In the depths of dreaming my body fails to awaken
My eyes race back and forth
Like a camera trying to capture every for the brain to rearrange
I can or can't feel my heartbeat
I wake up in a sweat but why
My body aches as if I ran a marathon
I need fluids to replenish my muscles
My brain surely would appreciate that
As I rise to make sure everything's in place
I look at you and smile it was not a dream just reality
I'll kiss you gently relive this dream

Tonight under this full moon
Let its light guide me to my room
We're there I can escape to my mind
Let my feelings be secure at what I find
For I am not a god nor an Adonis
I'm not weak or strong but honest
If I love you I would never leave you
If you hurt me take my wounds with you for they are your scars to remember me by
And when all the doors you knock on have open and shut in an instant
Perhaps those who've answered have your picture posted no entrance
by now you don't understand what you've done
because in your world your always number one
perhaps you'll finally realize that number one is a lonley number
the rest of us is the sum of everything to come adios

The robins are nestled in the nest
The leaves stop breathing
And the limbs droop and rest
This the night at its best
There's a queer silent playing in my head
An atmospheric pressure instead
No real thoughts I can conjure up
And no catchy words to spread
If I was to awaken you from your drooling slumber
Would you answer or ignore the number
And after all the *** words that spew from you mouth are spent
In the morn you'll think it's a dream
remembered.

The illumination of desperation
Leads to desecration
What I seek to hell with the weak
This is mine to keep
There's things I lack try to interact
Don't fight it no ones got your back
I live for survival eliminate all rivals
Born an outcast each day diabolical
The torment and shame the beatings and pain
Never knowing what I've done drove me insane
I ponder looking through the bars
Doing twenty to life
If only I was wanted and loved
I could have been a shining light

I guess she was the rabbit you pulled out of your hat
A thousand times of trying your magic worked
But knowing you you'll shove her back
Because in this day and age new is not good enough
There's always an up grade

A youngster told me, mister you are old
I asked, how can you tell
His reply was, I'm young, without a wrinkle face
I replied, my face is wrinkled because I always smiled
He told me, you move slowly and with a limp
I replied, I lived in the fast lane, but it was time to get off
My limp was from working hard, staying true to myself, never wavering
His puzzled look needed me to explain further
I remember when I was like you many years ago
My strength and confidence was my burning desire
I left the ones who borned me cause I
knew everything
They closed the door and on it read good luck young man we moved to Florida
Suddenly, reality set in, I was a man
Everything I thought I knew was there
I'm a man
But the little nuances of life the ones they taught me and I ignored have come full circle
Their wisdom and survival of life will always be in my thoughts
So youngster I'm not old I have aged well
The wrinkles on my face are from all the smiles life has given me
My limp is a sign that I will make it to the finish line

Oh don't fret my lady
Those half truths of me you hear
Are their sutle rage of jealousy
Those old suitors that have failed you
The ones that neglected your full lips
Their words try to sway your demeanor is cold
They were blind to your Raven hair
That sculpts your face and loving smile
Their quest was one thing the rest they didn't care
Through your misty eyes I see a constant light
One of hope and happiness not a curse of midnight
So I shall throw you a line tie it off
I will guide you
our boats will adrift and dock at loves
Harbor of delight
There we can mingle our mind
Share laughter and smiles
Slowly erase the past from our chalkboard minds
and exhaustion sets in from the days conversation and all the half truth
From others have been extinguished
may I say oh don't fret my lady
For I am your anchor and you our rope
Just give me the signal  release your rope my anchor will rise set us afloat