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May 2022 · 142
Dark Chocolate & Violins
Shiloh May 2022
I find myself too often
complaining on the daily
about the broken world in which we live
where violence is easy

The other day I caught myself
in a moment of being happy
feeling lucky about
being able to trust again

I find freedom in reliance
in the mutual agreement
to cherish someone to the fullest
I found our sacred place

The string that connects us
even over distance
the ease in which it all fell into place
was honestly magnificent

Sometimes it hurts when I can't describe
how vast my love for you really is
so deep and sweet and beautifully natural
like dark chocolate and violins

I'm discovering myself
while talking to you every day
but as I start to feel brand new
stretching and fluttering my wings
I keep hitting that crash landing

These are my dreams
You are making them come true
and sometimes I still can't believe
that I am one for you too
May 2022 · 130
Romantisized.
Shiloh May 2022
Love is love.
Yet I love it.
After all this time it still drives me.
I don't need it, like air
I can observe it from over there
Go on with my day, like any other.
But I seek it and want it and
see fire when I fall

I've been beaten, ******, and blue
But I won't believe that it's true
That it's no big deal
That I'm making it into something it's not
May 2022 · 310
Forever.
Shiloh May 2022
is always too long too promise.
I understand the concept
of change being the only constant
not sure I can figure out
why every person insists on being involved.

Certain people are good for you
other ones are way too bad
I still believe they are there for a reason, a lesson
but do they always have to leave, once it is learned?
May 2022 · 98
Outsider.
Shiloh May 2022
Either dragging my toes or standing on the very tip of them,
Down below I can observe most things happening
Anticipating but never participating
Pacing the sidelines, circling the corners, preparing to jump.

I never see the fall until after I have crawled
back out of this darkness
but I suppose that is why
they say what they say
about hindsight
May 2022 · 102
Scar.
Shiloh May 2022
I feel no separation from my wounds.
After they have long closed over I carry them with me.
I am aware of them as if they still hurt me.
Gently moving forward with caution.
I can tell myself they are gone, and on some level I know this.
But sometimes it can be difficult when I look down and see them.
I know I am not what happened to me.
May 2022 · 122
Hear, Here.
Shiloh May 2022
Usually I need some kind of sound, to block everything else out.
Music is my lifeblood, I find great solace in the voice of my favorite fictional characters, I can feel my brain growing with online lectures...
But tonight...
My thoughts needed to find their way to the page, usually locked behind layers of fear and clutter, the past pushing everything down and fighting to get out, but I doubt I could let it get to that point again...
May 2022 · 112
Tricked.
Shiloh May 2022
Not looking for this love
has become tried and true
there were lots of reasons why
I never seemed to want to try
but you obliterated that whole train of thought.

Not letting myself see before
convinced myself, I was so sure
that I had this figured out
leaving little room for doubt
you came, you saw, and oh the love you brought.

Two thousand miles was nothing to you
knowing what I needed, you little sneak
you tiptoed 'round my heart, crept behind it
and grabbed on with all you got.
May 2022 · 90
Seventeen.
Shiloh May 2022
The irony of the day and the age when we met doesn't escape me.
I can't foresee this bringing happiness at least for a while.
Now being on the far side of this avalanche, I am aware.
What this experience bubbled up inside me, I needed.
I am not what happened to me.
May 2022 · 75
Serenity.
Shiloh May 2022
Shadows cast upon me in the moonlight
The cold is friendly and chills me to the bone
Adventure is always calling me
But I will stay right here
May 2022 · 60
Head Above Water.
Shiloh May 2022
I actually danced tonight
like nobody was watching
because that is where I am
in the shadows, kept secret.

But I am my own and I prefer it that way
I feel lighter now that I know the truth
I choose now not to look back
for if I slow down I just might drown.
May 2022 · 63
dreamscape
Shiloh May 2022
I keep having them
in which you appear,
more vindictive
more spiteful
than before.
It somehow feels
stale
you can sense the distance
but you desire to shove that in my face
keep trying to show me
how you can hurt me
as if that proves something

But all it does is show
how strongly you hold tight
to your anger
and it bores me.

Even though you probably saved my life
and at the time were chilled fresh air
when I was suffocating
too much time has passed but I learned
that even he was better than you.

That finally tells me more about myself
which is something I've been looking for
for so long.
Dec 2021 · 84
Cherish.
Shiloh Dec 2021
I am lonely.
Solitary, confined, empty.
Alive, warm, home.
I am lucky.
This I know.

