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starchild Jan 2018
SHE
Shes laying on the bed with her iPod on full blast
the door is locked, and the curtains are locked
on the TV screen is the notebook
an empty tub of her favorite ice cream is on the floor
smudged with makeup, her finger tips are stained
from wiping away her eye liner and makeup, stained tears
there last conversation plays in her head
she thinks to herself
that shell never get him back

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HE
Hes on the edge of his bed the doors locked
his room is pitch black from the absence of lights
theirs a hole in the wall from when he punched it earlier
his headphones are about to burst from how loud the music is
no one can hear his sobs or see how messy his hair is from running his hands through it, thinking and thinking.
hes replaying there conversation in his head, thinking,
Hell never get her back

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Heartbreak effects us all in horrible and depressing ways... but i think this sums it up. But this doesn't just sum up heartbreak i dont think. Its the same way when you have a crush dont you think. Oh and the partial of this is not mine i dont wanna be rude and take full credit. =)
starchild Jan 2018
Your all prisoners.
what you call sanity,
Its just a prision in your mind that just stops you from seeing
your just tiny little cogs in an giant absurd machine.
WAKE UP
Why be a cog?
Be Free
And just remember. smile.
-Jerome valeska

No matter who you are
no matter what happens your not free
you need a touch of madness to be free
to see the truth of things
all it takes is a little madness

see im not just stuck in my insane asylum
im free in it
so why cant we all be free
if not thats fine
but im not a cog
who waunts to be some boring cog
yes you may have brilliance but your not free
so be brilliant and free

So yah im just a little crazy
but im not mean
i am crazy and nothing can change that
but a little crazy isnt a bad thing
so you cant tell me im not insane
cause all of this im saying is true about me
so dont let people take away what makes you speacal
and insanity makes me who i am
people have said im not and im a kind person
and i am. to my friends. But im also insane
and not even my friends cant get that now.

so hopefully you can

so why be a cog
be free
and remember
you dont have to be crazy to be free
thats my point
but why not
but not my point
just remember
smile. =)
=)
starchild Nov 2017
I am broken, I am damaged, I am tainted
I am unspoken, I am empty, I am unpainted
I am forsaken, I am forgotten,
I am un taken, I am rotten
I am black
I am cracked
I am black and blue
This song only comes to those with a broken heart
Listen if you choose to
The one I love or loved I don't know anymore hates me because she broke up whith me and she broke my heart and all I did is tell the one I had closest to newness now she wants to take that away..... so tell me why I still love her even after she broke up with me and broke my heart and she does this to me.... why?
starchild Jan 2018
The other day I was told to stop throwing staples
       when I wasnt throwing them
                  they were falling
                          falling out of my skin
                                      Once they were all down my legs
                                                all along my arms around my waist
                                                     and all over my face
And most of all they kept me smiling
        and when someone hurts me they fall out
               I stapled my mouth so I could smile
                 and now they have fallen out
                        I'm afraid I won't smile
                              and everyone has turned and gasped in fear
                                     and I look in the mirror and my mouth
                                             its bigger and black and scarier
                                                 and everyone screams  
" STOP SMILING!"
  "PLS STOP! YOUR SCARING ME!"
    and I look at all of them as the look away
           all the people who have bullied me and harmed me
                now screaming in fear... but I don't feel joy
                        I run and hide because there scared
                          and I sit in a dark corner and cry
                                 and I cry. not because I look like a monster
                                        but no one loves me for me
                                              that I'm alone in this dark world
                                                  and I look at all the staples
some blood stands and bent
          but I notice there are two staples remaining
                two staples struggling to hold together my broken heart
                       but suddenly I realize..... that I'm the way I am
                             and I pick up the stapler and say
                                    "its those who were mean to me who needs a    smile."
=) We don't need staples or stitches to help us smile. Just smile in the faces of the people who doubts you or bullied you and called you names. And you know that you get the last laugh.
starchild Nov 2017
HA
she thinks she can hurt  me anymore
oh LA LA LA
she can take every shot she can
take away what i love
make me feel like nothing
but ill always will have that smile
that smile that makes the kids cry out
please stop your scaring me!
and that will **** her
that im happy
because it seems very much
that...... that she doesnt waunt me to be
be happy
i just wish she could be happy
she looks like she is
but i know thats just her trying to hurt
hurt me
so i dont care anymore
im not her puppet anymore
i wont be to her amusment
i had strings but now im free
there are no strings on ME!
i had strings but now ill have fun
im not attached to anyone
there are no strings one me



STRINGS!
Dont be anyones puppet and cut those strings!
starchild Nov 2017
Tears on the ground
                                   tears at the doorstep
                                                                ­       tears on the stairs              
tears on the carpet
                                 tears on my bed

