My heartbeat is dim
simmering in ancient expectations
entirely uncertain about the choices
that choose to be still and submit
exposing their many details
letting show their opinions
which could be my thoughts simply reflected
turning me into submission
leading into frenzy.
I know not what it is I pray for
having so much conflict even then
rocking back and forth with my eyes closed
begging to withhold any and every tear
it won't get me anywhere
it doesn't change anything
yet I know there is no other answer.
It has become mildly insane
just how accentuated the whole of you has become
from hours, days, even weeks of not talking
makes no difference
we still connect
not seeing but somehow knowing all.
I have begun to dream again
actually dream not drown in nightmares
with the subject being the same
I can't explain how very strange it has all been.
Of course I don't have many answers
but with intuition and my hope
being singled out and made clear
knowing everything I can choose
it all comes down to you.
From that very first night
after sliding down the hillside
fingertips sliding up my thigh
spinning colors and little sighs
the realization that I hadn't been alright
we knew something
no apparent reason why
but that it was there
something drew and pulled us in
hook, line, sinker and we were finished.
I want to pick up where we left off.
We have the capability to achieve
beyond what our thoughts could comprehend.
My fear subsides, washed away with the tide, and here I am.
Fully ready to dive in.