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Mar 2018 · 272
Again.
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
Again
My trust is broken
I got scattered.

Again
My faith has drowned
I got scared.

Again
My tears are falling
I cried over pillow.

Again
My perceptions won
I got defeated.

Again
My dreams have broken
I got nightmares.

Again
My hatred increased
I got stabbed.

Again
My pieces will integrate
I will live.

Again
My intentions will firm
I will grow with trust issues.
It's like my fate which is deceiving me again and again.
So, starting a journey all alone.
This time with a vow of not trusting anyone.

#lies #ignorance #broken #firm #continue
Mar 2018 · 650
Poetry.
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
Hurl the mystic pages, wipe off the grit and covered dust.
Burn your inclinations with never-ending wanderlust.
The control over pounding, set your heart free.
Colour the sheet with sails of words in your life's sea.
Start new journey in the world of fascinating proem.
Cause poetry is beautiful prowess to turn each incident into peom.
Happy  WORLD'S POETRY DAY
Unable to express more...about it.
Cause poets are blessed with the capability to turn each grief into hear soothing paragraphs and truly these are the rare humans with infinite emotions.
Dedicated to all of you here or anywhere in this world.
Thank you so much for your words.:))
Mar 2018 · 190
Out of words.
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
Today
I'm running out of words
Unable
to write my grievous thought
Caught
in ugly situation of fate
pinned
by the cruelty of time
defeated
by own ones
betrayed
by familiar faces
cheated
by fake promises
despite
of any companion
in spite
of my failed attempts
tired
from self given scars
inspiring
again to hope
elating
myself to write
imposing
again to breath
When the sphere turn you down at that extent where nothing remain to sustain the hopes and to motivate you towards life.

#tired #betrayed #hatred # write
Mar 2018 · 216
That's what we are.
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
It's all about our own selfishness,
It's all about our own burning desires.

Nothing is in this world to faith over recklessness,
Nothing is in this world  to spark over furious fires.

Sparing the moment for sake of happiness,
Sparing the years for ignorance of peace that hires.
#selfishness #desires # faith # recklessness #fires #moment #peace #hires
Mar 2018 · 229
Drops
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
The rain that showers over my window and bathed the glass.
Few drops from those moving ***** sprinkle over my face.
And I  come to know that I'm alive.
Still alive.
Feeling the intense petrichor.
And I start to feel that I'm alive.
Still alive.
Nature makes you realize that you are still alive.
Mar 2018 · 184
Dream or nightmare.
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
It's like never happening dream which I daily dream with open eyes, unconscious thought and painful heart.
Hopelessly controlled in midst of that dream which now I feel like nightmare that ruined my peace.
Sometimes your dreams becomes nightmare and turns your peace into havoc.
Mar 2018 · 255
Peerless Trust
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
Trust is offended by gesture of offender...
Bottomless faith want the glaring optimist upholder...
Only the silver lining without any shareholder...
The only name to be written not intend to be a certitude holder...

The fired pit convicted the heartfelt borrower...
The festoon of assurance needed to be spark flower...
Reliances are now realising the imposter mellower...
Digging the never happened sureness by furrower...
Trust is beautiful when you follow blindly but it becomes treacherous when you see the realty.
Mar 2018 · 179
Comparison
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
Millions silences
lunatic word...
Longing patience
Abruptly rode...
Overwhelmed sweetness
Engrossing sword...
Increasing contusion
Terrible award...
Coloured night
Immense Ford...
Smiling motivation
Grieving thought...
Helping hand
Helpless afford...
Whelping affection
Regretting wayward...
Comparing beyond comparison.
Mar 2018 · 94
Without.
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
Mogul of ordeals, lest it would be a rational fight...
To wonder or to ponder the most humorous plight...
Stars, moon, eruptions & the deserting barren  in same sight...
Drips of streams, flowers from green and darkness possessed night....
Mar 2018 · 90
Woman!!
Kanak Kashyup Mar 2018
WOMAN
An epitome of beauty, wisdom, sacrifice and care,
She could climb the mountains and be your adhere.

Have ability to dive the ocean and cross the raven,
Unconditionally, the most waited gem that could be heaven.