But this endless middle ground
habitual uncertainty
all I want is to be found
will he or won't he
and I sink beneath the ground
sickening to say the least
somewhere inside I have a voice
but not one soul is around
no one left to ask me.

Once again I'm drawn within
I see with blurry eyes
their plane crashed and I die inside
for a love I have never known
and maybe never will.

I observe as he gets mad
not knowing what to say
it makes me laugh because I know
he loves her every day
as time passes they will grow
while being side by side
and I am left just by myself
swimming against the tide.

There was a time their life was threatened
and they could have lost it all
but now it seems she's lost to us
so our hearts will take the fall.
The love they share is like no other
holding onto what is real
I dream about it on the daily
pink and blue is what I feel.

My mind hangs on by a thread.
As each day comes to an end.
Going over what was said.
People care, but aren't aware.
Avoid and swerve, as if I care,
I'm reaching out, but nothing's there.
J&J & Flight
Sep 2021 · 83
Bittersweet
Shiloh Sep 2021
It wasn't me
can be hard to remember
sometimes when even comparing
sideways the things that are better
than other toxic hard to reach folks
but now I know.

There was nothing I could do
it didn't take much
I could have been sweet
given in, broken down
agreed with what you thought you had to say
I now know it wouldn't have changed a thing
you would have found a way.

This whole entire time
I have always been better than you
and you have known it
which is sadly why
you retaliated the only way
you could figure out
and it has finally caught up to you.

Good Riddance.
I'm Free.
Sep 2021 · 70
Pure
Shiloh Sep 2021
I live in the past
romanticizing the ways
when people hurt
and inevitably
left
I thought I understood
I thought it was just a matter of time
missing them terribly
but somehow never
asking myself why

I found some old forgotten pictures
of myself in moments previously
entirely lost and hard to hold onto
sneaky smiles
optimism or hope
some pain as if
asking my future self
to stop before it was too late
(spoiler I didn't)

then I caught one
where my most honest form
shone through everything else
yes I wasted time
indeed I made mistakes
but how have I gone this long
without knowing
I am in fact worthy
I belong here
I am good
Feb 2021 · 105
Black Cherry
Shiloh Feb 2021
The moonlight is somehow pink
but only in the air around me
somehow I wish you were still here
even though I know there is far
too much that will never be said
no matter how badly I want to

Everybody hurts me when they leave
and in the end, they all do
but so far none has left me hollow
quite the way it did when I walked away
and still, it feels like being ripped apart
from something I've realized I never knew

The balance has shifted and fallen
my potential left untouched
what I need is ignored
what I have to give
being slowly forgotten
who will find me?

or shall I simply disappear?
Mar 2020 · 86
Notes
Shiloh Mar 2020
I write them
I look back
Scattered pieces across every single one of them
There you are
In my thoughts left unexpressed
In all words better left unsaid
Still not sure how this could happen
Not only once but all over again
And yet I rewind myself daily
To remember
That the next time
Love stumbles my way
To close my eyes
Dive in head first
As if I never have before.
Nov 2019 · 117
Exhaust
Shiloh Nov 2019
I no longer have the energy
you have taken it from me
to lift my fingers
to motivate the string
of words that used to flow so easy

I have cried myself dry
I no longer see why
I should keep believing.
Sep 2019 · 161
Corner.
Shiloh Sep 2019
The very first rule
has been broken
that you made
in the first place.

When waking up in the morning
is all that I can do sometimes
when breathing hurts so badly
when I know I cannot cry
because I will not stop.

My faith in being honest never wavers
no matter how many souls
lie to
cheat on
deceive
leave
prey on
abuse
ghost


In love I still believe
but I think you have finally convinced me.

You may feel backed in a corner
but I have no way out.
Jul 2019 · 174
Sneak
Shiloh Jul 2019
I see the difference
the path you now walk on
how important it is that you stay moving
you see all the small details
yet you fly right by me

I've been here
I'll be here

I don't even know what it is that I should do
but I know you
and I can do this.
Jul 2019 · 212
First and Third
Shiloh Jul 2019
What is left to consider
Where you think I'm resisting
I'm testing the resilience
You don't have to drag anything out
It's all there directly under the surface
All you have to do is swim.
Jul 2019 · 310
Wishful Thinking
Shiloh Jul 2019
There are so many reasons not to
might even be easier that way
but there is something stirring in me
deeper than I have ever let myself go

but do I say so
Jul 2019 · 117
Secret.
Shiloh Jul 2019
It is not
that I have no faith in people
that I won't be close to them
any of them

or that I think I can find it again
I just don't want to
my focus is elsewhere
life is about wherever that takes me

but then here you are
didn't even wish for this
and if you ever asked me...
...that is.
Jun 2019 · 90
Sunflowers.
Shiloh Jun 2019
I didn't know nearly enough
of Things I Wish I Knew About You
But that wouldn't have stopped me from trying.

