shall I cleanse the soul to find hope
and with hope, I shall find clarity
with clarity, there's a sense of being
and with a sense of being, I will finally
cope

let the dust of life that accumulates
collect and hitch a ride on the winds
and then the shiny new me, will challenge
the sun
for their are no more shadows for me to follow

her lonely silhouette, beneath that dim lite
pacing back and forth, counting cracks
I wonder what she's thinking, or waiting for

I can feel her glances, yet her pace unbroken
shall I step from my perch, offer what I can
no, I shall keep my distance, as her pace quickens

will my whisper thoughts reach her through thicken fog
as her shadows recede, passing in front of indented doors
why, I ask, my obsession of her, perhaps I see a rerun of me

the loneliness of despair, can be relentless
one's failure of being, tormenting
mistakes and accomplishment, neutralize the heart
the strength of one's soul, defines us
even in the dense fog of one's mind

the twilight of life that has set upon you
will never dim your radiant glow
those rays you emit, have touched us all
and always turned our gray skies blue
those flowers you planted, the seeds from you
have grown strong and mature
their roots grounded firmly
such a testament of your beautiful hue
the coldness of life, only warmed your heart more
there was never an exit sign in your mind
your loving touch, always a constant flow
if ever the thought of abandoning us showed up
your resolve grew stronger,your love even more
and now the flowers understand, your man's message
has reached you
" come join me now, the flowers will be alright
I have a place for us,I'm sure you'd like
I've had a long time to tidy it up"
with that said, you can resume your love affair
forever and a night
you can watch your flowers bloom so bright
they will always be in your sights
you can still nurture them from afar
everyday and everynight

shall I cast my line from this pristine sight
let the flow take my bait, rid myself of blight
the serentity of the water. can hypnotize the mind
quiet trickles smooth the stones, daydreams I find
little creatures that scurry past my feet
such a roadblock wont keep them from their destiny
their sense of being, an amazing thing
and the wonderment that they bring
as the breeze and the suns wink fades deep
the moon reflects at me, from this steady stream
Its smile talks to me in silent conversation
saying, the line of hope resides in your
own revelation

can we begin all over again
but this time at the end
not a rewind of the past
only the unvailing of our masks
may I  start
if I can only be your hero
from sunrise to sunset
and the night has it's touch
to sooth your heart from it's unrest
and now you
your persuasion over me, has it's limits
the free spirit in me, is a constant
and this void I have, is not because of you
shall I say it's part genetics
we both start
may we agree that the verses
that lead to the bridge
somehow flow to the chorus of our perfect melody
perhaps the notes can be tweaked just enough
that we will one day, be in perfect harmony

the air in this room hangs
in a thickness of contempt
your lost in a bias of
confused sentiment
let your peering eyes, peek
into the corners of me
prepare for something unseen
I'm not what you perceive
evaluate what's in front of you
naysayers are meant to confuse
they are lonely people
not ready for something new
leave past journeys behind
exit from the tunnel
emerge to the freshness of hope
be amazed at what you find

through the hills and valleys
I search for you
each place I found, the scent of you
was untrue
the beacon of light in the distant
was a false guide
yet each pixel, drew me in
for another try
the fog of love, is a mysterious one
with it's deceptions
lifting in the morning, slowly
the sky clears, with expectations
all the towns seem the same
the heart flutters, anticipation
but their memories of you are askew
as I thank them, for the participation
the miles I have walk seem endless
but in my mind, your just a day away

winter winds upon this land
clawing me clamy hands
the recluse in me , stems the tides
of emotions cultivated deep inside

such sentiments had warmed my soul
of future days and times of old
shall I scratch this itch, a thousand times more
or let sleeping dogs lie, never to be told

shall I stand poised on this joist
debating the reasons for choice
and hear that familiar voice
"how far is heaven" and the ultimate rejoice

no, i will let the winter winds claw at me
let it's darkess cold once again teach
that the recluse in me and all it brings
warm my soul, anticipating a new spring

