I have a diferent personality
and no one gets that
they all just think im weird
and odd
i even bet that you do to
because no one likes me
what i writte
what i say
what i do
doesnt harm anybody
but it seems that no one like what i do
no one likes my poems
no one likes me
for me
she did
unless that was a lie to
and they all thik im anoying
but i dont care
im crazy so what
but no one likes that aparently
someone who is diferent
i have a diferent personality
a different mind
but they all dislike me
those who are reading this
if you knew me
i bet you wouldn't

Everywhere and
Never fading
Rude to talk when
They’re listening

Not quite falling
Not quite living
But for sure he’s
Still existing

Left no memory
Of his presence
Gone forever
Unimportant

Can’t retain a
Stable body
Core consumed him
Only rotting


Broken doorway
Leads you deeper
Empty room and
He’s the keeper

Stumble forward
Knees are shaking
All around you
Space is breaking

The darkness
Surrounding
Your soul can’t
Stop pounding

You’re glitching
It’s over

Can’t remember
What his name was
Talked in symbols
UNIMPORTANT

Cracked and melted
Mind is twisted
None had seen and
No one wished it

Work was cut off
Family forgot
VOID
Past is worthless

Machine broken
Can’t be revived
Despite efforts
Did not survive

You’re falling
Start calling
Nobody
Is coming

Refusing
It’s bruising
You’re grasping
For something

Shattering soul
Can it refuse?
Reality
Keeps reacting

King’s scientist
His position
Taken over
Long forgotten

Running down the hall
You catch your breath
There’s nothing left
You start to fall

Through the void
There’s no choice
You call out hopelessly to all the darkness

Inching back to check again
He’s disappeared now
3.1415926535897
Now’s not the time

Spreading endlessly through time
Dust never carried off
Stuck like this for now

Never fixing the problem
Those trapped under the ground
Have lost all hope

Fight on the left
Spare on the right
How will you

Act in-between
Items consumed
Approach this?

Fight on the left
Spare on the right
Check him too

Act in-between
Items consumed
Don’t forget…

A drawing
Three people
Poorly drawn
Is missing




A folder
Locked away
He’s crying
“Don’t forget.”

This world will never be what I expected
That I don't belong, who would have ever guessed it

I will not leave alone
I will not leave everything I own

DeAtH

To make you feel like its always been to late
Because everyone had hate
hate for me

For neither hell or heaven wants me
I'm cursed to wander darkness

But I realize this using death
I may be in darkness
But I'm not alone as I see many people have been alone

And us freaks
Stick up for each other

Whith my group of friends of maniacs
Are there for eachother

HA
she thinks she can hurt  me anymore
oh LA LA LA
she can take every shot she can
take away what i love
make me feel like nothing
but ill always will have that smile
that smile that makes the kids cry out
please stop your scaring me!
and that will **** her
that im happy
because it seems very much
that...... that she doesnt waunt me to be
be happy
i just wish she could be happy
she looks like she is
but i know thats just her trying to hurt
hurt me
so i dont care anymore
im not her puppet anymore
i wont be to her amusment
i had strings but now im free
there are no strings on ME!
i had strings but now ill have fun
im not attached to anyone
there are no strings one me



STRINGS!

Im a monster
so what
ill cough up to it even in the alter
no i dont care if there is a god or not
but there is something a matter
because im happy and sad
but she is not happy
i didn't do anything
but bare this broken heart out of happy
cause im tired of being sad
because she broke me into nothing
yes i wanted revenge cause she broke my heart
but now i am something
and now i dont care
if she wants to be happy
ill be right there
because no one is perfect
and me im proof
because i am me

Close your eyes,
pretend to fly

But, somehow, your not
pretending anymore
once the darkness glazed over,
it becomes real,
you swim in the
clouds and glowing yellow sky
the cool, cold, but warm air
fills and surrounds your soul
replacing the emptiness,
inside

And now you realize,
this is reality
this is your dream
your capable of smashing all
things your expected to be,
because this is your fairy tale dream

The beautiful sky
that your free to fly,
fades,
now it's water,
you float upon it's calm surface
just above the darkness that
intends to swallow you
but it doesn't.
it's so calm the water reflects
the stars above, my friends,
this is the calm before every storm,
the quiet voice before the trailed, de-railed, echo
and despite the seas promise not to pull you into darkness, it does,

This is my home, the sea keeps me captive in it's darkness, my only light is my night sky
but this, is even worse
the monsters that lurk here
mock me, for being here and not even in reach of my light, my illuminant, Night Sky

I'm trapped here, but this is a dream isn't it? Yes... No
but I'm not really here, so yes, I've been told I go around as a hypocrite, by people whom I try to help, people who figure out why I'm so good with other people's seas of darkness and lurking, mocking, monsters, is because I hide my own. I dream my own.

