Peace on earth
Once the bombs fall
We can't be wrong
You could never be wrong
And as the world draws to close
On its last spin
The bombs are smiling
Knowing we can't be right
Carry in your arms
Such preconcieved notions
As the money of nations
Becomes the dust
Once the bombs fall
Peace on earth

We always wanted a utopia

I speak with a heart
Connectedness
I speak with a heart
I breathe with a heart

Its beating my heart
Its beating my heart

I see in my dreams
Connectedness
I feel in my dreams
I'm real in my dreams

Its beating my heart
Its beating my heart

All that's strange will go away
Our blood a different color
And even with my eyes
You can't see
In our difference
Will go away
Connectedness
Connectedness

I speak of the truth
Connectedness
And without the words
There is love

Its beating my heart

Im as empty now as I've ever been
I see no choice worth making
And the world around me changing
Until my stars are not in the place
                                      They've always been
                                      It's always been
                                      The moon always hung lower
                                      Than I remember
A perfect day

I'm as hopeless now as I'll never be
And I wake up all the same
When I sleep without a meaning
And my dreams are not my strength
                                    They've always been
                                    It's always been
                                    And without a reason
                                    I find you there


A perfect day

King and kingdom
Fall apart while I still see straight
I know that bones are all the same
Only memory
Never name
Our inaccurate history
Our most hated fate

Becomes mine
Becomes me
Our whole lives spent on becoming
I once was king

I once held
Until my hands grew weak

Source and sorcery
I held noble aim of heart
Uncorrupted
Uncharted
Unknown
I was once king
If only in my mind
If only in my dreams

Even though the clouds
Clouds announcing your arrival
Have disappeared
Have fallen into sullen blues
And the furthest reaches of heaven
I will always feel the storm they brought
The destruction which they wrought

The rain will always put me under

The soil accepts the pain
As way to regeneration
It only stings my skin
While it slowly brings my end
As though the flowers bloom
Im only left to whither further
And each part of hope I held becomes such bitter rot

The rain will always put me under

I only learned of the stars
Because the way in which I saw them
Was something beautiful to you
I only know when it rains
There is no ceiling
Only grey
Only thunderbolts and lightning to change my faith
Into something lesser
I only feel every drop
Because there is no sky at night
I'm only me alone
And you alone

The rain will always put me under

This is a song
Where I've lost most everything
But all I really need
Is a cigarette

And as I'm painting glorious pictures
As I'm waltzing through the hills
I find existence
In my own mind

Lowly low
How the wall of Jericho
Came crashing down

I'm underneath the surface
With all the air that I can breath

This is a psalm
A sacred scripture
Where the moon that rises high
Is not always full

But its full tonight
And I find colors in the dark
I find peace
That cannot be

Height of highs
God is found in love and song
And abandoned temples

I'm trapped and conquered
And feeling free

What kind of demon is this?
That stays in the house
Where words are mostly broken glass
And right or left goes too far
What kind of devil is this?
That lives in the lobby
With subversive tactics
And the root of all evil

You can be right
And its all wrong
You can be left

It doesn't matter how it happens
In the end
The devil wins

Its the world I love
That I don't know

Its the time

Its the teeth of the wicked
Its the hopes of the holy

Its my eyes

Glaring

I can not find a way to **** myself slowly
That I am comfortable with

Its years

Years

Its only what it always was
Its only finding out

Its my becoming

The thing I fear the most......

Only the sickness growing
Do we see it now?
On the surface of the moon
In the depths of the sea
How fall so quickly comes to winters gloom
Its only death
On the tongue
Of the people
Speak it now
                           Forever hold your breath

Its only sickness growing
Do we fear it now?
In our cars on the road
And our planes in the sky
How we'll never really get to where we are going
Its only death
Only life
Only hate
Metastasize

Only sickness growing
Do we feel it now?
In our ever aging bones
As a poison in our blood
How our hearts will always fail our living dream
Its only death
On the tongue
Of the people
Speak it now
                          Forever hold your breath

Do not mourn long for the poet
This world was never made for men as him
Dare see future in destruction
Dare see pleasure in the pain
To be
Was all his only dream

Do not mourn long for the poet
But celebrate and find the truth he hid
So clever in his words
The beatific symbols
Which reveal
The ugliness of the world

Do not mourn long for the poet
Who no longer can create as the world dissipates
And the unknown will be
The only place he
Can ever have the hope
His soul may be at ease

