the grip of grief can be inescapable
but you’ve shown me the amount of love
that grief carries with it

you remove its wicked claws
just to hold its hand
you feel the pain of the stab but don’t move

you carry it on your shoulders with honor
because the lack of grief
is the lack of love

grief cannot exist without love
love cannot exist without grief
you find love in everything that you grieve

there is love in grief
and laughter
and light

you show me that
you guide me through
my light in grief

i will look for reflections of you in every love i have in every lifetime. my soul is forever bound, at home, with yours.

i hope that in every lifetime
every lover i have
is a reflection of you

you tear my heart to shreds
but you’re the only one who can ever
put it back together again

every word feels like a knife
cutting through my chest
searing white hot pain

i can’t stop myself from loving you
needing you
it has to be you.

do you ever think about how we know everything about each other yet we live our lives as strangers?

i remember being gentle
being kind
not a single word i spoke was angry
i was soft
and sweet
and quiet

i don’t remember becoming cold
learning to be so mean
filling my words with venom and razors
i stopped being soft
and sweet
and quiet

i wish i never left my heart unguarded
i wish i could be gentle again
i miss when love came easy

it is so exhausting
trying to live in a society
that was created to destroy us