You tell me that the perfume
you bought for her
she only wore for other men
but you do not realise that the perfume
I bought for myself
I am only wearing for you.

The place in your heart
is still occupied

Smile
she said to me
before
she ran away

How
I ask myself
before
I follow her

walking towards you
sunshine warmth and tenderness
there is hope for me

How shall I concentrate when all these images
move past my eyes like on a never-ending conveyor belt:
   Lips so red and eyes so tempting
   ******* so full and so inviting
   Luring you away from me
   Smiles that promise much
   But mean so little
   And a voice as sweet as Lorelei
   Come into my arms delicious boy
   And I see you fall
   I see you fall
   Passionately fall for it…
   Lips so red and eyes so tempting
   ******* so full and so inviting
   Luring you away from me
   Smiles that promise much
   But mean so little
   And a voice as sweet as Lorelei
   Come into my arms delicious boy
   And I see you fall
   I see you fall
   Passionately fall for it…
   Lips so red and eyes so tempting
   ******* so full and so inviting
WHY IS THERE NO SWITCH ON THIS CONVEYOR BELT?

Tim left Anne for a younger woman
Pete left Chris for a younger man
Eve left Louise for a younger woman
Sue left Joe for a younger man
You left me for a younger woman

Why?

Tiredness and loss
Darkness, wind and heavy rain
Hope is just a dream

house of memories
I shall not visit again
yellow sun brings hope

Before I came
I was sad
as I knew
I would never be able
to come again.

Now that I have come
I feel no sadness
as I have realised
that there is nothing here
I still want to have.

I am sitting
in the living room
of our family home.

I listen to the stories of
happiness and sadness,
success and failure,
love and hate,
hope and despair
and the never ending support
and suffering of the women
who lived in the house.

I am grateful
that my mother
is selling the house.

The birds are singing
The sky is blue
The sun is golden
When I am with you

Sometimes when I am dancing
in my flat
I sense your presence

You hold me tight
and our bodies merge
to the rhythm of the music

I know
you will be here soon
and I turn up the music
with joy

I like looking at your eyes.
They say eyes are the mirror
of a person’s soul.

I can see love, passion, caring
and tenderness in your eyes
and a desire to explore
the joys of life with me.

I know
you are the right man for me.

Calmness is descending upon me
contentment is slowly taking over my heart
my soul expectantly opens to the future
as happiness appears on the horizon

You say:
I do not want you to change
how you write
because I or anyone else is a reader

I say:
I want you to change
how you read
because your mind expresses concerns
your heart would not know

I am having
The biggest love affair
Of my life

One that makes
My heart leap
And my soul dance

I am in love
With myself

I wanted to show you
The wooden pews of the
Sixteenth century church
But the gate was closed

I wanted to admire with you
The magic of the white minster
With its delicate carvings
But you had no sense for it

I wanted to watch with you
The river slowly passing by
And never being the same again
But you lost your patience

I knew then that I had to go

You always said
That I could not write
But now that you have left me
My words are flowing

You tell me
That he has asked you
To marry him

Do you know
That he has asked me
The same question
Twenty years ago

This is a beautiful train journey
Green meadows
Silvery sea
Blue sky
And yellow sun

It was not like that two weeks ago
When I was on the train
Looking forward to seeing you
Then the meadows were brown
And the sea was black
The sun was hidden
And the sky was crying
I know now that they were anticipating my pain

You never told me
why you had to leave

You just said
that you had to go

So after all those years
I still wonder why

You want me to be your friend
Someone you can tell
What pains you suffer
because of her

I want you to be my lover
Someone I can tell
What pleasures I desire
because of you

Our paths will never cross

You are so relaxed
When you are with me
All your worries disappear
And calmness descends upon your soul
There is understanding
Between you and me
And a harmony that others sense
People look at us and smile
They do not know
That you have left me
long ago

