would you get married again
he asks

only if I can fully trust him
she replies

looking at
the lush green trees
she weeps
as she fears
that the world
will be less green
for her grandchildren

yesterday
rushing to the train
the train is late again
waiting for the train

today
rushing to the train
the train is late again
waiting for the train

tomorrow
rushing to the train
the train is late again
waiting for the train

Calmness is descending upon me
contentment is slowly taking over my heart
my soul expectantly opens to the future
as happiness appears on the horizon

knowing
that you
were reading
my poems
irritated me

knowing
that you
are now not reading
my poems
has not changed
how I feel

green trees
green lake
green tea
you and me

red sun
red sky
red tea
you and me

white hills
white paths
white tea
you and me

candles
cakes
cosiness

Why are you always
Looking at the dark side
You ask with a smile

I do not know the answer
As your smile
Is like sunshine to me

You say things to me
that nobody has said before
your words are different
and make me think
your narratives meander
through my heart
they touch my soul
they make me smile
and yet I know
that you will hurt me

morning
sunshine
hope

I sit next to you
but you only see her

I am talking to you
but you only hear her voice

I hold your hand
but you long for her touch

I realise
your heart is still occupied
and all I can do is leave…

They say she treated you badly
Taking advantage of your kindness and love
I understand your pain and anger
But I do not understand
Why you make me suffer for it

you have left this world
sad and mournful are my thoughts
raindrops cool my face

I want to paint
but I have no colours

I want to write
but I cannot find my pen

I want to sing
but I lost my voice

I want to run away
but I do not know where it is safe

So I do nothing
and everything stays the same

she can hear the bell
striking twelve times
another day has passed
with another opportunity missed
she cannot sleep
and wonders
if the same
will happen today
or will she have the strength to do
what she should have done
a long time ago

storm
sunshine
relationship

I watch the two lovers
sitting opposite me
in the café.

He:
tall
grey hair
an air of power
and importance.

She:
small
long hair
looking up to him
with admiration.

Lost in each other’s gaze
they are holding hands.

Why does it unsettle me
that he
is wearing a ring
and she
is not?

black nose and pink nose
green eyes and blue eyes
black coat and white coat
short hair and long hair

curiousness and playfulness
sleepiness and calmness
liveliness and eagerness
Kurotan and Shirotan

why did it take me
so long
to realize that
for me
we are us
but for you
we are you and I

smile
she said
and picked up
the broken cup
a  smile can mend
whatever is broken

I am seeking
but I cannot find.

I am passionately seeking
but I cannot find.

I am desperately seeking
but I cannot find.

Do I know what I am looking for?

red leaves
yellow leaves
gently swaying
in the wind
dark blue sky
golden sunshine
a perfect
autumn painting

have I done
everything
wrong
she wonders
seeing
the displeasure
on his face

as she does
not know
the answer
she decides
to write a poem

whatever
I attempt
is discredited

whenever
I try to help
I am pushed away

if whatever
I do
is wronged
why
am I still doing it

she sits
in her comfy chair
looking back
at the year
and sighs
what holds me back
to do the things
I yearn to do
what paralyses me
when I decide to change
well worn habits
what sabotages
all my plans
carefully designed
to improve my life
she takes a deep breath
hoping to find the answer
to all her questions

for her
the spotlight is
on the moment

in the brightness
of the moment
she cannot see
her past
nor anticipate
her future

for her
living in the moment
means happiness

I am alone
in a foreign country.
Where are
my friends?
Where are
my pleasures?
Where is
my happiness?
Why am I here?

apple and mint tea
white cat sleeping on my chair
no need to worry

I had come today
expecting to meet
dull and uninteresting people
but when I saw your smile
I knew I had been wrong

waiting for the day
when all the leaves are coloured
expectation of joy

music
mountains
Austria

I like looking at your eyes.
They say eyes are the mirror
of a person’s soul.

I can see love, passion, caring
and tenderness in your eyes
and a desire to explore
the joys of life with me.

I know
you are the right man for me.

I watch her
carefully disassembling
her life.

Every facet of her life
is looked at and
stripped down
to its essentials.
Nothing is left untouched.
Everything is assessed.

When all the pieces
of her life
are neatly laid out
in front of her
she smiles and begins
to assemble
a new and better life
for herself.

cat
dog
us

think
decide
do

I have always loved my sister.
I love my sister.
I will always love my sister.

I have always worried about my sister.
I worry about my sister.
I will always worry about my sister.

I have always laughed with my sister.
I no longer laugh with my sister.
Will I ever laugh with my sister again?

beach
ice-cream
holiday

end
beginning
midlife

she feels strong
she is happy
she is celebrating
that she has crossed the line
gone beyond convention
and followed her heart

coffee
cake
chat

I was in love with two men
and decided to choose you

now I know better

I should not have chosen
either of you

green eyes
black fur
pink tongue
calming purr
black nose
happy stroll
gentle paws
I love it all

man
woman
deceit

she wonders
what she
might do
if she had
no fear

she thinks
hard and
concentrated
taking her time
to understand
her deepest
desires

after some while
she smiles
picks up
a pen and
begins
to write

If it has been your intention
To hurt me
You have succeeded

If it has been your intention
To get back at her
By hurting me
You have failed

we have to go back
to normal
he says

do you mean
my normal or your normal
she asks

what a mess
she said

I like it
he smiled

I sometimes dream
That I run with you
Along the river

You hold my hand
And my soul
Is full of joy

But every time
Just when our souls
Begin to meet
I wake up

happy
sad
yo-yo

happiness and you
yellow flowers and red sun
summer has arrived