Do not mourn long for the poet
His words were there long before his time
He was just the one to write them down
His future
Was only
Overcome the past

I think my eyes have been closed
Too close
And far too long
I haven't seen the sun rise
I've forgot the morning
And in this midnight
I'm losing count
There is no way
There is not now or there could never be
Nor would there ever be
No how
Nothing
I would ask for peace
Or plead for love
But all I really need
Is just the hope
I can stay warm
Until the morning comes

We roam
The alleys in the night
And find the darkest place
A name without a face
An island

We lose
Because god is on our side
And stars are only remnants of the sun
That we wish on
An ocean........
              Is the

I am an island
But water only drowns
I am an island
Without an ocean

Die
Because the world
Why?
Because the world can't allow it
                           Now

I see color
In the darkest
And I know life and love
I see generations
Heard stories
Felt death

Live
And words
Live
And life
Live
And money
Live
And all conniving interest yell
Live

And fight

Tomorrow
In some forsaken sandlot
In some unforgiving parking lot
In some hell
I'll find heaven
In death

Live

Because tomorrow's brighter sun
Found a cloud
And only one way.around

Live

With very few words
Too much is said
I watch like an eagle
Fly over your head
Disillusionment is a beginning

But not a very good one

Hope
Was such a meaningful device

I used to like the sound of spring
We sit under the muscadine
The flowers only bloom
We too
We too

I watched with youthful vision
Thinking this
Is why I'm living
And love was merely matephor
For life

I used to like the sound of spring
The wrens and in the citrus grove
The honeysuckles sweet
We too
We too

I felt in jubilation
Thinking this
Is my salvation
And hope was born with every sun
Will rise

I've read many a book since then
Suffered many a scar

I used to like the sound of spring
I used to

It was strange imagination that led you to me
Too many miles and even more borders
I didn't dream
But I believe
My fingers only reaching through such space
My violent star in the night
Fiery, burning with passions
I couldn't see
What I felt
My love
This combustion
Internal
This raging source of light
Shine over me
My violent star in the night
I'm only skin to feel your heat

I am alive
Despite it
I have such hope

And there is no corner of darkness
Light can not reach
I am alive

So in our sorrow
In our pain
In our struggle

Won't we dance?

And celebrate the good things in life

Every sound is music
Every rhythm a drum
And we dance

Through the fire and through the flood
We dance
We are alive

Now in our gloom
And our doom
And despondence

Won't we dance?

So many things to celebrate in life

We know the way a mind works
This is the ultimate weapon
We keep piling the hours on
Your head doesn't move

I would that my heart were pure
But my darkness is growing
And hunger must be sated
Anyways, in all the ways

I know that my aims are true
For better
           Or worse

We know the way of the gloom
This is our ultimate weapon
And whatever we feed you eat
Stone, stick and poison in the blood

Bones, rotten by our own attrition

I wish that my heart was pure
But, alas, it is not
So all I can really do
Is work for the betterment of my own lot

Be sure that my aims are true
Selfish desires
                Or worse

Bones rotten by our own attrition

Im surrounded by empty cigarette packs
       and you think that you're a poet
I drink because its the only way I know how
To deal with this reality
       and you think that you're a poet


I'll be dead-broke and dying
No hope left
Still ******* words that mean nothing
And have hope
Without the slightest clue as to why
God
Or just man would understand
that there is a happy end
When there isn't

I'll have hope
Even after I lose and the implode
and you think that you're a poet

How am I alive?

These arrows don't sting as they tear apart my flesh
Not too bad

I remembered to forget
To remember
I find myself on edges
And there would be a world below me
Could be
          Crush
Crush me under
Crush my life into the soil
My bones are made to be broken
I sure could use your smile
I could

These arrows don't sting as they rip at my flesh
They feel warm
The consolation
It is
  What I always knew it would be
And I suffer pain
Sitting in pale light
The moon as my son and the sun only sets
And I
      Was always right                      I always knew

These arrows pierce my heart
And point in the right direction

This little bit of time that is my life
Through hope and desperation
We only have so much
So long
And the colors can't shine bright
Forever
The sun won't always rise
My colors only fade
And maybe dreams are really all that is
I dream I live
And that I get it right

Change the red with blue
There is no truth
Besides the love me make
The love

We give

This little bit of time that is my life

Lonely raging storm
Born inside war
Eating suns
The poets cry
Meaningless
The crow dies