                                                            ­  tears on my pellow
these tears will get me threw.
starchild Nov 2017
Thanksgiving is for thank
Its in the name and its true
But society turn out slaves and blanks
Such a clue
But truth is such a lank
So why give thanks so true
So we give thanks to blank
Give thanks to who
Give thanks to the nice people
The people haven't broken your heart
To the people  whom you love
And who love you back
Thanksgiving?
I give thanks
To the one I know who will never love me back
And who broke my heart
And to my friends
For even if some did not tell me
But I give thanks
And I give love
Happy thanksgiving and give hugs to those you love  :)
starchild Nov 2017
I was asked which I would rather live in
a lie or a truth
most would say truth that's the truth
to know everything for it all to be revealed
but it my case that's not the truth
in my case i just wish this truth was a lie
but even more so
I wish I still had the lie
the lie that she loved me
that I wasn't alone
the one point in my entire little life I was happy
the time I had hope and fun
but that world deminished by the truth
so if I'm asked which id rather have the truth or the lie
I hope you don't want the truth
because the truth is not freedom
its cold and dark
so if I'm asked which id rather have the wonderful lie
Or the horrible truth
I do hope you choose wisely
because the lie is much better
The lie had love
I just wish i could be happy again
and that's the only truth I waunt
Because the truth broke my heart
I just wish I had that one lie again to mend
but it all came to an end
for the truth is the worst thing
Which one would you rather have the horrible truth or the wonderful lie
Please leave your comments :)
starchild Nov 2017
Yes im mad
cause i had love ill never have
but now that revenge and irony reaks
i creak
and i dont know why
this is what i waunted, die
now she loses her brother
the one shes love even more then her mother
And now i feel sad
because i got my broken revenge
and i didnt waunt it
i didnt even meant it
now she loses the love she loved the most
even more then she love me
yes that hurt
it was all a lie
and i loved now to die
because i was there and she turned her back on my heart
now she loses hers
and now im meek
because im weak
because i got my revenge
and no one knows
buti dont waunt this
i waunt my family back
i wish there was a hack
a hack to what you ask
a hack to life
because life is strife
but i and her lost the love we loved the most
My friend/ex girlfriend loses her brother because of her brothers ex and so she loses some one she loves and the irony is i lost her...... but i feel....... cold...... hope you love
starchild Nov 2017
yesterday was the day
the day of blood
the blood sheded for this country
for the not perfect country
we like to say it wonderful
that its beutiful
but realy its not
im living proof
so many people are
people that are left behind
but it doesnt matter cause nothing is perfect
im non perfect
im broken
and so is this country
on the outside people think its wonderful
freedom, lie
the closer you get the darker it gets
but its true sometimes
there are fun and bright parts of this country
america the non perfect

but everyone has a point and say
but so what
nothing is perfect
cause everything is non perfect
starchild Nov 2017
When you just get pushed away
when you just fade away
you encounter a monster
a monster with a open face
then you'll begin to race
but you can not run away from your deamons
so you go to the up side down
where its dark and cold
and everything there is the exact opposite
but much darker
where the monsters can get you
but I actualy would feel welcome
because they made me a monster so this place could be home
if the monsters wouldn't **** me to
so no matter who you are a villain or not
don't get caught
caught up side down
or the monsters will get you
but if your like me
show those monsters what true crazy looks like
set the score past eleven
and be a maniac
because that's what it takes to **** a monster
all the way to the alter
all the way upside down
I know it doesn't ryhme but if you don't like it please suggest :)
starchild Jan 2018
see i think myself alone
whith friends that are there but not at home
but as i look hard
yes i may be crazy
and live in a house of cards
but i realize im not alone
not everyone hates me
but as i look closer
we are together
even if we dont know eachother
we are together
together as writers
together as poets
together as puppeteres
togethers as crazies
because i may be crazy
but all the best people are
so lets all be together
as one
starchild Jul 2018
Just scroll down this profile page......      
you'll see only my poems are cringed,
#Thecringe
starchild Feb 2018
Is that your heart that's beating
or illusion your alive?
but upon this summer threshold
a demon comes at night

Piercing eyes cut threw me
a knife in hand so blight
But it really isn't necessary
for I'm the demon in the night

I may give you a smile
But I won't forgive those sins
ones done by those bully's
So I'm the dancing demon

Watch me twirl and watch me spin
But I may give you all a smile
But I won't forgive there sins
=)
starchild Aug 2020
Floating threw the universe now
painfully passing threw the destruction of the world
the only thing i'm tied to now is him
starchild Jan 2018
All villains
are
just heroes
who chose truth over dare