the darkness of this road seems endless
headlight guide me through quiteness
songs on the radio are about us
of lost love and trust

was it I who smothered you too much
with morning notes of "I love you '' and such
did boredom of me set in too soon
when you realized you need something new

encountering the rising sun, the brightest of day
warmth of her rays, as I start to reengage
you stand by the road, trying to hitch a ride
to set up a new man, and his ultimate demise

a blank piece of paper and my mind settles in
to write you the perfect love song, but were to begin
shall I say your rose color lips, are perfect for your voice
and when you speak, my senses erupt, I have no choice

shall I write of your beauty, and all that it brings
from the melting winter snow, to the rebirth of spring
so sturdy I feel, when your aura surrounds me
like the roots of the mighty oak tree

the sensual words you whisper in my ears
weakens my knees, almost to tears
that playful laughter, when you taunt me
you think your in control, just wait and see

for the notes of love I have for you
are never a rewrite, always a true first draft
they spill out of me, never to be altered
just like this silly song, always forever

such a fog of insecurity, lingers in their eyes
the naysayers that tell tales, are of simple minds
they carry the weight of emotional blight
though a grayish hue, devow of sunshine

the jealousy that consumes them, are of their making
they wonder why " I am not a perfect gem"
perhaps the waves of life, did'nt polish them
to their liking
those pity feelings are all around them

so go ahead now, let it bleed out of you
drain those poisonous emotions you feel
the ones that cursed you from being renewed
remember, their the ones who need to be healed

as you look in the mirror, see the reflection
smile at the beauty upon you
let their words be muted, as a deflection
and love yourself in the sunshines hue

some times I feel like van gogh but I like my ears
such maddening sadness and despair, over the years
have brought a drought to my tears
to the delight of the crowds that jeer

they are in my head.giggle with laughter
of course they wont appear, to take my spear
sometimes I feel like van gogh, but I like my ears

when the dawn breaks, as I gaze out the window
wondering what life to follow
lost in the sounds of natures music
too many versus to pick from, seems hectic
reality at times , slurred in colors so hollow
sometimes I feel like van gogh, but I like my ears

the left side of my mind, seems tortured
the right hears poetic melodies
flowing to the center, those constant spin my thoughts
to where I conclude
there will never be another like me
for all eternity
to finally extinguish the delighted crows laughter
and jeers
let it be known, I was once here

as if this land is held by the palm of God
looking down high above His bluff
gently, His fingers hold the hills
grasp the shoreline, massage the golden sands

watching His creatures, scurry for their food
their dances are sometimes mesmerizing
yet how different they are from us, or are they
like them we all search for survival
whether spiritual or physical

but such a pristine sight, a perfection unmatched
has blessed me as I walk among His abundance
I feel the blistering sun of life itself
and dream of serenity under the cool nights

His gentile fingers awake me, massage my soul
grasp my mind, like a parents guidance
if I follow His light, blind to all evil
my journey will end with Him, high upon His bluff

let me undress you
reveal such stunning beauty
your shyness, only enhances
me
your breathing is fiilled
with anticipation
as I feel the heated energy
that you emit
slowly lay you down
hear the the soft growns
as your limp body, awaits me

now, you have surrendered
to me let us do as we please
arms raised above your head
eyes closed, as I explore you

I can feel you shiver, with every
kiss I place
some on the right spot, others
to enhance my love

the slow motion of our bodys
are in deep rhytms, undetered
as your nails leave their marks
and my kisses never leave you

your last words to me, as you close
your eyes are love me forever
my response to you is ditto

come to me tonight, your softness I so desire
the smoothness of your skin, lays upon me
sends ripples through my distorted mind
in a weaken state, I surrender to you

sprawled out now, let those engorged lips
trace each hill and valley on my body
search for what you expect to find
take your time, show no mercy, yet be kind

and at the tip, the moisture, eases slowly
a sign I've surrendered to you
your warm breath and seductive eyes
are in rhythm, with your fingers touch

a stirring from my hips, a foreshadow of
an explotion and your beautiful moan
rest your head on my chest, fingers touch
our heartbeats slow, our eyes close the night