You've changed me.
I didn't even know what I was looking for
when I found you.

When you thought you were too much
I just think about all the time we had
I could have always had more

I don't know how, but you match me
made me smile when I forgot how to laugh
raised my standards when I was at my lowest
raising my spirits to see your shine

Lately I've been questioning everything
going through all of this blind
but I would never forgive myself

if I were to just let this fade away.

I may not know everything there is to know
Who says that I need to
I just know you set my soul on fire.

You started something
then you finished it
I have no regrets

I will always miss you.
Happy Dappy Birthday, Abigail.
May 2019 · 366
Colorblind.
Shiloh May 2019
Whenever I revisit this
Finding myself frozen stiff
Free of time, where is my mind
Sickened by the simple fact that
You lied.

Giving you my tedious sympathies
When you thought I didn't know
While still revealing parts of me
That let my colors show

I watched it all from your backstage
Drawn to the drama, such intrigue
I can't deny, it felt sublime to be on your side
But then the clock was ticking...

For not too long, we weren't too strong
Before you started to bare your teeth
To show the world how cruel you are
Yet you are dull and bald and desolate.

At no moment was I surprised
So before you think you were a threat,
or some kind of warning
I hope you know it took not even one whole morning
To mourn losing
The idea
Of you

Assuming you were hidden well
Behind a curtain that you crafted
With thick fabric and the smell of smoke
Magic tricks and beanie caps
Actually turned out to be
Vacant and transparent spells

So don't you forget
I have stepped into your dark
Stuck and sticky with your tar
When your concern left you smitten
Thinking that you would stay hidden
Saying you could never lose me
Well I have seen the jejune you
And if I tell you my truth

There is simply nothing there.
The best thing that could have happened to you
was that this rhymed.
Dec 2018 · 254
From Long Ago
Shiloh Dec 2018
here I am
supposedly waiting
no idea what for
getting distracted by
silly sentimental giggles
tickling what I keep inside me
serenity spinning on the merry-go-round
surrounded by love reaching out
pass the hits by fingertips one by one
I close my eyes
barely surprised
as a kiss touches my lips
2013
Nov 2018 · 427
Fragmented.
Shiloh Nov 2018
One day the sun and I rose in synchronicity
and I stretched up as the light shone down
warming the cracks along my back
from everyone who broke me.

Suddenly it came on strong
the flowing knowing of why I am alive
I speak it as my truth because I can't make this **** up
but I caught on to this notion while the pieces make up all I am.

With you it was the first time in life I could breathe easy
as if I could lean back, close my eyes and finally relax
Noticing all the right small things
I knew you saw me, who I was and could be.

I thought I could trust it because it was imperfect
my secrets glimmered in the dark and you crawled there too
that even though we didn't choose to be human
we could find solace in choosing each other.

I'm not one for being out in the open
my way is to keep my feels on lock and throw away the distraction
then you introduced me to encouragement
and like you and sleep deprivation I was done.

It's all about perspective
I learned you were the light and I the reflection
you act as if I could extract you
to go back to before we met.

Someday I hope you realize I can't just choose love
I am love, unequivocally, eternally, inside and out.
Oct 2018 · 159
Simple.
Shiloh Oct 2018
Just a simple



I miss you



Would be nice.
Sep 2018 · 162
Cherry.
Shiloh Sep 2018
The walls are dry and strong
I test them with tentative fingers
as if they could hold up my insecurities
But my knees
are beneath
all I feel
is weak
and I just
want to sleep
until you tell me you love me again.
Oct 2017 · 286
Never.
Shiloh Oct 2017
I can barely breathe
the passion is dripping
past my defenses
I wish I could tell you

it has never left.

Even though you did
not once but twice
and picked up the pieces
walked over the stones

in your path that we kept.

You made something new
to be honest I'm jealous of you
I wish I could distance
myself and my heart

but I've still only wept.

Yet I hope for the best
I crave that you say
words that need to be said
take the lead,

for my love has never left.
May 2017 · 270
Running
Shiloh May 2017
Still can't sleep at night
Something keeps me going
Lingered in the moments
Traced back in my thoughts

I can taste it with my fingers
But the reason why escapes me
Slips away so slowly
But somehow focus only

On how lonely
I've been allowed to become
Obsessed with
The last vestige

Of the happiest I have ever been.

