Now everyday I try to get by
I try to get drunk or try to get high
I sit around and wait to die
24/7, 365

I don’t sleep at night I'm up late thinking
These memories, I can feel my heart sinking
The feeling  that we all feel
I lay in bed, is this world real?

Does anything here even matter?
If my my heart burst and the blood splatters
Will it make a difference?
If my life shatters?
I want to die alone

If I was dead I can rest in peace
I hate being confined, I need release
I'm sick of life ups and down
I want out, I want it now

My souls gone cold I can feel it
I'm losing balance, I've lost my grip
I left the window open tonight
Incase the angle of death decides to take my life
Does anything here even matter?
If my my heart burst and the blood splatters?
Will it make a difference?
If my life shatters
I want to die alone

Now mistakes, I've made a few
It's win or lose
The paths I'd chose
What I thought was right
The choice was mine
And with out insight
I got myself in a jam
What could I do?
I was ******
A condemned man
I take the blame
Full responsibility
I don’t deny or disagree

I'm on my way
I'm going down
My true colors are shown
But on this day, something is made
A seed will grow

Is this the end?
Or the beginning?
I've been dealt a *** hand
I never should have answered that call
That way I'd never fall
And no one would sob or bawl
I take the blame
Full responsibility
I don’t deny or disagree

So now I'm back here once again
A place a rehabilitation
To right my wrongs and be forgiven

I'm on my way
I'm going down
My true colors are shown
But on this day, something is made
A seed will grow

Now I can see
What must change in me
I'm falling from grace

I'm on my way
I'm going down
My true colors are shown
But on this day, something is made
A seed will grow

And now I lay on the ****** pavement
getting kicked again
I faced the odds and lost the bet
I've taken everything for granted
My ways are shifty and slanted
Is my life hexed or enchanted ?

I'm on my way
I'm going down
My true colors are shown
But on this day, something is made
A seed will grow

I was your's and you were mine
Too bad love is blind
You were the first I'd find
Too bad love is blind

Oh who could ever see
You being with me?
Two different minds
Oh, love is so blind

Not far or near sighted
The truth, I tried to fight it
I was just so excited
But I was just blinded

Self destructive, depressed
My feelings are suppressed
The trick I learned from you
Nothing else I could do

My heart is now mute
I cannot make a move
Nothing left to prove
In love, someone will always lose

The scar won't fade
But I know one day
I'll be okay, in time
But love will always be blind

Well through the years I've had many friends
They're always coming , they're always leaving
And lately I've been thinking
Who are the ones
That are worth keeping?

There are strangers, acquaintances, mutual friends
Life-longers, fair-weathers, but in the end
If I can say I can count them on one hand
I can consider myself a rich man

If you have my back I'll have always have yours
I'm not burning bridges or closing doors
Just wanna have fun and down some beers
Lost too many friends over the years

But maybe its me who makes them go
Whats wrong with me? I don’t know
Oh well, just move on
Just face the fact that there gone

There are strangers, acquaintances, mutual friends
Life-longers, fair-weathers, but in the end
If I can say I can count them on one hand
I can consider myself a rich man

I live my life with no regret
Doesn’t mean I'm not upset
There's just one thing I don’t get
Why did you have to lie?
Why'd you leave me high and dry
And go off with some other guy
In the back of my mind I knew
That within a month we’d be through
Fighting an emotional battle
Face down in the rubble
I hide at the bottom of a bottle

You said so long, in tears
I couldn’t say a word
I ran to the words
And you went home

I look back

I loved you so much
It was never good enough
I'd make it easy, you'd make it rough
No give just take
Never fifty fifty
More like 80/20
You said so long, in tears
I couldn’t say a word
I ran to the woods
And you went home

Nothing can stop me from seeing my girl
It's just me and her
Me and her

She pulled me out from the ****
Shes got heart so big
Thought no one could love me but she did
And I just couldn’t believe that

She is at the top of my list
The best touch, the best kiss
I shouldn’t tell I promised
I just can't believe this

Now yes, walls can divide
But nothing can stop me from seeing my girl
Cause it's just me and her
Just me and her

Now isn’t easy to see
That she means the world to me
So just let us be
So just go away

This love is new
And I'm not sure what to do
After everything I've been through
Broken hearts, I've caused a few

Roosevelt 9 and 1
Nothing stops me from seeing my girl
Cause its just me and her
Just me and her

Walk to your door, on Saturday
I said goodbye and drove away
You were in pain, you were hurt
I couldn't be with you any more

You were the girl I called mine
Now you’re the girl who told me to die
It isn't my fault the feeling was gone
Can't force something if its wrong

Go to hell
I am on my way
You told me to hang myself
I would if I could

I'm going out with my friends
Back to square one, I'm here again
A night on the town
Their spirits are up but mine is down

It wasn’t fair to you, I'm a cheater
Like a child, you followed the leader
I couldn’t keep playing the game
I let you go and drove away

Go to hell
I am on my way
You told me to hang myself
I would if I could

The union of guilt and pain
The nostalgia drove me insane
The memories so bitter sweet
That feeling that cant be beat

There must be some lesson to learn
Don’t touch the fire you will get burned
Don’t write a cash you can't cash
Plan for the future, learn from the past

I wish you well
Have nice day
Enjoy yourself
You know you should

You all tell me to get help, I can do it on my own
I've been there and back and history will show
The is not the first time, I promise I’ll be fine
They all try to help, I can do this on my own

Try to find the cause, my stressor
The annoy and pry, I fester
There ain't a thing
You can say to me
No doctor, pastor or professor

They're telling me to get help, I can do this on my own
I really hate to brag, there's something you lack, I already know
Tell me I need common sense, oh my family and my friends
They're telling me to get help, I can do this on my own

I ask myself, "who do you think you are?"
"And how did you get this far?"
"Your on the verge of losing your mind"
"Put this off for to long"
"On the edge of suicide"
"Just have your self a nice cry"

They told me to get help, I could do it on my own
I picked up the slack and now I’m back, coming back home
Is it some kinda disorder
Am I bipolar
Or am I just depressed?
I'm my own doctor

Get inside my mind
Lesser men have tried

I told myself to get help, I had no where else to go
Beaten and sad, confused I've gone mad, I'm about to blow
A massacre in my head, take six shots, go to bed
Will I ever be okay?
God I hope so