like scattered clouds that fall
into horizon's abyss
so are my thoughts of you

my feelings for you race
over the waterfalls
to be tossed and turned
and end up in deep cold
darkness

night tears trace the contours
of my cheek, dripping
only to evaporate with the
morning sun

dawn inspires hope again
that today will be ours
dusk is the lamp shade
to another lonely night

this moonlit evening enhances the canopy trees
my senses are comfort with the warm breeze
watching small shadows race up and down thier limbs
as the crickets sound their nightly hymns

your presences is a must for this stirring heart
hurry now, the anticipation is too much

there is so many words that I must say
only you can decipher, in a coherent way
rearrange them, send them back to me
for only this fool can see

your presences is a must for this stirring heart
hurry now, the anticipation is too much

this is my mindset, when you can't be near
talking to the evening breeze, hoping you'll hear
when suddenly the songbird seems spurned
and he and I wait for your return

your presences is a must for this stirring heart
hurry now, the anticipation is too much

I saw you, standing on that corner
alone with your thoughts
and I wondered, what your thinking
who your missing, or which way to go
your sad eyes, they don,t smile as you turn
and walk away

from this distance, I want to hold you
and caress you,just one more time
to let you feel me, as I feel you
and bring that smile, back to your face

has your journey, left you lifeless,
and all but blinded you, from seeing the truth
if you just turn around, see what,s in front of you
cause your sad eyes, they don,t smile as you turn
and walk away

there is a time in the not too distant future
when our parallel lives will cross
to meld that magical moment, and brighten
the dark holes of our universes
we can then dance on the notes of the stars
create our own melodies, hitch a ride on the
rhythm of the solar winds and entertain
ourselves as we explore each galaxy of love

I struggle now to remember what I was doing
I can't even open this jar, the hands, old and frail
flashbacks of my youth, a wonderfull time
holds the clock back so I can feel another day
the vastness of the universe, has me thinking
Is there another me out there, a clone if you will
wondering the same thing, as I sit in my chair
what would I tell him, that our lives are the same
every minute and hour since birth, we are in sync
or are there many in differant stages of their life
but perhaps they are thinking the same thing
and trying to reach me

and for you, today, my daily thought
if I may

such are the sparkling eyes that entice
such are the sculpted lips I kiss
such are the arms to caress at night
such are my dreams, my morning bliss

these daydreams, are all about you
curling my hair, anticipations of you
this tingling I have, is because of you
the warmth I feel, is because I LOVE
YOU

fingerprints leave white marks
skin revives it's color
scratch away the scars
dead cells flake to a pile
do I bleed new life
into old wounds
let it flow to the same
road map in my heart
always making the left turn
afraid of the right
cauterize my senses
numbness, your eyes
hypnotize, plop me up
I am your puppet
be gentile with my arms
when you spew your evil rants
my stitches will unravel
leave a pile neath your feet
sweep them up, toss them
in the bin, and then look
within and see ????????

looking down at you, laying there, curled up
weak, your energy exhausted
slowly cover you with your favorite blanket
brush your hair from your eyes
kiss your forhead, let that comfort smile
appear

then I'll snuggle my arms around you
lay my head on your chest, listen to you breathe
as our quiet thoughts of loving experience
take over our dreams

in the morning, as we face each other
our eyes open together, smile, a satisfying
hello
your gaze hypnotizes me, steal my senses
when you whisper '' lets do it again''

as I pick up this guitar, and wonder were you are
I'm hoping this melody will take me far
cause deep in my mind, my thoughts, all askewed
and the words I write are only for you
can I tantilize you with my clever prose,or perhaps
indulge you in our afternoon naps
while we listen to dylan, in all his poetic verse
and try to rid ourselfs of our brought on curse
then we can walk the fields, frolick in their colors
mix and match, till we love again with each other

and so the rains have come again dripping from the leaves
in rythms of incoherant sync, listen closely, the voice
soft, yet rambling, as if to call the gulls to the sea
find me another, bring back whole this time
restless hearts sleep in the day, the night is full of prey
in the shadows, full of grace, glowing eyes, lead astray
watching with intent, never a murmer, wasting time
the voice now useless, slumber back to were you came
perhaps the gulls will find you another

between the sentences and paragraphs
were the commas and periods are misplaced
the chapters end in question marks