The deepest sea of affection and the sensitive queen,
The only shoulder, probably, you can comfortably lean.

Can shelf the seas of emotions and darkness of pain,
Capable to shower peace and happiness' rain.

When it comes to right she never gravitate,
But, its equality for which she deeply agitate .

Some love, compassion, respect and welfare,
These are the most favourable ornaments, with her to share.

Catching a fly ball and saving an infant's life,
From a bird in the enormous sky to a perfect kitchen sharp knife.

She plays, at single time to depth, the various role,
The counter part, just unable to console.

From  a caring mother to a cautious, lovely sister,
From a steady companion to a lifelong & way-shower glister.

From, the worshipped Idol to the adorable tender feet,
Heart-full strength, mammoth reservoir of love, completely neat.

yet trapped in just one day for so-called empowerment,
The nerdiness of civilization is the base amusement.

Don't pay respect for just a mere entitled day,
Save this gesture in your nerve for everyday.
#Celebrating feminism!!
#Celebrating womanism!!
Feb 2018 · 263
Dreams and scars
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
The dark clouds fall apart,
Touched by unknown art.
Accomplished by dreams and scar,
Unable to find the way  out to jar.

Privileged to have some angles,
Yet trapped in numerous triangles.
Wallowed over own grief,
Swallowed the devil's sniff.

Incompetent, dumb, drained and drown,
Ruined by weakness, tung up the frown.
Risking the eternal, abolishing the deeds,
Only wish not prevent the eager needs.
Dare to dream.
Ready to face outcomes.
Accepting the weakness.
Feb 2018 · 177
My dilemma
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
Be bewildered wanna resolve,
The humour is new trend that waited to strove.
Integrated thoughts those need a cove,
Submission of self gonna somehow solve.
#confused #integrated #hope #accumulation # waiting #still-waiting
Feb 2018 · 222
All I want.
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
Here in the world of dark and deep...,
Offer me the undisturbed eternal sleep...
The harder you try but unable to peep...,
Don't want I to show you my scars and grief....
Preserve your presence as I'm unable to keep...
Lake, Ocean, Sea..tears are in all seep...,
Forgotten the present,unaware of need...
Optimization of memory and  your talks that creep..,
Searching you in all dreams and deeds...
Beatless by heart, life growing reminders that feed..,
No peace, instability and and powered by oversleep...
#Extract # you
# memory # you
# cure # you
And this you is my hope.
Feb 2018 · 135
In between
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
I can't say...
That I hate you
I can't say...
That I love you
Cause
I'm in between both.
Either way it's only you!
Inspired by a drama- IPKKND
Feb 2018 · 207
Drowning
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
The advantage of drowning is that you can see your own helplessness.
#Tried#fails#fall#tears#thoughts#drown
Feb 2018 · 139
Cause! Who knows?
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
Life is too short.....
Spread out your plenary heart....
Unfold the talks, open the covert just roll...
Cause! Who knows? Tomorrow will never fall...