I shall remember yesterday, when today
goes away
cause my heart still yearns, for what I crave
the words you spoke, whispers to my ears
have me broken down into tears

I guess tomarrow starts a new chapter
for my life
but the pages are numberless, no end in sight
believe in yourself, one passage says
another proclaims, it was ment to be, I guess

was I swayed to think, when two people fall
in love
that there was nothing that we can't rise above
but the winds of time and space, have no feelings
when they calm, and you realize, you've been
unseated

so I shall remember yesterday, when today goes away
cause my heart still yearns, for what I thought I craved
the words you spoke, are now just whispers in my ears
yet they still  have broken me into tears

you reached you hand into the bucket
and lucky number seven, was your pick
my lucky day, good as gold, was your
thought
but to keep that gold from tarnish
a good polish is required
when your midas touch
could not produce more shine
you drop your pick
into your mind machine
to wash it clean
perhaps you need a wash
to clean your ego or
your shiny lucky seven
may see how dull you are

looking down at you, laying there, curled up
weak, your energy exhausted
slowly cover you with your favorite blanket
brush your hair from your eyes
kiss your forhead, let that comfort smile
appear

then I'll snuggle my arms around you
lay my head on your chest, listen to you breathe
as our quiet thoughts of loving experience
take over our dreams

in the morning, as we face each other
our eyes open together, smile, a satisfying
hello
your gaze hypnotizes me, steal my senses
when you whisper '' lets do it again''

stare into my eyes, as my hands roam
over your soft skin
NO NEED to whimper or think
as our breaths, in rhythm, begin

slowly I'll kiss every spot, beholden to me
as your heart races, to my tease

every sweet drop of nector from your pores
only makes me hunger for more
for I sip each drop, and swallow you
as your fingers dig deep, your mind now askew

such tension of your body, I know your ready
just one more lick, as I hold your head steady
shall I stop now, just to tease
no, I think this is a good time, for your release

I have'nt the energy, to rearrange the sheets
I'll let your imprint  absorb into my memory
this coffee I sip, seems bittersweet
the soft closing of the door is complete
what we had last night, was lost in the morning
was your secret thought, too much for your longing
does his tantilizing breath capture your senses
the feel of his new touch, leaves you defenseless
wondering? what am I to do, is overwhelming
shall I throw you a rope, grasp at a new beginning
would you catch it, so I can pull you back in
or is the last loop, the final ending?

the first hello your said to me
was the whimpered cry
seeming to say, " I was warm in there"
as I teared up and chuckled
at what perfection we made

remember those scary monsters
that haunted your young dreams
needing a warm hug and cuddle
under the comfort of our blanket

and now, this journey we have taken
wrought with uncertanties
may I say that I hope my guidance
has lead you to seek, your own
identity

but always remember, as you tackle
this cruel world, "dad can you help"
but I can only answer those question
you pose to me
and if those answers, dont quell your questions
It is your turn now to find your unique answers
for the strength of my love for you will never
extinquish
and that life itself, is always a work in progress

such a delicate soft finger
tingles the skin
touch a lonley cheek
follow the moisture around
a sculptured feature
and breathe
tame eyes decieve, hold a trance
beneath the stare, suspicion hides
blink the eyes, the futures past
wisk into the wind another
minds wandering act