It seems ,you and I, are two of a kind
We ventured into love, again, one more time
our hearts beat fast, when they are near
all our lonliness we collected, dissapear

time and space collide, energy released
such a blinding light mute our senses
we want to be swept away by their solar whispers
feel the galactic ****** being pulled from us
an ever expanding passion that will never end

yet time is a constant and space is a vast place
our energy of love for them, dissapear to a black hole
so we search the universe for another blinding light
in hopes for an ever expanding passion that never end

between the sentences and the paragraphs
were commas and periods are missplaced
the chapters end in question marks

gaze at the chariot clouds
chasing the venus star
her brightness hypnotize
the particles of the night
vaccum them up
into her shining abyss

the black background
are filled with peering eyes
some wink, others stoic
the slow movement wave
from dusk to dawn
intice the mortals
to their wildest dreams

the certain comfort
of the night sky
the temptation that
fools ourseleves
chasing lust
we hide behind
its misgivings
and **** us
with the morning light

Oh don't fret my lady
Those half truths of me you hear
Are their sutle rage of jealousy
Those old suitors that have failed you
The ones that neglected your full lips
Their words try to sway your demeanor is cold
They were blind to your Raven hair
That sculpts your face and loving smile
Their quest was one thing the rest they didn't care
Through your misty eyes I see a constant light
One of hope and happiness not a curse of midnight
So I shall throw you a line tie it off
I will guide you
our boats will adrift and dock at loves
Harbor of delight
There we can mingle our mind
Share laughter and smiles
Slowly erase the past from our chalkboard minds
and exhaustion sets in from the days conversation and all the half truth
From others have been extinguished
may I say oh don't fret my lady
For I am your anchor and you our rope
Just give me the signal  release your rope my anchor will rise set us afloat

wondering souls walk aimlessly forward
trying to rid themselves of the past
their footsteps follow, taunting their path
they look behind to see if they have faded
only to come full circle

so lovely is the sound of the songbird chirps
singing for the rebirth of mother earth
may the sun's arms surround us with warmth
as the winter snow seeps into the earth
bring to life , the roots below
soak them,nourish them,unfold the petal hands
sprout the the colors, paint the land

there's a friend of mine
full of love and kind
when you see her
you'll know what I mean
the light baths her in a aura
of warmth and calmness
whatever troubles you
she will soothe you with her smile
her eyes watch, intense
retaining your thoughts
for another conversation.
with all that is put upon her
she stands steadfast,always listening
I know she too is hurting,her life
not perfect
as we layer our thoughts upon
one another,compare notes
our relationship will never waiver
for friendship is love without rules

can we begin all over again
but this time at the end
not a rewind of the past
only the unvailing of our masks
may I  start
if I can only be your hero
from sunrise to sunset
and the night has it's touch
to sooth your heart from it's unrest
and now you
your persuasion over me, has it's limits
the free spirit in me, is a constant
and this void I have, is not because of you
shall I say it's part genetics
we both start
may we agree that the verses
that lead to the bridge
somehow flow to the chorus of our perfect melody
perhaps the notes can be tweaked just enough
that we will one day, be in perfect harmony

It wont matter much, staring
coldness of winters breath
freezing
eyes water are icicles
triangulating
seeing in three demensions
appealing
like prisms that bend light
wonder
what person shows up
tonight
are the angles of you align
perfect in semmetry
has a particle bounded off
to a distant
and scattered your love protons
to an unknown place

have I told you that you are the wonder of my life
the sweet fragrance of every breath I take
and you take apart my heart daily and rearrange it
to love you even more

anticipating seeing you, has my mine all aflutterd
as I watch those soft lips say good morning
your voice tunes will play in my head all day
to keep my step lively and in rhythm

when the evening comes with it blankets of stars
and before the moon tucks us in for the night
I'll point one out just for you and me
then hold you close as we silently dream

a friend of mine told me, that they are at a crossroads in there life
what have i done, or accomplished, is my footprint still viable
i had no responce, for i ponder the same question, age will do that
but as i gather my thoughts, i wonder, do i need to change the world
do i need to be famous, i don't think so. if i can be me, and bring a smile
to you then i have done what HE has ask me to do.