So knowing how long it takes
Calculating all the stakes
Letting myself escalate
As I dream of running

Never wanting to wake up.
May 2017 · 540
Ours.
Shiloh May 2017
I had a moment yesterday
where I had something to say
to you.

But you can never know.

So I came up with this concept
to keep in mind, keep to yourself
if you want to get to know me
not gonna mention date me, love me
I have a list of don't you dares.

Don't bother telling me
your favorite bands
  I can't even learn of
new music from you
I need to be able to listen to
good music
after you're gone.
We won't have our song.

Don't tell me what you like to eat
in fact, tell me what you can't stand
it will be hard enough
eating at all
when you leave
I'll need to enjoy something
I know would be
Wasted on you
Like I do

I don't need to know what you smell like
You don't need to come to my place
Because then when you leave
I won't have to upheave
All my stuff that you left with your trace

Let's never go to the same spots
We don't need our own special place
It's hard enough to get out on my own
Without memories tied to your claims

Please don't ever give me anything
Material items at least
Because I only have myself to give away
And I've already been picking up the pieces

For hours, and ours.
May 2017 · 1.3k
Quiet
Shiloh May 2017
Moments like these
it really hits home
I am loved
but completely alone.

I know I should feel lucky
I have a roof above me
but since the day you went away
just haven't felt enough to be happy.

It's interesting to think about
that I no longer have any doubt
if I wanted to be without
life or feeling or that pesky thing breathing

In this moment I would have peace.

It would take at least all night for someone else to go through any pain because of me.

I could be free.

But yet here I am.
Apr 2017 · 3.8k
Connection Error
Shiloh Apr 2017
Most days I feel like a loading screen
I mean I always go in circles
move slow
end up
blank.

I have too much data stored
my memory is low
I need to send but no message is received
and all my files are corrupt.

Every soul I've met
has left me wanting
craving to know more
for that connection

But I will get the error 404
that tells me I have system failure
and once again I'll have to restart
try again.

Yet as I walk through doors
I'm left standing in the hallways
chasing the taste of laughter
only catching up with silence

Still I'm left with hope
for what's around that corner
even with charred fingertips
I turn those handles

Must be a glitch in my matrix
because even though I try
I can't erase my hard drive
and while all the nothing between us
still lingers...

I keep seeking corners.
Feb 2017 · 333
Grievances.
Shiloh Feb 2017
Vacantly I stare
Through the atmosphere
Into all other worlds
Not my own.

All I need is to breathe
But I'm swimming in fear
No hope in letting go
What I have known has been stolen.

With no guidance or trust
In what needs to be, must
The worried whisper in my ear
money, money, money...

In my heart I know
Love is the flow
But see only tears in my eyes
As those Spacious Skies

Turn into burning orange lava
Overnight.
This is what happens at 3 in the morning but at least I'm writing...

Wish me better words later, please
Jan 2017 · 262
Eternal.
Shiloh Jan 2017
Standing my ground
While the winds flow right through me
Enveloped by the night
The cold no longer bothers me
I seek it out willingly

As I lean back
To sleep for eternity.
Jan 2017 · 275
Blind Sighted.
Shiloh Jan 2017
Mostly I'm just overwhelmed
With avoidance
Feeling spells
Coming at me from all sides

Blindsided

I have to be careful with
Losing myself in all this
Scared it could turn out to be
Such utter responsibility

Blind Sighted

But one thing in all this time
I have noticed that all my
Fears and Doubts come from my Past
Only knowing longing last

Blindsided

My life is turning out to be
More than I could ever need
Instead of jealousy and stress
Massive love bursts out at best

Now what comes next I can't forsee.
Jan 2017 · 278
Help.
Shiloh Jan 2017
To my future
All I see
Is empty

Blank space

Quiet sighs
Of disappointment

All I've ever felt the need for is guidance
Not able to shoulder my burden on my own
Not knowing the right questions to ask
Never having a hand to hold

Most people fear what I feel surrounding
The dark and the silent I dance in
To drift would be so easy
Yet it would break everything I have built

I have the courage but lack the design
Of a mind for cleanliness
Could never leave another to my mess
So here. I am.