The greatest men will become trees
With roots eternal
Heaven provide shelter for me
The silver smiling woman

Sad knows soon
High skies breathe
Endless flame
This crooked origami
Shorelines perfection
This red flower

The greatest men not comfort stained
Of pure intention
Lead my noble crusade
With your beautiful silence

I woke up to all the symbols losing meaning
The changing lights are changed
The moon can hang low enough to reach
What can be seen
Only when we close our eyes

I have to live
Even if the lines are changing
And the scene is not the same it used to be
I have to love
I give my blood without bleeding

Take in time
A particle
A memory
The way the waves
The way the sun

I woke up to a different dream
Where the kiss of heaven brought me blue
And my life spent staring at the stars
Was all in vain
When I was only becoming

I have to live
Find god through self discovery
As the stars that hang bright over me
Hang somberly
In a different place in the sky

If the world is changing
So can I

I could never write a poem as beautiful as you are to me
Nothing man-made
Nothing in nature
Nothing can ever be

And if the universe should have an end
Maybe I'll find you there
I'm too numb to feel this pain
I'm too young to feel this hopeless

So I sit with my back to the wall and my head in my hands
Knowing about nightfall
Thunderstorms
And black holes
I could never write a happy ending

There is no truth
As the numbers all add up
The sky is it's own reward
I cannot hear the voices telling me
And I never could believe

The air is bitter
But the breath is sweet
And the sun may rise for me to find
I cannot dream the way I want
I can never fall asleep

There is no truth
Only me
And you are

There is no truth
And there could never be

Looking at every end
The sky as a broken jewel
Hanging jaws open
That I don't know
I know so well
Stranger in a prison cell
Floating on a drill
My eyes become black
Looking at every end

Left

Looking at all directions
The streets as a battlefield
The soldiers soul
The losing fight
I know so well
Blood becomes a strength to men
Justice is our god
And our beating hearts
Looking at all directions

Left

We lose life
To find
Humanity
We see wrongs and fight against
We stand together
For what we know is right
Its really all that is

Left

I remember
                         when
                                                              we      
                                                                      were friends
                                                  you      we                                                                                
                                                                        re my friend
Alpha
Meets
Beta

And I put myself in fire            you
As you hid yourself away                 re
I pit myself against the demons        
                                                                     present
                                                                                          ly

You can be
But I will be
PRESENT
to find any corner of darkness
With light

We act like it's our life
Everyday
We become less human everyday

We know what we're taught

We act like it's our life
And empty hands and empty ends
And empty goals
And emptiness

We hear what we're told

We act like it's our love
Everyday
We become less human everyday

We do as we must

We act like it's our life
And empty coffers and empty safes
And empty pockets
And emptiness

We act like it's our truth
Everyday
We become less human everyday

And if you could never die for it
You would never live

It's the coast of a sea from where she is
From where in her eyes I'm a sinking ship
Being held hostage by an ending ocean
The albatross flies lowly
In her eyelids
As witness of my stormy demise

It's the edge of the world where she is
Where she wonders at broken walls
As bitter boarders and lines on her palm
The blood that forms a nation
In her lonely mind
As empty cities and broken hearts

It's night and day from where she is
From where in her dreams the day ends slowly
The sun hangs lowly casting shadows
And the only moon in view
Whispers haunting reminders about when the day was new

This is the sunlight
Breaking clouds apart
And bursting in my eyes
Like ten million angels
Playing the most beautiful songs
In heaven and earth
Her body
I am no longer afraid of night
I see her in my dreams
And sense with everything
Even my hands
Even my heart
Her soul
And the flowers will bloom
Only when the time is right
When spring brightens the day
And melts the ice that covered the world
That covered my sight
And covered my hope
Her being
And could be
Winter is coming
But her love
I will still be warm
As all that I need
Her life
Is my life

We would see the only end
As a smiling face
A tidal wave
A new beginning
Seed that holds memory
A melody
A song worth singing
We would revel in it's glory
Embracing chapters
Familiar story
But the stones have grown cold
And a heart beat is just
We would see the only end
As a doorway
A stepping stone
A lesson learned
A childhood haunt
But sad as it seems
We only live once
And night can be much more than dark