If it has been your intention
To hurt me
You have succeeded

If it has been your intention
To get back at her
By hurting me
You have failed

I am sitting in the café
in the pretty old town
drinking violet tea

I am cheerful and smiling
because soon you will be here
drinking violet tea with me

I had come today
expecting to meet
dull and uninteresting people
but when I saw your smile
I knew I had been wrong

Seagulls gliding past
Golden sunrays touch the sea
Mournful weeps my soul

I am sitting
in the shadow
of the old eucalyptus tree
admiring its silvery leaves

When will you come
and sit next to me
in the magic
of the ancient tree

You wonder
why she left you
for a drummer

Could it be
that she likes music
and you do not

Sometimes I am not sure
whether I am in the past
or in the present
I look at you
You still seem to be the same
and yet
I do not recognise
the man I am looking at

I can feel
your anger
creeping up on me
Slowly, slowly
like the mist
in the morning
I cannot escape
because
to you
I am her

You say things to me
that nobody has said before
your words are different
and make me think
your narratives meander
through my heart
they touch my soul
they make me smile
and yet I know
that you will hurt me

I sit next to you
but you only see her

I am talking to you
but you only hear her voice

I hold your hand
but you long for her touch

I realise
your heart is still occupied
and all I can do is leave…

You want me
to be your soul mate
your friend
who is always there
when you are
in trouble

But you do not want me
to be your lover
your muse
who gives you joy
when you are
happy and relaxed

Why can I not be both

I watch the two lovers
sitting opposite me
in the café.

He:
tall
grey hair
an air of power
and importance.

She:
small
long hair
looking up to him
with admiration.

Lost in each other’s gaze
they are holding hands.

Why does it unsettle me
that he
is wearing a ring
and she
is not?

When you say
you love me
does it mean the same
as when I say
I love you

I can see how you suffer
trying to understand the past
and to predict the future.

When will you realise
that it is the present
you should focus on?

Blue Sky
White Clouds
Yellow Sun
Happy Mind

Grey Sky
Black Clouds
Hidden Sun
Sorrowed Mind

I know
you hate our home town
but I love it

You see only pain and darkness
and death
when we walk through the narrow streets
but I see joy and brightness and life

Why are we so different

she
ran
ran
ran

without looking back just
ran
ran
ran

she had no goal
she had no fear

she
ran
ran
ran

you have left this world
sad and mournful are my thoughts
raindrops cool my face

You say
you make sacrifices
so that I can be successful

I say
I am successful
Despite your sacrifices

Two perspectives but one truth

Walking through the park
Watching children running past
Sunrays kiss my face

It amazes me
how happiness
is slowly taking over
my soul

It makes me calm
and gives me strength
to wait
until our paths
will have finally crossed

I am angry and annoyed
As I have finally understood
That my own weakness
Had made it possible
For others to hurt me

At the same time
I am happy and delighted
As I have also understood
That my newly gained strength
Makes it possible
For others to love me

It is magical to dance with you
On the white cloud
My dress made of dew drops
Glisters in the morning sun
A warm wind gently plays with my hair
And sunshine envelopes our bodies
As our souls finally meet

I like the way you look at me
Kind and tender and loving

I like the way you touch me
Full of passion and desire

I like the way you hold me
Strong and tight and purposeful

But I do not like the way I meet you
Always in my dreams

You sit at your table
Glass of beer in front of you
Gazing at me with desire

I sit at my table
Glass of wine in front of me
Wondering about your desire

What is holding us back from making the move

Those were happy days
you said
when you showed me
the photograph
I can see the sadness and anger
in your eyes
and the desire
to go back into the past

The difference between you and me is
that
I have forgiven him
but
you have not forgiven her

We moved with ease in hyper reality  
Laughing and joking with each other
And feeling light and comfortable
When gently pushing out the boundaries
Into a new world previously unknown to us
With every conversation our hopes and desires increased
Until we made the move into reality