shall I let you reshape me
pour the purest water upon me
peeling off the dying skin
as the worms feast on the remains
then you can mold me into the rich
textures of your deluded fantasies
and let loose your desires to curse me
hoping your hallow life will be free
yet this panoramic view of your creation
is all for naught, you forgot to give it life
you forgot to give it the colors of your love
you only gave it wisdom of who you are
as it watches the smoldering embers of you
fade away

as I levitate my heart
to reach your mind
and the warmth you
encounter, you'll find
******

the words I whisper
into your ear
seem chrisper
when I hold you near

as your arms hold me tight
till the morning sunlight
there is peace in my mind
through out the night

her smile makes you want to know her more
her eyes draw you in to her world
her gentile touch soothe your aching heart
and her voice forever eched in your mind

the aura that surronds her, draws you in
a soft glow, yet a feeling of love everlasting
her movments are smooth and true
like the perfect poem

laying next to me, i hear the rhythm of her breath
timely in beat, soothing to the soul
her eyes draw you into her world
her smile makes you want to know her more

winter winds upon this land
clawing me clamy hands
the recluse in me , stems the tides
of emotions cultivated deep inside

such sentiments had warmed my soul
of future days and times of old
shall I scratch this itch, a thousand times more
or let sleeping dogs lie, never to be told

shall I stand poised on this joist
debating the reasons for choice
and hear that familiar voice
"how far is heaven" and the ultimate rejoice

no, i will let the winter winds claw at me
let it's darkess cold once again teach
that the recluse in me and all it brings
warm my soul, anticipating a new spring

Those sails on your ship are tattered
Your rudder askew
The quest for yourself  has left you bruised
That newness you sought, was the past renewed
Time to anchor in this harbor, your emotions are
past curfew
Hold steady now, my flags are flying
Rest here for awhile or forever if you need
Lay down your arms or around me
Save your last bullet for me
I'll take it willingly
Then patch me up, absorb my love
as I bleed

Nocturnal eyes, pierce the night
their form hidden from sight
rustle sounds, no shadow to follow
back and forth, in perfect rythm

The pendulum of thoughts restart
the mind relaxes the heart

Two fingertips, inches apart
merge, become hand in hand
where a new live began

the first hello your said to me
was the whimpered cry
seeming to say, " I was warm in there"
as I teared up and chuckled
at what perfection we made

remember those scary monsters
that haunted your young dreams
needing a warm hug and cuddle
under the comfort of our blanket

and now, this journey we have taken
wrought with uncertanties
may I say that I hope my guidance
has lead you to seek, your own
identity

but always remember, as you tackle
this cruel world, "dad can you help"
but I can only answer those question
you pose to me
and if those answers, dont quell your questions
It is your turn now to find your unique answers
for the strength of my love for you will never
extinquish
and that life itself, is always a work in progress

every moment of time so precious
all the memories the mind caresses
with deep textures and colors sheen
holds hope for love to believe

even the hallow echos of darken streets
or fading silents of forgotten screams
as sorrow drips from gutter seams
holds hope for love to believe

awaken now find what you seek
this journey never peeks
the brightest path that you see
holds hope for love to believe

awaken now find what to seek
for this journey never peeks
and brightest path you see
holds hope for love to believe

hope this was'nt a charade
when you said hello to me today
as my smile reciprocates

our small talk was pleasing to me
hoping for a future repeat
but not yet ready to fall at your feet

the blueness of your eyes, tease my senses
as you try to find the weakness in my defenses
and I admire your assault, so relentless

but I am one who takes their time
my eyes wide open, and never blind
need to understand if you are my find

hope your honest, when these questions are posed
don't look at me and say I suppose
cause I,ll say good luck to you, and your sad woes