Collect all memories...
Hold the guts and left insecurities...
Live the moment and accumulate retentive knoll....
Cause! Who knows? Tomorrow will never fall....
Waiting eagerly for the moment when people will be able to live the moments of today....without hustling for tomorrow.
Feb 2018 · 124
Addiction
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
Your memories are my prime addiction
And I don't want any cure
#Come #leave#memories#stay#forever
Missing you a lot my crazy multitude.
Feb 2018 · 134
I AM FINE.
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
I am fine.
I am fine
I am  fin
I am fi
I am f
I am
I a
I
A
Am
Am I
Am I f
Am I fi
Am I fin
Am I fine
Am I fine?
I wish ever anyone notice that fine.
Feb 2018 · 74
Untitled
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
Smile broad one...
Eyes blue again.......
#Never-lasting #life #full #fake #smile
Feb 2018 · 140
I fell for you!
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
Ohhh I fell I fell for you
Can't say when and why
Even I m asking myself why??
Why??
Why for you??
Nothing!!
Yeah nothing!!!
The answer is nothing!!
I hated to see your name in my contact.
Your status.....mean nothing to me means everything to me.
Your each picture saved in my phone....deleted and again saved.
It really hurts when I stare your pictures in my hidden part of gallery.....or the hidden part of my heart!!!!
I know I'm befooling myself.
Your messages not for me but still it brings a vigour in me.
We see each other.....You shake your hand and I hold my beat.....expecting not to reply..... But when you bow I just kneel.
It's nothing for you I know..... But for that I waste my whole sleep.
It's true we are not friends..... but I guess not strangers too.
I can see when you goggling me then and now... I notices your small efforts to make me spell something for you....
I always see when you focussing on my talks....but not say a word....
What should I relate from that....??
What  should I name it??
What should I??
Why should I??
When you talk to your best friend!!
Feb 2018 · 78
Untitled
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
Where will you go after leaving me....??
Wherever you will go...you will go in search of me....!!!
#leave #go#remind#me#search #again# friend
Casanova leave.
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
Dear life take a pause.....let the death explain my existence...
Let my emotions be dribbled through each corners of my known ones' brain....
Let their eyes ignore my presence and after my collision with death let their brains remain haunted by my absence.
Wait in between my presence and absence....there are brains and eyes only.....
Yeah..... Brain and eyes witnessed the both my presence and absence.....but where is the heart.....
In my whole journey of few lunar years I'm unable to find the heart...
That heart which do not hurt.....Cause when it comes to mine.....MINE.....literally hurts
My heart  hurts.......or got hurt....its a satire on you my life.....
It's each borrowed beat burns...
Not for a long.....just for few moments...... Give this beat a pause....a rest......
So my dearest fellow life only you where the one who didn't left me....in my rains and storms..... Give a chance to that death to accompany me.
Let me see the other option of course after you.... Is loyal enough or not...??
If not then you are allowed ......like a true friend to clench me from the lap of death.....the mysterious death......my dream death.....
#life #pain#brain #eyes #heart#hurt#death
Feb 2018 · 206
Bitter Childhood
Kanak Kashyup Feb 2018
Grown up too mature..., left with no Childhood...
Wanna become child again...but afraid of that unlikelihood...
Full of dreams scars too...,Tears, Fears,Years, what would...
Making different lies...,Hiding pain and each wound...
Die or live felling is terrible..., surround the trials with snood...
What will thinking, rational or not...,Neglect or accept they exist the neighbourhood...
Some childhood experiences never loose their grips.
Jan 2018 · 180
Similar attraction
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
She told me that she has crush over him.....I disappointed her by telling I don't have trust over him.....
Same words,same feelings,same gaze,same glare *different persons*
Jan 2018 · 174
Losted hope
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
Fierce prose carves & take me down....
The silence of snow and flakes made my world mourn....
Endless reasons to joy still searching for one....
If only but fatefully it's only ifs that mean....
Lest this is the only way or least that falling rain which leaves the brown...
Priorities worth time not excuse that's for an  option....
Be beholden wanna resolve.
Jan 2018 · 431
Will miss you
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
I'll miss you and your absence will haunt me.....
You will be not there but your memories will surround me........
Your hugs will disappear but your words will comfort me........
The way you tell BEHAN will always remain with me.......
All these boomerangs will then provide goosebumps to me......
Our pictures, songs,talks and each shared laughs will always be around me......
Doesn't matter how far...you go...you will remain inseparable part of me........
Words cannot express my love for you....... After you your written notes in my copy express you with me..........
A friend shifting away far far away.
++behna #Disha # million dollar smile.
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
Somethings shape you in its absence......
And somethings destroy you in its presence.....
There lies a difference.......
Still crave for that destructive presence.
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
Like the full mug of coffee that special coffee mug spilled it's drops....
The same way I  dropped  my happiness in your each saps....
Coffee  sweet and sweeter......
Remember the first eyes' colloid glitter....
Sugar like sugar.....the soluble we.....
Nothing is like that there is now it's only me........
Accumulation of that thick layer over the surface......
The equal amount of unremarkable guilt I face........
But what is the fault of that unfortunate worthy spoon....
No no no not in that worth to be envious of that moon......
The plate at the base of that mug that coffee mug. .......
My dreams are the same way lied below the false pride of thy smug.....
Inspired by a talk with friend.
I don't know the whole story, just a small incident bonded to few hours.
Jan 2018 · 165
Outlander
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
The feeling of being an outcast an outsider
Joke with me or on me they are always the decider
Innocent or fool. ...my so called friends the offender.
Seeking a soul in groups of stranger.
Unable to reach atleast that one defender.
Have you ever feel how it's to be an outlander.
Don't break that small innocent tiny leaf's tender.
Unbelievable how any one could be so lender.
'll be decided by the one who is the sender.
An option in aloneness not the part of the fender.
Again not innocent a fool wanted to be a member.
Won't  join that thread again O mender.
Is it so difficult to trust an anti lander..??
Let's leave one day may they find this Commender.
Cause it's very harsh full to be an outlander!!
#Alone #Misunderstood #new fake faces #tired #new city #new people #old me
Jan 2018 · 89
That fiery touch.
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
I touched the beautiful butterfly never-seen before...........And ended up in burning my own fingers by that uncontrollable spark.........
Always beautiful things doesn't give happiness.........sometimes it gives never vanishing scars....
Jan 2018 · 136
Not in life
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
Some people will stay longer on our mind..,
than in our life..because that's the fate.....