Yet how do I be...
Oct 2016 · 304
Me.
Shiloh Oct 2016
Me.
Ever so slowly...
Starting to feel like myself again
It seems the smallest things
can make me smile
Let me sink
into my skin
All the anxiety
Won't let it get to me
In the end it's not my style
No longer longing
Only belonging
in this moment
Mine.
Oct 2016 · 282
F(ishy)
Shiloh Oct 2016
Something isn't right here
if I squint my eyes and
take a deep breath
it's almost like I could just forget
that this whole time has been spent
aching for you
but it never was you really
how the hell could it be
just an idea
and I made it such a good one
which is why I always kept trying

Something doesn't smell right
I smell getting used to
never really trying
because you know I'm always around
My love for you was Somewhere Bound
I guess it just got lost in translation
that is how you got yourself
so **** ingrained
into my soul
I had always wanted a sister
but that requires talking, ever

Honestly I'm sorry
you never got to know me
and in the end
it's all on you.
First of many, I'm sure. This hurts.
Mar 2016 · 707
Wasted.
Shiloh Mar 2016
I don't really have insomnia
I just live with regrets
even though I know I shouldn't
my time would be better spent

I sometimes dream of things
what it would be like if
we had never met

Or if those few moments
led to something different,
anything would be better
nothing about you to be drawn to

I know what I have learned
through my youth
wasted on you
there is just that one thing...

I've been driven insane
gnawing on the concept
willing to live through the horror again
just to be given the chance to change it

It has been said I'm where I need to be
but this has held me back
I can't even give myself sympathy
because I know I'm just pathetic

I need to shine my light again
but the panic settles in
between that and the sleepless nights
I can't say that I will be fine

I never thought I'd be condemned
by giving everything I am
ridiculed for what gave me strength
dampening the flames at long length

If I had known all it would take
I'd have stepped on your stones long ago
I bet you didn't expect that you'd help make
someone better than you'll ever know.
Mar 2016 · 1.2k
Useless Information
Shiloh Mar 2016
Remove
Recover
Resolve
Replace
Relocate
Relapse
Rebound
Recycle
R­ewind
Rewire
Relearn
Refund
Rekindle
Resound
Respond
Renegade
Rel­ax
Rinse
Repeat.
Mar 2016 · 676
Untitled
Shiloh Mar 2016
I miss you like the honeydew
forever staring back at you
dribbling over fingertips
letting just one moment slip
into a smile, quietly kept.
Dec 2015 · 662
TimeLine.
Shiloh Dec 2015
It always seems to be a linear thing
but the way it feels is so no longer
bubbling in discombobulated emotions
I could sit here forever
the truth would still be the same
I grew so timid of the normal
peeking through my fingers
at the thought of being seen
judgments and routine
getting the better of me
I now recognize
not what lay before me
but who I'll be
walking through time.
Dec 2015 · 514
Cassie.
Shiloh Dec 2015
Your voice is like a waterfall
I envy the way you smile
focus
on things that are never in the forefront
your fingers dancing in the wind
like you can see the soundwaves
or hear the colors of others thoughts
there is loaded silence in so many people
you know the unspoken words in ****** expressions
always finding a reason to be happy
even though not many really pay attention
you've grown used to that
always in the background
observing
riding a wavelength all your own
I have a lot I can learn from you
to grow into myself
I'm grateful for your creation.
Inspired by Cassie from the U.K. Skins.
Dec 2015 · 516
Met·a·mor·pho·sis
Shiloh Dec 2015
Things play back in my head a whole lot
whether or not I give them permission to
I try and shut the blinds close my eyes
but they keep on poking through
this time around it's not as scary
just groundbreaking and unsettling
you are alien to me because you are healthy
a change for me I can't see happening
what truth lies before me
is past continually unraveling
I have been ruined by others
emotionally sore rotten to the core
waiting for
something to push me forward
I was always aware of the lessons
that I needed to go through
but slower than I ever handled
because I realized no one else was worth it
but you...
my shell had grown hard
always accustomed to defense
built tiny fences growing tall
protecting myself from it all
enjoying solitude until made to feel small
useless worthless pointless ruthless
I have let my dear fear hold me back from
basically everything
white-knuckled, foam-at-the-mouth
to my bad habits, I cling
but still the universe aligned
with what stirred in the back of my mind
you were right about taking this time
but I can't live this way, not anymore
I have no idea who this is turning me into
but that is not really the point.
Libby is responsible for this, couldn't sleep because she was pulling me towards these words, started to write then I saw she came back on here herself.
I love this woman.
Sep 2015 · 347
Reserved Restraint.
Shiloh Sep 2015
I can't cry like I need to.
Something is begging to be let out,
but I can't identify it.
I can't write about it.
I can't help myself knowing what this will all come to anyway.
Self fulfilling prophecy seeking
not even knowing what that means.
Wishing to startle and scare those
aching for a difference
just to get a reaction
not caring one bit if I come off as mean or
spiteful or
vindictive.
I welcome the beauty of the negative.
The truth has been in the back of my thoughts.
It doesn't want to come out.
It smiles at my pain.
I try to cause more to compete.
I always have to fight
combat
even if it's just with myself.
Wanting those that love me most
to look at me with disgust
asking why I would even bother
that feels like my true self right now.
I have never allowed myself to explode fully.
Kneading at the need for release.
Clawing at the corners of my existence.
Swaying back and forth repeating nonsense.
None of this makes any sense.
What am I?
Scribbles and scratches of what once was.
I mourn with no feeling.
I go through the daily motions like I should.
With fog in my eyes and ice in my heart.
I watch as I know what should be my path.
Recognizing the signs, choosing not to turn.
I keep walking on the wrong side of the tracks.
I don't ever intend to look back.
I have outgrown and grown old.
The me in this outcome has no substance.
But something is rising.
Over it, I have no control.
I will be let known when the time comes.
For that I can actually feel one thing
Terrified.
I crave to be alone if I so choose.
But to be left alone I just can't stand.
Dying to be bound and left under water.
I don't think I can handle my thoughts any longer.
Sep 2015 · 355
Victory.
Shiloh Sep 2015
Once again you have won.
Not my heart this time, but the sanctity of my soul.
I am my own enemy in my mind.
Easily bothered, can't be touched,
acting like I want to lash out at everyone...
This is ******.
I can clearly see, how I am supposed to be
the actual being inside that screams.
I knowingly know change is the only constant.
But I can't move, breathe or see things clearly.
My Self is forcing its own reflection.
It was easy to erase you from my life.
Ever since that moment, it's all been bright.
I can taste the edge of happiness,
I recognize the idea once again.
However the nightmares creep ever closer.
You seep into the cracks of my night.
I may have won by losing you.
But you have successfully destroyed who I want to be.
Aug 2015 · 501
Janelle
Shiloh Aug 2015
she whispers to me, like it's a secret
but we both know that it's not
she hums with desire

