When I say the words
Come over
I never hear a positive
Yes
Or even a
Maybe
All I hear is the sound of your sigh

It breaks me everytime a little more
That I cannot
**Let
You
Go

We both look away
I walk up, look down
Pretend not to see
The gap in my chest
My heart in your hand
Casually slung over your shoulder
Like everything else
I ever gave to you.
*(and my pockets are full of empty promises)

It only takes a second to melt
To the sight of what once could have been.

Waking up is the worst part.

You asked me why I cared,
"Still."
I still do not know
What it is you wanted me to say.
After all,
You'd run away either way,
"Still."

I still have weird fantaisies about you and me
I wish
You were in my emergency contacts
When I get drunk
I have your name on my lips and my silence as a price
I walk on eggshells just to keep being your friend
I wish
I could stop, but drugs are a too tough
And I don't know how to quit you.