
It caught my heart

Harder my heart thumped
Looking at those eyes

I saw the world in those eyes
And now you are my world
#short poem #random thoughts #jungkooks eyes
42 · Jun 2020
Rays Of Hope
Alphy Jun 2020
The stars that twinkle
from up above
those black ****** clouds
told me I have nothing to fear

My hope comes from
the little rays of light
that they shower upon me
they reassure me

They told me to love the night
to love the darkness it provides
so that even if the light disappears one day
the hope would sustain

The darkness that hides
all the evils of this world
you can never take away
the ray of hope that bloomed in me
the hope that keeps me alive
the hope that tells  me to live on
#stars #hope #rays of light #night
let the stars help you find solace in the darkness of the night
42 · Jul 2020
My Child
Alphy Jul 2020
I will never want you to go through what i went through my dear child, trust me my dear I won't let you suffer alone like they did to me.
If you ever need to cry trust me I will be there beside you to hold your hand and sing you to sleep, trust me my dear i won't let you suffer alone like they did to me
I will never make you choose whom you like more between me and him ,no i won't let you suffer my child like they did to me
trust me my baby just trust me please
40 · Jun 2020
The Moonlight
Alphy Jun 2020
The slow wind that blows out
the darkness of the night
sends chills up my spine

My tiny thoughts
begin to build upon the wind
turning into a huge hurricane
creating a turmoil in me

My own thoughts and worries
scare me more
than the darkness of the night

I seek refuge in the moonlight
that pours light upon the darkness
of the night and upon my thoughts
#MOON MY ULTIMATE REFUGE
#NIGHTS #DARKNESS #LIGHT
39 · Jul 2020
STRANGE TRUTH
Alphy Jul 2020
We make them cry
Those who care for us
And we cry
For those who don't
Its strange but true
#random thoughts

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