When we crash
      Its the ground
We blame the weeds
      And the seeds
              Say its tossed in the wind
                       We say it all
                      Before we fall
Now it's collisions
Of moons
And the way gravity
Has its hold on everything
We say the crater
Is the only impact
When we crash
         It's the end
We blame the sky
         And the light
                 Say it's lost to the night
                        We say it all
                   Like it was always
Still we make our wish
On the only star
That is at fault
And no sun came too soon
This next weak
Will be the hardest of our lives

I should not be what I am right now
We can not be what we want it to be
Nothing decides what we are
A better turn fated by choice
And no one becomes what we want it to be
They only say that we are
And I am
As I'll never be

It should be better
It should

When each second of holding
Is holding too long
I change myself to the perfect night
For what's already gone
You would laugh it off and say
Its already done
But I hear the haunting remnants
Of the saddest song
How can I be strong?
How can I be strong?
The subtle dissarray
And what my life's become
When each bitter drop of black
Night that lingers on
And keeps the stars from meaning
And keeps me from the dawn
How can I be strong?
How can I be strong?
This creeping loss of feeling
And what my life's become

Her face is the haunt of my night
Her eyes
Lips
My forty foot billboard
My Vesuvius
I see moons and suns
Beginnings and ends
I see it all
And more
My great world war
And as all the soldiers breach the front
The enemy lines
The battle won
Lost
Memory
A spirit that finds me alone
In the hours after midnight
When I crave her visage
And pray to any god that may be real
Her eyes
Her skin
Her face
Her love
And I tread on
Seeing death with every morning
And no stars inside my night
Just a painful vision
And hopeless end
Her face is my marble statue fallen to dust
And I am the artist
Setting hands
To no purpose

Everyone is always talking to each other
One another
I sit in the darkest corner of a room
I want to be alone
Don't speak
Read me aloud
My lines are only etched by mortal hands
Waiting for a god to understand
I've unlocked the door
Unfastened the lock
Unhinged the chain
And waited
Everyone grows sadder everyday
In every way
I hide in whatever shadows
Content in brutal dark
I won't speak
I'll cry in silence
In black and white and strokes of pens
Waiting for what I understand is color
And love

I know this means nothing
Words I place in a certain way
My world I know
The questions which consume me
Its all nothing
The symbol
That rolls off the tongue
And rolls straight to oblivion
I will die yesterday
I'm sure I have
And I was born tomorrow
When my hands no longer empty
I hate that I feel now
I live on a world apart
Where even the sky has a name
As I don't
Let the teeth be crooked
Let the hair be thin
Let the bones be brittle
let the heart not beat
Let it be weak
As all I have to give
I know it means nothing
Just a sorrowful tale
Of how everything I know
Is only

Does this body now become a cloud
And drift over horizons
Looking for new mornings
While raining all the world he knew?
Does the sunset hold some meaning
Teaching painful lessons
About how even beautiful days
Ends in dark and dysmal night?
Do my eyes look upwards for the sky
Do my hands dig deeper in the dirt
Do I accept that most of the questions I ask
Will never be answered?

As big as it is
And bigger
I was holding onto suns
And letting go
Of universes
Each inside has an out
An easy out
A darker moon that can crowd our sleepless night
And find the feet to walk
As big as it is
Everything is
I will certainly live forever
And die tomorrow
Again and again
For the first time
And the last
While my mind paints rainbows
On the bottom of the sky
As big as it it
My fingers touch
My hands are all but empty
Holding onto something greater
And feeling the end
In beautiful beginning
The stretches reach much further than the time
And our dreams still more vast than my mind
As big as it is

All the times before
The time is now
Lessons passed from ages
Generations become a stepping stone
And man must learn
It's always a war
We win and lose
These bodies are holy trinity
As histories blood seeps through our pages
What do we know
Haven't the oceans been crossed?
Doesn't the rain fall from on high?
Don't the clouds hold hidden faces?
Will the sun sometimes shine?
It is a blue sky
It is the backs of the slaves
It is our history's tomorrow
Today that we can change
It is the death
And the loss
And the pain
It is our glory
Our redemption
A story we hear time again
But give so little attention
Become our fear from our hope
We have our chance
To make a change
And open our eyes for just the first time
To shine a light
To burn
Burn away the darkness
We have a chance
Or we don't
Man must learn

I find music in the shade
Dulcet notes and summer breeze
The flowers in bloom
The scent of a love in daylight
I meditate on the meaning
All my hope
My dream,
I haven't felt peace in a long time
Forever and the darkest night
The moon behind the clouds
The fear of a shadow lurking
All my ends
My past,
On this day
I find what god meant
When he sent his angels
To blow the trumpets
I find what I lost
When I haven't felt peace in a long time
Yet I find release
I see tomorrow
I see tomorrow
Through the darkest night
I find belief
I find there is love
Inside myself

