i feel most like myself in skin covered in tattoos
skin you once ruined by your touch
the art on my body will never feel your cruel hand
skin that will never crawl with your presence
lines and colors that you cannot trace
beauty created on spaces that used to burn at the touch of your fingers
tattoos that you will never get to see
scars you will never get to feel
skin that will never be scrubbed in desperate hopes to feel clean again
reclaiming the space that you will never feel again
decorating my body, my home
that you will never intrude on again

no one talks about the soul crushing want to be loved

while also having the want to never love again

my biggest fear
is that i spend every day giving away more love
than i’ll ever receive

i hope that someday you find your peace
and you find your forever
even if it's not with me
i'd rather have a little of you
than none at all

it’s a terrible thing
to be filled with so much love
desperate for someone to pour it into

i want to love someone
i want to love someone so gently that they think of me at every soft breeze
i want to love someone with the patience they so badly need
i want to love someone in a way that both of us will look back at and smile
i want to love someone with the kindness that i believe everyone deserves
i want to love someone with the same amount of love in their heart as mine
i want to love someone in the exact way i want to be loved
i want to love someone
someone like you.

we all heal in the way we need
but always remember
those who choose not to heal
are not worth the risk to your own healing