Affection starts with glare when stares end..,
Because eyes are more curious to
state....


Your regular appearance turned a stranger into friend..,
Now my one gesture is enough to turn your smile into bate...


Fingers, the smoothest when crossed my hand..,
Making me unmovable & my screams..became blate...


Gently & gradually.. we grew with a noticeable bond..,
Our shared laughs and silly secrets..people started to relate...


Step by step, cards and chattings...now no.s are exchanged..,
Making fun, scaring..Leaving and adding..a strange warmth ,we sensate...

Avoiding, Ignoring, Annoying and hurting... but remembering only bond..,
Realisation of sensation or emotion...not enough fortunate....

But timing, the cruel destiny and tears needed to be expand...,
Left with memories and untold story of closeness or a form of regret....

because some people will stay longer on our mind..,
than in our life..because that's the fate.....
Inspiration is a close friend.
Jan 2018 · 347
Isolated
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
The net of betrayals......the darkness of failure.......
I'm in the midst'f ocean of loneliness and no one to cure......
The angels forget the....address of deepest layer.......
I am here whole suffocated from absence of adhere.....
The something inside me  still want some compassion and care ......
It's like I am dying daily....by abolishing my tear.....
Want to laugh truly but to make me that no one is here......
Smile my dead one wanted that glare....
That never understanding treacherous angel....to whom I share......
Sailing the deepest of my sea of emotions and fear.......
All alone wanted a real support that closest near..........
Circled in misunderstanding #isolation#unbearable failures
Jan 2018 · 155
Forever
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
What is the real meaning of forever.......??? I wish I could get the answer.... somewhere....Someday....
Now-a-days FOREVER  is so temporary....
Jan 2018 · 168
That simple GOODBYE
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
Sometime a simple good-bye...,
Can make us terribly cry.
Feeling of worthless, hapless...,
Life is doing humorous wry.
I don't know what will happen...,
If today I die.
Forget my needs but not my deeds...,
All this happen with me,why.
Every time losted living within own storms...,
One cannt break what already broken...but try.
Living in dreams, but actually sailing nightmare...,
Give me not happiness but peace just not pry.
Hovering over virtual forgotten the real...,
If I state more accept my sry.
Sometimes a good-bye become worse....
Jan 2018 · 175
Never owned peace.
Kanak Kashyup Jan 2018
I am the wanderer..... Searching for peace.
Physically most calmed......wanting the mental ease....
I am the vagabond forging for peace.

Restless night fragmented dreams.....I am the nomad hunting for peace.

Unstable mind, unconscious thoughts.......... I am the vagrant exploring for peace....

Concentrated feelings, centered eyes............. I am the rover scouting for peace.

Recalling the events, regretting the deeds..... I am the drifter questing for peace.

To stay to move, to slow  to  soon....I am the traveller hovering for peace.

Remember or not forget the thought... towards the roads.........I'm the visitor looking for peace.
In search of that never owned peace...

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