This is no cry for help,
I'm not some ticking time bomb
ready to start the next world war,
no.. I do what others cant,
what psychologists and beruocrats cant stand to hear,
Is I put others dark ocean of emotion, before my own
I'm capable of understanding
and standing under others judgemental tries, because I'm more, your more, then reality

If you truly are more
then this world full
of people who believe
that others pain
is some sort of joke,
You know,
You already have an
Understanding
of the full picture
you have a understanding
that not only do I bottle my
pain so I am capable
of mending others happy endings
But because I can't open up
because it's to much
and I'd rather it inside me then others
Because I love so many others
I can't,
and this may seem like some rant,
Some poorly organized throw up
of emotion on a digital page
but this is my ocean
this is my sea
this is my illuminant sea life
reminding me how I can't have
Real stars
So I become others
Fairy Tale Fixture

She sais im the one who needs to pay
well how do i need to pay?
She broke my heart
she broke her promise
she keeps on hurting me!
she tells me i didnt love her that much anyways
but i gave her everything
i let her in
and she destroyed me
but i still love her
and i hate that i love her
that she could do this awful thing to me
and on a hill
far from a lake
thats where she just completely destroyd me
so if anyone needs to pay
its no one
but i still love her
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Cruel and cold like winds on the sea
Will you ever return to me
Hear my voice sing with the tide
My love will never die
Over waves and deep in the blue
I will give up my heart for you
Ten long years I’ll wait to go by
My love will never die

Did you hear it?
They are coming for you cause your stains so red
they know what you did
they know what you did you can not hide
so run while you can
since you cant hide
youll be the one to be called to do this mad genocide

im pushed away again by her
i try to comfort her but she screams at me to leaver her to her
and so i run and cry
and i get pushed in that dark hole of depression again
i waunt to be happy to be my mental self
but each time i go back
but i dont waunt to
and yet i do
but this time im going to be the deamon they keep pushing
pushing away
but this time ill grab on the ledge
and the next time she pushes me back ill be ready
ready just push back
and no matter what i do
i know she wont feel the same way i do
cause what she does to me i can forgive
i can love
but she keeps pushing me away
so i guess the next time ill let her

I am broken, I am damaged, I am tainted
I am unspoken, I am empty, I am unpainted
I am forsaken, I am forgotten,
I am un taken, I am rotten
I am black
I am cracked
I am black and blue
This song only comes to those with a broken heart
Listen if you choose to

Its not good mentally
i was never good,
but too fail so much
it explains why i lack,
i keep it in
because i know how much words can hurt
knowing that
i know how much emotions hurt.
the words fine
and ok
good
and 'yeah.. just tired,'
can hide so much,

And why do i play this game,
it doesn't count as lieing
it is hiding,
not out of cowardice but out of
perspective.
How one is hurting from an arrow in their back
as another walks up too them and asks,
'Are you ok?'
because they care
because they realize everyone has pain.
but nobody realizes
that the person who asked,
'Are you ok?'
Has a multitude of arrows in their back

But it doesn't matter
for women and men,
we each have the same sized ladder to climb
but the people in between
that can see past the stereotypical remarks,
and bullying of all kinds
past their pain,
to make others laugh,
..and smile...


It doesn't matter,
who you are
why you do things
what you look like.
we all have pain
but some will keep it locked up
bottle it up in a jar
that will never break,
so they can mend the wandering
broken hearts of this world.
But sometimes they can be misunderstood,
because they smile in a world filled with frowns
but their only misunderstood,  

Because of their untold words
that lye with the pain
and sadness
that lye's
in their mason jar, heart

How many of you have a best friend!?...

What makes them your best friend..!?

Do any of you have someone who accepts you!?..

Do any of you have someone to go to...!?

Do you accept anyone...!?... and everyone!?



Tell you what.... They accept you.
you can be yourself
you can go to them


Do you feel safe at school!?
Of course you don't!
Because people Judge
and people are cruel and aren't accepting


Accept... And care