Shall I pen this verse for you
this time, may it spill upon
your open hands
with all its truths
rub them on your skin
and feel the memories

my constant thoughts of you
invade my dreams, hence
sleepless nights
are you safe, did you read this
still wondering

the bed is barren, on your side
the puppies are grown now
they lay at the end of the bed
head on their paws, droopy eyes
looking to me for their answers
I can ony look at them in silence

even the morning coffee ***
its sound so vibrant, happy,
labors, one less cup to fill

as I pen this final verse
in all its truths
be well my love, enjoy your jouney
remember I was your starting point

I take a look at this place, its such an empty space
and I'm not sure how to fill it without you
there are silent echos reverberating of a past forgotten
I set my mind on them, and yet they never last
could it be your missing me, I ask myself, the question lingers
I can't chase fantasys anymore, I have a hard time catching reality
so i will dim the lites and close this door, and walk towards a future uncertaint

don't be afraid to approach for i cannot harm you anymore
lying here , my arms folded, my eyes closed for all eternity
you can kneel at my side and say the thoughts you feel
for I cannot respond
the guilt i have put on you has suddenly gone away
you are free now to proceed with your life without my to interfere

Come lay with me by the fire
Snuggle on the soft rug we wove together
Let the flames lick at our thoughts
And their warmth perspire us to passion
Then we'll watch the embers slowly fade to gray
As we wrap ourselves in a cacoon of dreams

remember the sadness you bare
hallow eyes, distant stares
words coherant, then to scared
hoping for someone to care
listening in a diminutive state
gathering the pieces from your plate
thoughts query, am I too late
to rescue, this ill concieve fate

exhustion sets is, from the heavy daily toll
the eyes are sleepy, each step is slow
the body stiffens, bending over to untie the shoes
toes touching carpet, soft, another day is through
streched on the sofa, blood rushing to a calm
the mind turns of the noise, only quiet is the sound
amen

Oh, my mind is at peace, atop this moutain peak
the air so crisp and clear, it renders me weak
looking at the horizon, and illusion captures me
a silhouette of you dancing, to the night to be

so vibrant is your sway and the lightness of your feet
bouncing effortlessly from each star you meet
a gentle touch from your fingers lets them twirl so sweet
as they twinkle and wink, for all of us to see

up here my thoughts are vacant, the debris is down there
my smile is wide, yet the corners drip tears
and up here I try to reach you, to comfort your fears
I guess what I'm really saying, I wish you were still here

her lonely silhouette, beneath that dim lite
pacing back and forth, counting cracks
I wonder what she's thinking, or waiting for

I can feel her glances, yet her pace unbroken
shall I step from my perch, offer what I can
no, I shall keep my distance, as her pace quickens

will my whisper thoughts reach her through thicken fog
as her shadows recede, passing in front of indented doors
why, I ask, my obsession of her, perhaps I see a rerun of me

the loneliness of despair, can be relentless
one's failure of being, tormenting
mistakes and accomplishment, neutralize the heart
the strength of one's soul, defines us
even in the dense fog of one's mind

the heart bleeds, were the arrow periced
drips upon the flowers, droop their petals
stains them green to red
roots of strength hold firm, grip the earth
waiting for your smile to part the clouds

the sun, with its tantilizing fingers
evaporate the red to green, beauty renewed
walk among them, smell the scent, heal the heart
then close your eyes, feel yourself, and think
" If it was'nt for me, the world would not be"

these gentile waves hypnotize me
the soothing swaying, takes hold of me
close my eyes, there's no place I'd rather be
invigorated by the salty sea

the distant horizon streches far away
to reach it, is only for the brave
if only I could be there, perhaps I'll be saved
what wonders lie beyond, I cannot say

when the warmth of your arms wrap around me
your gentile kiss, upon my cheek
brings me back to reality
then realize there no place I'd rather be
then with my horizon thats holding me

let me undress you
reveal such stunning beauty
your shyness, only enhances
me
your breathing is fiilled
with anticipation
as I feel the heated energy
that you emit
slowly lay you down
hear the the soft growns
as your limp body, awaits me

now, you have surrendered
to me let us do as we please
arms raised above your head
eyes closed, as I explore you