Into the night, once again
when the moment
the song begins
and the notes bend the emotions
separate the days commotions

all the lyrics take us on a journey
as if its telling our story
seduced by the rhythm, the mind
defenseless
as the tingling tones, needle the body
senses
close the eyes and the world disappears
till were ready for it to reappear
when the song ends, feeling exhausted
and spent
let it play over again, from beginning
to end

the pores of my skin secrete love when you touch me
leaving puddles of ****** beneath my feet
as you hold me in my weaken state
your medusa eyes, stone me into place
now sculpt me to your desires
smooth the rough edges to your liken
polish me to your sense of perfection
as long as you love me, feel free to create

shall I speak to you in the way you want
garnish you with my silly poems
of love and admiration
for the essence of each syllible and rhyme
are truly mine
I am new at this thing, be patient
If my words seem tangled, blame my heart
from being in awe of you to falling somewhere
between like and love
I need to tweak these new feelings
for me to be coherant
but let it be known, it started with
your first hello

gaze at the chariot clouds
chasing the venus star
her brightness hypnotize
the particles of the night
vaccum them up
into her shining abyss

the black background
are filled with peering eyes
some wink, others stoic
the slow movement wave
from dusk to dawn
intice the mortals
to their wildest dreams

the certain comfort
of the night sky
the temptation that
fools ourseleves
chasing lust
we hide behind
its misgivings
and **** us
with the morning light

every moment of time so precious
all the memories the mind caresses
with deep textures and colors sheen
holds hope for love to believe

even the hallow echos of darken streets
or fading silents of forgotten screams
as sorrow drips from gutter seams
holds hope for love to believe

awaken now find what you seek
this journey never peeks
the brightest path that you see
holds hope for love to believe

awaken now find what to seek
for this journey never peeks
and brightest path you see
holds hope for love to believe

go ahead my dear, shed your cocoon
for the sweet scent of spring is upon us
the snow has melted, the roots now sip
as the fingers of green reach for the warmth

and in this new beginning, may I just say
that I am tired of being in the way of myself
In retrospect, I should have use common sense
not let my impulses push you away
for that was the devils voice inside my head

the burden of love you have for me
were the whispers I heard in the winter winds
and now the robins solo, has given more clarity

you are still the music that feeds my soul
you are the voice that soothes these aching bones
your fingers play the chords, that vibrate my heart
as this ghostly feeling haunts these lonley nights

such a fragrance surrounds this room
it can only be emitted by you
that it draws me in, captures my senses
tingling anticipation, is so relentless

your smile brightens every corner of the walls
makes the occupants stand tall
glancing from afar, cursed by trepidation
do they dare to look, to see this revelation

yet your smooth steps, glide towards me
with the ease of the swaying willow tree
the softness of your angelic skin
makes me useless once again

oh the tales of deception we weave
with words of love, only to recede
our faces beam with wrinkle smiles
hiding the history of countless lies

has the years eroded our feelings
in search of new days and meanings
does our love for each other, matter
is it time for it to be put out to pasture

that sparkle in the eyes, slowly fizzle
dampen by lifes endless drizzle
yet we still hold on to each other
hoping there's more than this, together

Its not the still of the night
that calms my heart
Its the memories of our
last night
the gentile touch
the glowing light
the nervous feeling
you admit
as I kiss your lips
then the surrender of
your body to me
as we fall to sleep
in perfect harmony
mercy me, I found
in you the real me

I dont want to be the one that completes you
I want  to be the one that feeds your mind
with the questions to my answers

you don't need a second opinion of yourself
when your first opinion will do just fine
don't allow the insecure ones, tarnish you

for their eyes are hollow, their heart, souless
the jealous rage inside them, holds contempt
of such perfection

I asked the lord for one more day
as I watch you in silence, so beautiful
after all its valentines day
the softness of your skin, still tingles me
the sculpture of your face, the lines perfect
this journey I asked you to take with me
has been everthing I envsion it would be
our life together filled with fullness
the laughter and sorrow, together we shared
no second guess, when I asked for your hand
and your eyes said it all, your kiss affirmed
its twilight now, I always thought I'd go first
the lord needs his angels forever on earth
but the special ones, He needs with Him
so one last kiss and I'll send you on your way
just remember, everyday without you
will be my valentines day

silence is what was heard
when you slam the door
my pitying of myself is nomore
this virus, I'll call you
has been eradicated from my soul
guess the the tonic of truth, that
I made you drink, has turned
you into who I already knew
I can now live the next phase
of my life, in peace

oh, the cool mist, that hides the hills
as the morning sun, seems to create a
rainbow of colors, for half awaken eyes

in the distant, I hear the voices of those
who tend their gardens, the valley below
in hopes of a fruitfull crop