the beauty in her black has long left me in awe
with so many wounds she finds the strength
to get up and smile through the beautiful days

she does it all so flawlessly, soaked with class
her laugh vibrates within me
I've longed to get in between her ripped up fishnets

there is no one on earth like her
with all the good lighting up her heart
it makes me realize this cant be the first time

we have wiggled in many lives
for souls like hers never die
she's my sister, all you other ******* ain't got ****.

she turns eighteen today, loving us in many ways
I hope she get's what I'm trying to say
in my sloppy, ragged poetic mind

she whispers to me, like it's a secret
but we both know that it's not
"I'm awesome." she says.

"I've always known." I whisper back.
Jul 2015 · 416
Disconnect.
Shiloh Jul 2015
you say you feel disconnected
do you really wonder why?
all you talk about is what I owe you
I've had it with your filthy lies

so just in case you are left
with your ******* thumb up your ***
here is what went down:
to put it simply...

you helped me realize my dreams
only to dangle them in front of me
to have one up, to feel the bigger man
all you have actually gained is
fear and disrespect
I loathe you, never have I been able to
fully say that before
and mean it
all that's left behind your eyes
are those ******* dollar signs
the actions you take to
"get you back for all you have done to me"
far outweigh my consequences
your priorities are skewed
and who the hell are you
to condemn me to such darkness
you must have forgotten what it takes
to fully get me to that place
where I seek serenity
and fully trust a human being
driving at top speed
screaming you were going to **** me
telling me I deserve to go to jail
just to see how it felt
well
how do you feel?
knowing you have truly
severed this connection.
Jun 2015 · 371
Hollow.
Shiloh Jun 2015
I think about it
but I can't move
I try to cry
but it's still too soon
the music has fallen flat
there are just too many things
I still can't get past
the room is spinning
I'm terrified to find
the only cure
will be escaping myself
but I can't be sure
you took everything
the start of the spark
that began in a pure place
deeply hidden from my heart
you kept taking
lying, demanding and stealing
it all kept adding up
to this horrible feeling
you kept pushing
so you came to understand
all that was left of me
was my blood on your hands
you changed all of the good times around
forced me to face your darkness
burning the love that remained
scarring the pain to my skin.

Because of you I trust no one.
healing process.
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