I am just trying to find myself in a world with 7 billion people
How ****** is that

Here I lay  The smoke from a waning cigarette curls ever upwards  My eyes see your smile My ears hear your laughter My mind finds you in this late hour Funny how it works Within the same thought a fleeting image in my mind My heart is lifted and my spirits dampened with pain

I cannot love you
Like I desire
I cannot lay my emotions bare at your feet
Circumstances conviently bear the blame
I cannot love you because I cannot love myself

I fear I have fallen
Fallen for what I cannot have

I have confessions to make
You radiate a beauty not before seen by mine eyes
Natural flawless by way of imperfection
I see you
I respect and admire you
Your drive, your intelligence
Travelled and educated I revel in your opinions
And take high stock in your solutions
I wish to come to know you better
Your eyes invite me
I see you've been hurt before
As too I
I wish no harm no anger between us
I would wish a million happy days for you
This is my confession you will never read
These my concessions of love

To say I feel different,
May be a coy understatement
To say I've fit in
Is to be blind to my shape shifting
I wander this earth
Like a rambler of songs long ago sang
In dusty bars under the stars and behind closed doors
Better at breaking hearts and destroying the love created
Than lifting from the ashes
Save myself.
A goal long ago abandoned
I embrace my mind and my conscience
Though pure neither are
Still I wait to be saved by love
I wait
I wait
I wait
No anger to beheld
No reason to get even
No reason to leave
Every reason to live
Every reason to trust
Every reason to love

I miss you. Yet know not your name.

What is it to say I love?
I love many things, and experiences
But a word "love" only goes so far
My heart knows and my soul reaches out forever
Please take my hand walk beside me in the valley of the shadow of death
I am not here to lead you, nor you I
I do not own you, nor you I
I need no gold no paper to show my meaning to you
Struggles are of flesh, bone and spirit
Not of paper and gold
I wish to discover myself in you
And I wish yourself discovery in me