Now im back
back in this hole she put me in
and she thinks that its all my fault
but i promise i wont let her
let her push me out of my friends lives
and she sais i made her feel worthless
that i go around telling
telling everybody that she broke my heart
well good
because its all her fault
and now she thinks
thinks im talking behind her back
and she calls me names
and talks behind my back now
and now she hates me
and i love her
and its sad
but she sais that shell **** me
that she will get me
but i say guess what
id probably put a gun in my mouth before
before she could even touch me
and i hate it though
i hate that i love her
because she continues
continues to torture me
but i wont let her destroy me again
ill be happy when i get out
now and then
ill be happy
but
now were back to the begining
its just a feeling
and no one knows yet
but just because they cant feel it to
doesnt mean that you have to forget
pick a star on the dark horrizon and
follow the light
but i promise
i swear ill be happy again
:)

Yes ive said it before
im going to happy now
im going to show them crazy
im going to have a happy ending
but the truth is ill never escape
escape the darkness of this sadness
no matter how hard i try i fall back into that pit
that pit at which im alone
and sad
now matter hard i try to be crazy
and happy
she pushes me back
she gave me two chances and for what
i gave her a hundred
and i guess im not the villain
the villain like they all said
im just the lonley kid in the corner
the monster no body loves in the corner
and no matter how hard i try im just back to the begining
going in circles
no matter how hard i try im just sad again
so ill just push them away so i cant get hurt
Because no matter how hard i try i always begin
TO FADE

Then Why Try

I was asked which I would rather live in
a lie or a truth
most would say truth that's the truth
to know everything for it all to be revealed
but it my case that's not the truth
in my case i just wish this truth was a lie
but even more so
I wish I still had the lie
the lie that she loved me
that I wasn't alone
the one point in my entire little life I was happy
the time I had hope and fun
but that world deminished by the truth
so if I'm asked which id rather have the truth or the lie
I hope you don't want the truth
because the truth is not freedom
its cold and dark
so if I'm asked which id rather have the wonderful lie
Or the horrible truth
I do hope you choose wisely
because the lie is much better
The lie had love
I just wish i could be happy again
and that's the only truth I waunt
Because the truth broke my heart
I just wish I had that one lie again to mend
but it all came to an end
for the truth is the worst thing