in my dream the headlights have passed
taking grief whizzing by
winding me breathless into yellow
the warm kind, Gladys used to wear.
He asks me, smiling, sunny
how is Jonny
Oh he’s quite well I say.
But they already knew
yellow corn grows teeth and smiles
Bites, the grief teasing flesh, only hard
enough to draw a little blood.

Oh sister dearest,
Who art thou?
For I no longer recognize
The eyes
Once so green, now
Seething,
Echos of your own hell fire
With which you have allowed to consume you

Where did the green meadows go?
You loved animals, you wanted to be loved .
I miss you sister, sister

Sister dearest died in her sleep in 2012. Oh how
I miss her so.

Loving an addict is a cancer
It confuses your body
To attack yourself

Who is this and where did
That sun go
I swear I saw it ! Did I ?
You’re killing me because I
Am watching you-
Decompose

sometimes suicide
is screaming
I hate you
To the mirror
And carrying on with your day.

Wind rushes past glass
Tiny cuts I dream drops
Of scarlet
The faster I ran red
Red
Red

a haunted girl is a home
some still stay., the ones she loves
they dwell in the mist
she stays away from her beloved ghosts
she still loves , of course

summer rotted under my tongue
dissolved into autumn
I am ready READY!!
Ready for the decay
the rot
Leaves bleed and fall to their ends
barren trees, cold
still silence
The decomposition of Anna
Thank you , fall
Falling into winter
I will not freeze alone
when you freeze to death you feel warm at the very end