I am but an observer, to this land
a momentary guest, trying not to intrude
but in such amazment, I am of them

they seem to enjoy what seems like toil to me
yet, their chatter and songs, are full of joy
perhaps they are aware how blessed they are
to be in a place of gods making

Shall I pen this verse for you
this time, may it spill upon
your open hands
with all its truths
rub them on your skin
and feel the memories

my constant thoughts of you
invade my dreams, hence
sleepless nights
are you safe, did you read this
still wondering

the bed is barren, on your side
the puppies are grown now
they lay at the end of the bed
head on their paws, droopy eyes
looking to me for their answers
I can ony look at them in silence

even the morning coffee ***
its sound so vibrant, happy,
labors, one less cup to fill

as I pen this final verse
in all its truths
be well my love, enjoy your jouney
remember I was your starting point

and for you, today, my daily thought
if I may

such are the sparkling eyes that entice
such are the sculpted lips I kiss
such are the arms to caress at night
such are my dreams, my morning bliss

these daydreams, are all about you
curling my hair, anticipations of you
this tingling I have, is because of you
the warmth I feel, is because I LOVE
YOU

as I levitate my heart
to reach your mind
and the warmth you
encounter, you'll find
******

the words I whisper
into your ear
seem chrisper
when I hold you near

as your arms hold me tight
till the morning sunlight
there is peace in my mind
through out the night

don't worry bout me, as I pass away
your passion of sorrow, as I lay dead
is noted, not believable, but noted
as your heartfill tears, seem genuine
your left hand, wipes them away

looking up at you, I wish I could smile
seeing the guilt you must feel
wondering, if all you put me through
would it change if I was resurrected

but souls like you, are common
shallow beings, ******* off the love
the ones that trusted you, are discarded
like dust in the wind, you'll plant your
seed, cultivate the newbees, who have
no clue

and as you stand before me
so naked against the night sky
every curve, so perfect
as if sculpted from the gods
of ancient times
so awe I was, at your beauty
I bowed to you as you past by

I dream of you every night
remembering the loving glance
your look was saying, I was next

so take me, my lady, for I am yours
do as you will, lap everything I spill
and when you awake, in my arms
its foreever

In this winter of a lifetime and all the memories,
collected and arranged, another boring history
of this ordinary man

the harsh winds of love, have harden my soul
while the silent secrets of lovers remain, untold
of this ordinary man

that I walked many trails and set them ablaze
I'll blame them on youth, the fog and the haze
of this ordinary man

the education I found, was not from a book
It was wigging away, from my parents hook
of this ordinary man

my fingers not as nimble, as when I was young
the stature not as upright, the last song has begun
of this ordinary man

so I will turn out the lights
make sure the doors are locked
as I bid a final adieu
and a warm goodnight

oh, young robin, your daily apperance
I await
upon the rail, singing to the morning sun
and the newness of the day
stretch out your sleepy petals, beautiful rose
absorb the dew, capture the sunlight
as your fragrance lingers, for me and those
who've waited for you, from winter's night
the frozen piles that lay upon the corners
are dusted *****, the purest ****** white
melt away, to the dismay of winters mourners
the fragrance of spring, stimulates the mind
with each solo the robin sings
and each day the sun rises higher, we find
the warmth to start our new beginnings

