Why did I spend the night with you
Against the advice of my inner voice

Why did I trust your narratives
Without even knowing you

Why did I think that you would give me comfort and love
When my heart begged me to be careful

There are no answers to such questions

I would like to talk to you
but I do not know how

I would like to say I am sorry
but I cannot find the right words

So I need to be silent and hope
that you can do better than I

I do not know you
but I like talking to you
You are far away
and yet so close
Your voice which I cannot remember
gives me comfort
in times of chaos and pain
Your eyes which have never caught my gaze
tell me that I shall be fine
You accidentally crossed my path
and yet it seemed so purposeful
I think I would like to know you

You look so vulnerable
Having fallen asleep on the chair
I would like to kiss you
But I know you are dreaming of her

You say
I can speak without restrictions
and encourage me
to go beyond my fear

I say
nothing
as I do not want to disappoint you

I sit here amongst all the noisy people
Feeling very still
Very empty
Very sad
I can hear chatter and laughter all around me
But my heart is quiet and full of pain
Longing to have you here chatting and laughing with me

You were everything to me
my past my present and my future
my joy and my happiness
my hope and my desire
my belief
that life was worthwhile living

And then you left me

Why are you always
Looking at the dark side
You ask with a smile

I do not know the answer
As your smile
Is like sunshine to me

I can see love and desire
In your eyes
As you look at me
From a distance

You move slowly and cautiously
Calming your burning heart
Not wanting to miss the moment

I know the moment
Will come soon
And smile at you
In anticipation