Now be drunk
Of her great promise
She sits on waters
And rides a beast
She knows only flesh
And pleasures
The waters she sits on
The beast she rides
Are nations
Are multitudes
Are people
Are tongues
She wears purple
And in her grasp
A golden chalice
Filled with only souls demise
And in her crown you feel its greatness
In her esteem you find its joy
Yet in her filth of desecration
You find it's only hell
Do not follow her
Who would lift you with unsavory hands
Do not fornicate
Do not share your godly flesh
She is drunk off the blood
High on disease
Hateful and wretched
And wicked in ways
This ***** of Babylon
May share with you of salt
Her touch a sinful lust
And her wine intoxicates
But when the time draws high
You will share in her plague

I am nothing more to give
I've painted the sky the color of your eyes
And etched into stone your name
Blood of my veins
My love
I am nothing more to give
I've ripped half-drunken at clouds
And spelled your dreams with stars
Heart of my heart
My love
My life
I laid it all down
On the line and at your feet
I sacrificed my skin
My salvation and my sin
I gave it away
All that I feel
That is real
Until now it's no longer me
My fingertips
My heartbeat
My emptiness
The way it is
I am nothing left to give

I tie my eyes to the skies
When the wind screams so close
So far away
everyday a cast of millions
Only lonely drops of rain
Reaching for an ocean

Let me sink
Don't let me swim
Let me find an empty end
When the wind that brings the storm
Makes me smile
When the storm on the horizon
Screams my fate
And I'll be put into the ground
For once
For good

I'll feel much better
When I feel not at all
When the rain becomes my flood
And nothings left to fall
This storm that was my enemy
becomes me

I want to think that love is more than skin
As has always been my problem
I know you now
Like I knew you then
I loved you
The unloved
I've heard the song the doves cry
I've watch the clouds float swiftly by
And not a face I saw
No heaven above us all
I love you now
Like I loved you then
It's my hands
No longer touch you
It's my dreams
No longer reach you
Its my heart
No longer beating
To the rhythm of a drum
I hope that time cannot stop me
And that I make believe the truth
I feel it now

I feel it now
Like I felt it when
Your lips were artist's hands
And each color was a song
And you would say you loved me
The way that I love you
I feel it now
How it is to be on the outside
Cold and alone


It's my home
I must move on from
Its my bed
I cannot sleep
Its my heart
Now slowly beating
Now steady pounding my unease
An empty song into my brain
I hope that time is repeating
Because I see my future's pain
But I grow to doubt that I will ever know
Of joy in life again

I loved you

I hate when the world is ending
This way
Water drowns me out, my smile
I would sing my heart
If I spoke at all
But I'll never reach the edge
Like i want to
No, I dont want to feel pain
This way
Fire has it made, my smile
I would bleed my soul
If i knew at all
But I'll never see the sun
Like I want to
No, I don't want to feel pain

I dream we can do much more
This way
The man in the mirror, my smile
Stupid man in the mirror
If I looked at all
But I'll never know truth
Like I want to
No I don't want to feel pain
This way
Empty streets, empty world, my smile
Scarred skin of pleasure
If I felt at all
But I'll never feel peace
Like I want to
No, I don't want to feel pain

Only by light
Moon and star
We found our greatest dreams
To forget what they are
Is the road good?
Is the car good?
And the north star we follow
Is this our beacon?
Hollywood
The sunset boulevard
Broadway
Full of neon signs
Is the road good?
Is the car good?
Does it take me where I want to go
Or lead me to an end?

I see the swimmers in a fishbowl
Leave it underwater
Leave it there if that is what
It wants to be
Who I am
Every choice I've made
And dream I held close to my heart
And my eyes
And my skin
My god
I saw with interrupted  vision
A rainbow growing poison
A rain drop as my sleeve
My hands all wet
Who i was
Every man I'll be
These different lives at any time
And my thoughts
And my truth
My god

Let's neglect
Yin and yang
Pretend they are the same
That up is left
And down is left
And nothings ever right
Front to back
Side to side
And from this bitter truth
We hide
Because the hunt is almost over
And there is nothing left to gather
Our father
Our father weeps for us
It seems we've lost our way