there is a lonliness in her smile
yet her eyes twinkle with passion
her walk is a smooth glide
yet her confidence seems shaken
I sense a past full of uncertanty
as if she ask, '' did i do the right thing''
I can only listen, absorb our conversation
perhaps give some thoughts that I have
hoping there not as futile as I think they are
but I see in her, such a lovely being
one of the many of god's great creations
let not the roads of uncertainty find you alone
let not the hallow voices from alleyways sway you
discover yourself again, touch your soul again
your flaws may be many, others to percive
but I am blessed to have you in my life
my wonderful friend

shall I let you reshape me
pour the purest water upon me
peeling off the dying skin
as the worms feast on the remains
then you can mold me into the rich
textures of your deluded fantasies
and let loose your desires to curse me
hoping your hallow life will be free
yet this panoramic view of your creation
is all for naught, you forgot to give it life
you forgot to give it the colors of your love
you only gave it wisdom of who you are
as it watches the smoldering embers of you
fade away

they race past, mindless children
skateboards on slick pavement
past the stoic blinking eyes of
giant animated zoo animals
the people ducking in fetal positions
ducking the floating cars just above
as the striptease ladies in giant windows
perform for the pathetic, lonely men
in awe of their perfection

can I be the tree, filled with fruit
pluck one, taste the sweetness and
if you so desire, taste them all

can I be the warmth that soothes
your cold heart, of lost lovers
fading into the rust of your memories

can I be the promise of something new
a new melody from some lost song
the tingling of the suns rays upon you
in the hopes to lift your head up
to see we are not them, we are
you and I

between the sentences and paragraphs
were the commas and periods are misplaced
the chapters end in question marks

It seems ,you and I, are two of a kind
We ventured into love, again, one more time
our hearts beat fast, when they are near
all our lonliness we collected, dissapear

time and space collide, energy released
such a blinding light mute our senses
we want to be swept away by their solar whispers
feel the galactic ****** being pulled from us
an ever expanding passion that will never end

yet time is a constant and space is a vast place
our energy of love for them, dissapear to a black hole
so we search the universe for another blinding light
in hopes for an ever expanding passion that never end

between the sentences and the paragraphs
were commas and periods are missplaced
the chapters end in question marks

shall we go now on this journey, once per year
let our footsteps engrave this earth ten fold
left are prints of who we are, who we once were
perhaps we will know, when our dreams are
at peace with Him

what have we done in this life He has given us
such hurt we have inflicted, such love we absorbed
has the joy I bestowed upon a stranger, enlighten
perhaps we will know, when our dreams are at
peace with Him

our faults are many,our good deeds many more
as we hope the balance favors us more
perhaps we will know, when our dreams are at
peace with Him

my god may not be yours,  for beliefs are personal
but each conversation, is on our own terms
we will take the scolding as He sees fit
and feel the good we have done for Him
our final question we ask, are always followed
by another question, the answers have questions
that have answers to that question

perhaps we will know when our dreams are at
peace with Him

for the brightest of light in the night
will guide us on this journey
one footstep at a time

A blank piece of paper and restless thoughts
sitting in silence, no words are brought
this room full of moisture, mostly from my eyes
with no answers that I sought
A coldness has sharpen your words
your breath, lingers like swords
that ***** me, like never before

what body are you warming
I should have seen the warnings
when your nights turn into mornings

our bed feels like a vast ocean
empty with waves of emotions
that spill over the horizon
in slow motion

the yearning for your freedom, I ask why
the exhausted sigh and coldness in your eyes
are the echos that fill this room of your goodbyes

hold me once again, just one more time
for the colors of my dreams are scattered
those rich textures are woven into streaks
that fade as time itself fades
such an enchantment that once held me
those ****** blue eyes that I surrendered to
have a hazy gleam of uncertainty
have we found ourselves in a cycle
of repetitive motions, a kiss good morning
a hug good night, a void between
a well place comment, yet such a hollow duty
I know now I'm not shiny and new anymore
corrosion can be so cruel
but when I look at you, you are perfectly polished
such a goddess that has been bestowed upon me
when all the " I love you" are the trueness of my passion.
perhaps you can touch me, and feel the brightest of love
I have for you, just one more time