That smile it warms me to my soul
Your laugh you always try to hold
Your hair so long and silky straight
The fear of asking you on a date
Your voice so blissful and so sweet
My heart skips every time we meet
The wait for the school bell to end
The joy to call you my best friend
You not knowing I feel like this
Daily dreaming of our first kiss
I'll be patient and ever so kind
Until our hearts intertwine

You passed me by as I said Hello
You didn't say anything back
I opened the door as I said Hello
But your mouth never cracked
You stepped on my toe as I said Hello
And you never apologized
Why are you so mean to me
I've said Hello at least a hundred times


Hello

My knees crack when I walk
My back constantly aches
I have medication to take daily
or I may not even wake
My eyes don't see clearly
I can't hear all to well
I can no longer care for myself
My body is my own living Hell

No body understands me
I don’t even know myself
I know that I feel sorry for me
Because I don’t even love myself
I sound like I might end it all
But I don’t even have the choice
I brought two kids in this world and
I’d be **** if I chose to leave them by choice
Every day I get up
I push myself into the world
Telling myself I'm a Mother first so " GET IT TOGETHER GIRL"!

I hate the lady in the mirror
The woman looking back at me
Where did she get lost along the way
To becoming me.
I really hate to be like this
I don’t know why I am
I’ve always questioned everything...
Including who I am.
I wish that I was happy, confident and free
I wish that I was intelligent, witty and filled with glee
But I can wish all I want and I can hope for change
But inside my heart I know
I will always be the same.