I can feel you shiver, with every
kiss I place
some on the right spot, others
to enhance my love

the slow motion of our bodys
are in deep rhytms, undetered
as your nails leave their marks
and my kisses never leave you

your last words to me, as you close
your eyes are love me forever
my response to you is ditto

Oh the raven, that taunts me
clutching the heart he stole
circle above me, his cawing so bold
go ahead, try to intice my soul
your taunts are futile, I feel no more

this aloneness  is real, my comfort zone
no daggers to pierce me, just a silent groan
there are no litmus test to prove me
am I right or am I wrong
or that stamp upon my head, that I belong

perhaps tomorrow will be a better day
the gray will finally fade
I'll start all over, again, this time
search for anything to fill the lines
of long standing questions in my mine

Lost in confusion of life
I shall feel particles of lite
warming my soul, to delight
forgetting the day, embrace
the night
for there I can be, in shadow
hugging a wall, silently watching
the hunched humans,wallow
dreading the morning
as they feel the familiar fan breeze
going round and round, a routine
their hopes and dreams, it seems
dispersed in nightmares of sleep

Like a web the morning fog entangles the tall trees
It drapes the valley as a smoke filled mystery
Feel free to walk among its time and length for the are treacherous exercises
What appears suddenly surly leads to ones demise
Such was my fantasy of you
That smile entangled me too soon
Your mystery I need to unravel
But only with time
Your sudden appearance and movements are sublime
Shall I fall into that treacherous exercises of chasing you
Not knowing of my demise
I'll pick yes for my mind is smoke filled
Yet the clearing is before my eyes

so be it , i'll let you go
your comprimise is all the rage

With a little glance that quick peek
Our eyes lock together as you strolled by
As your turn around face smile
Your Cupid arrows brought me to my knees
Your flowing hair sculpt your face
In an instant I'm in an altered state
Devoid of time and space
Whispering to me "kiss me" I obey
Not knowing my fate
As your soothing fingers wrap around
Every inch of me
And the pressure builds to extacsy
That wicked sound of the alarm clock .....

year after year, lap after lap, I'm trying to catch
someone I think I should be
and if I do, and cross that finish line first, what then
am I the hero for that day, then I have to keep repeating
sounds exhausting
I'm more of the horse and buggy type
moving slowly but surely, taking it all in
enjoying each day I have to the fullest
the race will end and the flag will drop when He is ready

THERES A LIVING ANGEL THAT WALKS AMONGST US
AND I'LL CALL HER MOM
SUCH A BEAUTIFUL SOUL, HER MERE PRESENCES PUTS
YOU AT EASE
SO CARING AND UNRELENTING IN HER LOVE FOR HER CHILDREN
A TRUE GIFT FROM GOD
THOUGH SHE LOST HER HUSBAND 43YRS AGO, SHE HAS NEVER
WAVERED FROM HER FAMILY
TO BRING UP SEVEN KIDS,ALONE, IS A TESTEMENT OF HER
STRENGTH AND COURAGE
HER WORLD HAS ALWAYS BEEN HER CHILDREN,TO GUIDE THEM
TO WORRY BOUT THEM
AND FOREVER ALWAYS TO WELCOME THEM BACK HOME

And so it is, as you disappear
beyond the hill
Your sunset will always be new
While my darkness forever continues

I hope this letter finds you well, from the dark dispair I've heard you dwell
the words I've penned are meant to say, to calm the demons that have swelled
oh that my logic and heart felt rhymes, may crease the corners of your smiles
to let your mind divert to another time, if only for a while
for I am not a savior to take away your fears, just a friend to remind you are cared
and as you fold the letter and keep it near your *****, may your demons disappear

go ahead my dear, shed your cocoon
for the sweet scent of spring is upon us
the snow has melted, the roots now sip
as the fingers of green reach for the warmth

and in this new beginning, may I just say
that I am tired of being in the way of myself
In retrospect, I should have use common sense
not let my impulses push you away
for that was the devils voice inside my head

the burden of love you have for me
were the whispers I heard in the winter winds
and now the robins solo, has given more clarity

you are still the music that feeds my soul
you are the voice that soothes these aching bones
your fingers play the chords, that vibrate my heart
as this ghostly feeling haunts these lonley nights