I never missed this feeling of being alone
Maybe because it never truly left.

I assumed someone would be there
One person giving words to mindless actions.

No one even tries to pretend anymore
They all found someone new to hold.

Does that mean that I am no longer enough,
That my body can be thrown away.

This crucial time when my body is my own.
Exploring is all I want to do, to feel, to notice.

Yet no one even gives me a passing glance
The ones who stop to look, add their own disclaimer.

I am glad I got to be the one,
Who helped them all to find their way in the dark.

The one to show them how the world looks
Open their eyes to her beauty and grace.

They told me their problems and I solved the puzzle
"Go to her" "Get over it" "Don't mind me"

I just wish for once, someone would be that friend for me.
But they are blind.

For now I will welcome the lonely
And hope that this feeling will always be here for me.

Because that is all I have left.

I want to wake up early some morning
At the same time as the sun
And become aware that lying next to me
My love is sleeping soundly
Emanating warmth.
Sleep is a beautiful state
At the intersection of peace and vulnerability
The sleeper breathes with such lightness
As if the weight of the world were on
Anyone's shoulders but his.
Behind his eyelids, I pray for there to be
Only the nicest things to dream
The rays of sunlight tap on the window
My eyes trace the softest features of his body
I long for a kiss, so gentle
But I dare not disturb his slumber.

The water is still for now
As the burner slowly heats up
Small bubbles form on the bottom
Eager to grow and run
They'll keep building up
And stir the stillness out of the water
Steam creeps up around the lid
Coming out in sighs
Until the burner glows red
And the water boils restlessly
And the steam leaves the spout
Singing a song for the
Perfect cup of tea

Steamy breath,
Sensual kisses, and
Trembling bodies;
Not out of fear but out of
Pure bliss
And thrusts full of nothing but
Passion
I hope you know
That with every rushed exhale
And every grin
That magically sprouts from the occasion,
My eyes are whispering
I love you

I don't know what makes me
Fall in love so easily.
The heart ache is excruciating.
Yet I can't be trained to stop
And think of the consequences.
I don't want it here anymore
To wound me over and over again.
Because it happens with everyone
Almost every soul has a redeeming quality.
It is the quality, not the person
With whom I fall in love.
Every single time, no matter the day
But I don't understand my heart.
I want these people to be boring,
Lame, narcissistic, squabbling pigs.
Yet I know I would find something
To make me fall once again.

You turned left,I turned right
You run,I chase
There's a fight
And that's what I hate

My brain
My heart
Will always be insane
But that's just my part

Your quiet
Your fun
We both start a riot
I love you my sweet ***

But then I knew
That there's someon else
Now I'm plain confused
That care only for yourself