There are more than a thousand thoughts that run through my mind. Somehow you are always there. You are everything. Everything I am carries a little bit of you. I see the rest of my life in those eyes of yours.

Last night we decided that the world was ours.

After all life is a blur. You said I would  never write a sad poem when I'm with you and here I am. with tears in my eyes, it is all a blur.

The nervousness slid off to reveal our naked vulnerable souls. You grabbed me with your eyes and shook me with your smile. We made love to our minds as we floated. Not caring where we'd end up.

I felt warmth sliding down my throat last night.
I felt the warmth turn into numbing in my head.
There we were.
Five hearts in one room bringing our loneliness together.
I felt the warmth sitting  in my stomach.
I shared the warmth with them.
We laughed and we smiled and we cried.
The warmth guided the truth into my fingertips as they typed.
Confessing.
I felt warm.

you beg me for a chance then you wipe your *** with it.
well your *** should be sparkling clean because I'm the **** head that keeps handing them to you.
I wanted something for you that you did not want for yourself.

Happiness.

I've run out of chances to give you.

Finally.

sorry if it came to you as a surprise. My broken heart and the loads of happiness you did not want are coming with me. This is not a see you later. This is a final goodbye.