All heroes
are
broken
beyond repair
#villains #heroes #happyendings
40th poem hurray =)
starchild Nov 2017
She shot my heart
for that she should pay
but
i love her
oh god how i loved her
but she cut open my heart
and left me to bleed
so then everyone must pay
but when i said that i dropped and cried
because she made me a monster
even though i was a monster before that
she made me worse
but everyone must must pay the voices say
everyone who did or does me wrong
but i try to ignore them
i do and i am
but im a villain
and villains dont get happy endings
my last poem wasnt that good so im makeing up for it hope you like?
starchild Aug 2019
Some say I'm not the same
maybe I have changed
I used to be able to tell
used to be able to know
what's wrong with me...?

Is it my face? Or my hair,
maybe my eyes do not glow
it's cause my frown doesn't show
I'm not good at my grades
but I am at the stage
I know how to act every day

I may not be beautiful
i may not be smart,
but I love them
I love you
why isn't that enough?

You say it's on me
if I explode
from the lies that I've said
to spare my sickness from your head,
and it is said it's my fault
if I end up dead

what is wrong with me!?
why do I think these thoughts
what is wrong with me?
why am I so distraught
i know I'm not special
i know I'm not alone
then why do I feel so cold?

It's on me,
they don't understand
it's my fault,
that they want me to frown
it's my fault,
less guilt on their crowns
that they want me to be happy
when they are happy
to lighten
to be ok
why are they
so two faced

But still.. it's not all of them
they are loving
they are kind
they could understand,
but I only wish
that they could see
that the pain that's in me
isn't for them
to feel

And i get it all
i've understood it all
overthought it all
every moment
every motion
all the pain
that I cannot share
there is to much I know
for me to show

You may think not
you'll pass this without a care
but just so you know
I will keep on smiling
i'll keep hiding
till you are merry
and if not
I still don't know

What's wrong with me...
starchild Jan 2018
I got so sick of being on my own
Now the devil wont leave me alone

Its almost like ive got a friend
(Warning realy short) =) </3
starchild Dec 2017
In a whisper in a sigh
in a dream that flashes by
i can see you deep whithin
i childhood memory growing thin
in a flicker of an eye
in a heart that aches to cry
i can hear your words of love
as you soar to the heavens above
in a whisper in a sigh
i hold your hand as time goes by
i see the pain i try to hide
to protect my heart by your side
in a mind that searches why
whithin the monster needs to hide
to find the answeres to start to heal
to halt this cutting pain i feel
whith a tear in my eye
whith fresh hope i search high
for one last chance to sit awhile
to view your face, your laugh, your smile
and in a whisper
i realize
ill never
starchild Nov 2017
Yes ive said it before
im going to happy now
im going to show them crazy
im going to have a happy ending
but the truth is ill never escape
escape the darkness of this sadness
no matter how hard i try i fall back into that pit
that pit at which im alone
and sad
now matter hard i try to be crazy
and happy
she pushes me back
she gave me two chances and for what
i gave her a hundred
and i guess im not the villain
the villain like they all said
im just the lonley kid in the corner
the monster no body loves in the corner
and no matter how hard i try im just back to the begining
going in circles
no matter how hard i try im just sad again
so ill just push them away so i cant get hurt
Because no matter how hard i try i always begin
TO FADE

Then Why Try
this person keeps saying i nned to ryhme but poems dont need to ryhme they just need to express the way you feel...... doctor suse ruined peoples way of thinking :-)
starchild Nov 2018
Its not good mentally
i was never good,
but too fail so much
it explains why i lack,
i keep it in
because i know how much words can hurt
knowing that
i know how much emotions hurt.
the words fine
and ok
good
and 'yeah.. just tired,'
can hide so much,

And why do i play this game,
it doesn't count as lieing
it is hiding,
not out of cowardice but out of
perspective.
How one is hurting from an arrow in their back
as another walks up too them and asks,
'Are you ok?'
because they care
because they realize everyone has pain.
but nobody realizes
that the person who asked,
'Are you ok?'
Has a multitude of arrows in their back

But it doesn't matter
for women and men,
we each have the same sized ladder to climb
but the people in between
that can see past the stereotypical remarks,
and bullying of all kinds
past their pain,
to make others laugh,
..and smile...


It doesn't matter,
who you are
why you do things
what you look like.
we all have pain
but some will keep it locked up
bottle it up in a jar
that will never break,
so they can mend the wandering
broken hearts of this world.
But sometimes they can be misunderstood,
because they smile in a world filled with frowns
but their only misunderstood,  

Because of their untold words
that lye with the pain
and sadness
that lye's
in their mason jar, heart

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